posted January 01, 2013 10:07 PM            

I started dating this Capricorn male (12/26/76 I was born 10/01/87) in May and this started off great. We spent a lot of time together and he was everything I wanted and needed. Great connection. Only thing I didn't like about him was our lack of communication or more of his lack of response when I expressed my feelings.
We never made things official but I was ok w/ that b/c I had built up very strong feelings for him that titles didn't matter. I remained patient throughout our whole relationship and it was frustrating at times but I hung in there.
Fast forward to October he started to become distant and kind of just disappeared on me. I still reached out to him and then I read somewhere that Caps usually do the disappearing act sometimes so I left him alone. A few weeks pass and I hear from someone that he has a girl he meet flying out to see him. Of course I'm ****** b/c I was faithful to him & this caught me off guard. I texted him and told him I knew and he should have been honest w/ me from the start. I couldn't really curse him out the way I wanted b/c he happens to be my friends bro and I didn't want to say anything too crazy.I wait a few weeks and of course I'm heartbroken and instead of moving on I let him know that I still care about him,I want to try to make things work and I don't care about this other girl. No response from him on either texts.
I left it alone and didn't text him again until his bday just to say Happy Bday. Now during this time I'm missing him like crazy and refusing to let him go even though i know I should. He responds to the bday text and so I'm thinking maybe I should just try to be friends w/ him so I let him know that everything's cool, lets not be awkward. On New Years he texts me and wishes me happy new year blah blah blah so I'm drunk and I totally forget about the whole "let's be friends" thing and I basically text him letting him know he hurt me, I didn't deserve what he did, I just let out all of these emotions I've been holding in since November. I knew he wouldn't respond but I had to say it.

Of course I'm now kicking myself for all of that b/c I feel like I ruined us becoming friends (even though that's not truly what I want) I can't seem to just let go and I feel like deep down inside we're not truly over and we could eventually get back together w/ time and patience.