posted March 27, 2013 03:56 AM            

Sorry to hear this I can't help you with your chart, I'm too new. I do work with dreams though. What I know is that sometimes these very graphic images also come up when you are deeply connected with the collective subconscious, pointing out how society deals with (and has suppressed womanhood). If people tune into that they sometimes literally feel all of the baggage (and horrible images come up from the subconscious).
So that is something to also consider.
Secondly, I personally always feel its best to take yourself seriously. So perhaps you are right. In that case a good psycho therapist (who is open to this and willing to take you seriously, but also has the medical credentials) would also be a good step to help you look into this and help you through this.
Third, on an alternative level, shamans can help you with these questions. They go into an alternate state where they have access to this information and can help the healing on an energetic level. I have seen amazing results with soul retrieval and working with power animals. Make in this case also sure you find a trustworthy or recommend one, if you would like to try this.
Last, sometimes these feelings are also passed on from generations into your energy field. So for instance your grandmother had this happened to her and you now feel it come up.

posted March 29, 2013 03:36 AM            

You're welcome.
Intense and vivid dream symbolism are actually normal to me. Normally the intensity of the dreams will increase when people start working with them(and become very vivid), but it could very well be you are naturally more receptive to it. And very in tune with the collective unconscious. As with the 'deeper layer' of your being. The more intense the symbolism, the deeper the level in yourself you are working with. This is all just how I perceive it and what I noticed of course.
Therefore I really hope you will find someone to talk to. Someone objective and out of the people in your inner circle.
Reason I'm saying that, is because if these thoughts (and symbols) come up, I'm inclined to say something does internally needs 'cleansing' regardless what it is exactly. Problem with symbolism is, that it's so hard to pin point what it is. Especially when we start explaining it with the mind and at some point asking ourselves question like 'who was it?' I have seen this happening to people in the past & when it turned out it was something/someone else then what the mind came up with, the experience is a thousand times more devastating, because of the feelings that come along with the 'after math' (especially for the one going through it and at this point quite often also the family & friends involved). Which I don't think anyone needs.

I'm not saying this all will be the case, but I would advice outside help. Personally I favour shamanism as a starting point, because the shamans 'travel' in these worlds for you. Meaning you don't have to experience it and they heal the issues for you (and inform you of what they saw after their 'travels') So it's a very safe way to change your energy field. Perhaps this will be of help: http://www.shamansociety.org/organizations.html

Good luck!