posted April 21, 2013 06:10 AM            

I can understand your frustration, and I am sorry you're feeling bad.
But please realise that God has nothing to do with it. You are the only one who is responsible for your life.
If you are not happy, take a look at what you're doing wrong.
Because there's gotta be something. Maybe you are too afraid? Too shy? Too demanding? and so on.

You have to face yourself and not project anger and resentment on God/life/people.

You are in control of your life.
You can make changes.
So stop complaining, get off your butt and do something.

Go out, meet people, have fun, enjoy the sun, dance, buy good things, listen to music, watch a nice movie, eat a delicious meal, hang out with someone, and most importantly.. Love yourself.

Your life is only starting.
You're still young. 30's are supposed to be the best times. You're not a kid anymore, but you're not old either. Decide what you want, and go for it.

posted April 23, 2013 08:55 PM            

My friend thinks my mental illness triggered this. But I feel much freer without having to cling to religion or think anything about it.

It hard to explain. But I feel lighter than air without reading books on religion and feeding myself trash. My preconceptions of god are out the window. I feel there is much we don't know.