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Topic: Reading request for Twirl
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Emsie
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posted June 26, 2013 05:52 PM
  
I'm having difficulties in love again, so could you pull some cards for me? I thought of you, because you give accurate interpretations. And I wanted to ask someone who's an 'outsider' and sees things objectively.Only if you have time for it, of course.  My question is: What will happen between me and P in the context of romance? (If anything at all...) IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted June 27, 2013 06:14 AM
Hey Emsie, If I can find some time I'll read for you IP: Logged |
Emsie
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posted June 27, 2013 07:12 AM
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Originally posted by Twirl:
Hey Emsie, If I can find some time I'll read for you
Thanks so much. I'm really grateful! And I'd like to modify my question, because now I know that there won't be anything between me and this person. My new question: What should I expect to happen in my love life in the near future? (e.g. will I meet any new suitors?) IP: Logged |
Emsie
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posted July 09, 2013 11:13 AM
Hello again. Last time you made a reading for me with your newest deck, then you said you'd do another one with RWS. I think I need this reading now, because I feel I'm going crazy - past events try to creep back into my mind, although I thought I managed to release most of the memories. I feel mad and don't want to waste even just one thought regarding this. It makes me angry now.  I'm curious if I'll be able to get rid of my past finally and find love again. IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted July 09, 2013 11:22 AM
Hi. Didn't forget about you.
What you describe relates to your Scorpio dream as well. But in regards to that I'd like to say, it's more the thoughts you have surrounding the future (chandeliers) then actual truth.
I won't read on fortune, but on guidance & insight more. Think that would be of more help, right? Releasing of the past and working through the processes always take time. Don't be too hard on yourself. Also feeling anger is positive, it indicates you want change & recognise what you don't want anymore.
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Emsie
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posted July 09, 2013 11:45 AM
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Originally posted by Twirl:
Hi. Didn't forget about you.
What you describe relates to your Scorpio dream as well. But in regards to that I'd like to say, it's more the thoughts you have surrounding the future (chandeliers) then actual truth.
I won't read on fortune, but on guidance & insight more. Think that would be of more help, right? Releasing of the past and working through the processes always take time. Don't be too hard on yourself. Also feeling anger is positive, it indicates you want change & recognise what you don't want anymore.
Yes, I think guidance would be so much better. I didn't expect it to blast right back into my life, seriously. It took me by surprise. Days before I pulled some cards for daily readings and the Tower appeared for a few times. I guess it was the indicator of my current upheaval... IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted July 09, 2013 12:23 PM
I will have a look. Can't do it now. Not at home, but I will look into it tomorrow for you. IP: Logged |
Emsie
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Registered: Jul 2012
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posted July 09, 2013 01:09 PM
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Originally posted by Twirl:
I will have a look. Can't do it now. Not at home, but I will look into it tomorrow for you.
Thank you so much, Twirl! IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted July 11, 2013 04:37 PM
Still didn't forget. Just hadn't had the time for it. IP: Logged |
Emsie
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posted July 11, 2013 04:57 PM
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Originally posted by Twirl:
Still didn't forget. Just hadn't had the time for it.
It's okay. Sure, I can wait. IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted July 12, 2013 12:21 PM
Hi Emsie,
I looked in the cards for you. I can see you are going through confusing times at the moment in regards to love. For now I do not see an immediate improvement from that, but you do seem to have a willingness to move forward and conquer those demons. But by forcing this (as my impression is now) you are not addressing the core issue.
From what I could see now, you are really expecting bad things coming from a relationships & lovers in general. You expect to be hurt and to feel more often bad the good when you are with a lover. Fear in general seems to be a big issue for you. The roots in these convictions seem to lie in a conviction that to achieve anything you should fiercely battle for it. Perhaps there have been bas experiences with groups of people involved and/or a lot of gossiping? On a psychological level this could lso ‘just’ having to do with some ‘hormonal imbalances’. However this fear creates a ‘block’ for you. Do you attract unstable characters? Boyfriends who just don’t want to be tied down? Or is it you who generally feels that you are walking on thin air and fall into the same ‘traps’ again? If this is you feeling that way, do realise it is generally, because of the thoughts you have about this. Also there still seems to be a searching of identity which makes it very hard to stand your ground.
To me it does feel as if you are going round in circles. Even if there is a great willingness to address it. It feels as if you see a new opportunity/see how you are actually growing on this level & then you just give it up. In a ‘it will never work’, ‘why do I bother even’ way. You have to get out of the victim role here though and get in touch with your inner power and self value again. If you are not willing to believe in yourself and value yourself, it is difficult to make a change happen in the real world. This means truly looking into the mirror. This really seems to be mostly about inner conflict. But you have to tap into your will power and inner nature (even though there is a big conflict with the heart/soul versus the mind). Perhaps you are already doing this, but the advice is to try and see how you got these ideas? Who said you weren’t good enough or can’t do certain things you wish? (can I ask you about the relationship with your mother? Or was one of your parents overpowering?) Did anyone tell you, you couldn’t be what you wanted? See if you can find where those ideas came from and start realising that isn’t truth. Then you can take the control back and start following more who you are. What you can do to improve that is to tap into your inner power much more (also see where you had to give up a part of yourself in the past, where someone ‘forced’ you to do something else then you wanted). I hope this makes some sense to you and will help you a bit.
Feel free to ask any questions in regards to this and please disregard if it doesn’t resonate with you.
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Emsie
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From: Budapest
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted July 12, 2013 03:04 PM
Wow, Twirl! I even stopped breathing for a few seconds...You just described the actual situation I am currently in. And I really feel I am going in circles. I don't know what causes it, but Mercury rx doesn't seem to help me to forget. Memories coming back took me by surprise (as soon as Saturn turned direct...) But I guess this signals that I'm still not over my past and I still have so much work left to do. IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted July 12, 2013 03:23 PM
From what I got from the cards it's more the mind making you feel this.
The key you cannot find in 'overpowering this' in a forceful way (pretend it's not there/has to be over now), but I think you can find it in an activity you probably loved when you were younger, but let go, because someone said it was silly. If you can find out what the controversy is in what you actually want(ed) to do (an action/job/anything that expresses you more/a talent you let go) and what were 'told' you should do, that will bring you steps ahead. Or at least that's what I expect. Edit: is saturn direct again? Lol. Then it's towards my north node yet again. Sigh! IP: Logged |
Emsie
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Registered: Jul 2012
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posted July 12, 2013 05:32 PM
I forgot to answer to some parts... o.oBoth my parents were overpowering when I was a child. I always felt I didn't get enough support from them.
I used to have a love-hate relationship with mom (now it's lighter...) She always forced me to go for money and to study about it. I've never been attracted to money, I had other plans.
My parents are now divorced and I don't keep in touch with dad. He did things to us which was pretty hard to let go. He always said I won't be anything other than a homeless in this word - at the same time I always had very good grades at school. IP: Logged |
Emsie
Knowflake Posts: 355
From: Budapest
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted July 12, 2013 05:52 PM
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Originally posted by Twirl:
From what I got from the cards it's more the mind making you feel this.
The key you cannot find in 'overpowering this' in a forceful way (pretend it's not there/has to be over now), but I think you can find it in an activity you probably loved when you were younger, but let go, because someone said it was silly. If you can find out what the controversy is in what you actually want(ed) to do (an action/job/anything that expresses you more/a talent you let go) and what were 'told' you should do, that will bring you steps ahead. Or at least that's what I expect. Edit: is saturn direct again? Lol. Then it's towards my north node yet again. Sigh!
I'll think about what activity I used to do back in time. I gave up some things, that's sure. Yes, it's direct again... I'm quite curious what it has in store for me. (Good or bad?!) IP: Logged |
Twirl
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posted July 12, 2013 06:03 PM
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Originally posted by Emsie:
I'll think about what activity I used to do back in time. I gave up some things, that's sure. Yes, it's direct again... I'm quite curious what it has in store for me. (Good or bad?!)
This is where you can find your answer. What was it that you wanted? quote:
Originally posted by Emsie:
I forgot to answer to some parts... o.oShe always forced me to go for money and to study about it. I've never been attracted to money, I had other plans.
Good luck with everything & thanks 4 the feedback. IP: Logged |
Emsie
Knowflake Posts: 355
From: Budapest
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted July 12, 2013 06:14 PM
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Originally posted by Twirl:
Hi Emsie,
I looked in the cards for you. I can see you are going through confusing times at the moment in regards to love. For now I do not see an immediate improvement from that, but you do seem to have a willingness to move forward and conquer those demons.
From what I could see now, you are really expecting bad things coming from a relationships & lovers in general. You expect to be hurt and to feel more often bad the good when you are with a lover. Fear in general seems to be a big issue for you. The roots in these convictions seem to lie in a conviction that to achieve anything you should fiercely battle for it. Perhaps there have been bas experiences with groups of people involved and/or a lot of gossiping? However this fear creates a ‘block’ for you. Do you attract unstable characters? Boyfriends who just don’t want to be tied down? Or is it you who generally feels that you are walking on thin air and fall into the same ‘traps’ again?
You're very spot on. I am willing to start a new chapter and let go of things. Even I feel it's necessary and I want to get rid of weights of the past.
I also feel what you mentioned - I want to rush the process, but now maybe memories gotten back, because I used the behaviour which I only call 'short-cut'. Perhaps, I wanted to bury everything under the carpet, and move on.
But I definitely feel that I don't need these things anymore into my life. I want to be free of them! I do feel I have to battle for everything twice as much. And you're also right about this gossip thing as well. Others used me as a target. I felt like a victim, and this used to go on for many more years. Even my love interests made joke of me and made me feel embarrassed. I'm afraid if I give all I have to a lover (or interest) then he'll do the same. IP: Logged |
Emsie
Knowflake Posts: 355
From: Budapest
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted July 12, 2013 06:21 PM
Now only a few things popped up in my mind.I used to dance, play badminton, play football. I gave up on all of these activities. I enjoyed them, although, people didn't say that these were stupid things to do. I have one where mom said it was a stupid idea and she nearly laughed at me. When I was a teen I wanted to MOVE to the USA. (Now I'd still go abroad, but not the USA anymore.) IP: Logged |
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