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From: Aubrey, Texas, 76227
Registered: Aug 2013

posted September 23, 2013 01:29 AM            

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I have been in what others have described as a "transformation" for about the last year. Right now, I'm torn between the vastly different person I used to be and the alluring freedom of who I am becoming...but it scares me at the same time. Ive been melancholy lately...I feel trapped but "escape" isn't really possible either. I've started to keep to myself in my personal relationships and family...withdrawn is how they describe it. I feel like there is something I am missing....or maybe it's just me having my head in the clouds. I'm confused. I'm wondering if there is something in my chart that would explain these things I'm going through. Something I should do....just ride it out? Any help would be greatly appreciated. I just recently started learning about astrology but much of it resonates with me. Thanks.

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From: Aubrey, Texas, 76227
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posted September 23, 2013 09:01 AM            

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I've also been a bit rebellious lately and defensive. I get very annoyed with those I'm close to when they question my actions, motives, behavior etc. This was never an issue before and I was happy sharing every detail of everything I did with those close to me. And I don't find passion or interest in the things I used....but I suddenly have a drive for different things....like I totally turned off the road I was on. I married very young (21...I'm 33 now). But now I look back and thing I jumped into it thinking it would offer me security and that my parents would approve and we could be closer....my parents were always confused by me and they were quite disappointed in me all through my youth. However, we've had a rocky marriage and he has had several affairs but I played the part of submissive wife and was happy with my task for the most part...I worked hard to make him happy and be a good wife. We had two children and I love being their mom. Now, through this transition I question why I did this...why did I stay through all the affairs and ill treatment? Now, I'm discontent and I'm going through this transition and I don't feel any kind of emotional connection with him anymore and I'm really not attracted to him. But now...he's suddenly head over heels in love with me and wants me to go back to the way I was when I kissed the ground he walked on but I just can't do it. As a matter of fact I met a guy (sun cancer) and incidentally made an amazing connection with him....he ended up breaking things off....but now I'm wondering if there is more for me...maybe I made a hasty decision in marrying and all these years I just didnt want to give up out of my determination to not quite...but now I realize tht I haven't been myself all these years. I don't know what is going on but I'm trying to see if my chart would have any explanation.

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posted September 23, 2013 01:01 PM            

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I read another thread instructing that this chart should be posted.

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posted September 23, 2013 09:22 PM            

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Can anyone take a look and see what my issue might be as of late...or what's ahead. I feel like something is coming. I'm trying to handle my current situation but can't quite get a grasp on what is going on. I wish I could read and understand these charts!

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