posted November 20, 2013 01:06 PM            

Do you want me to do one? Or wnat someone else?

posted November 20, 2013 01:16 PM            

I pulled the following:

Devil
Justice
Lovers
9 of Swords
Moon
Queen of Swords

The reading is telling that you're getting too attached with all those problems (I know, me myself do this all the time), you need to be careful with this to not be sick! I see that all these problems are karmic (I don't want to say fair...), you and your family need to pass through all of this. I see that in the future you will have a choice to do. And to make the right decision, you need to act without feelings, with all the rational side of you. I pulled one more: Hanged Man. For this, you will sacrifice something to get what you want.

I hope that this reading can bring some relief to you.

posted November 20, 2013 01:24 PM            

Has this been like a revolving theme in your life? I see that you cannot not break from this. What is this that keeps making you “trip up” in life?

posted November 20, 2013 01:37 PM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
I see that your pain and anxiety largely come from the demands of others ( I guess family), but it’s not coming from “life”. Perhaps you feel too much stress from what’s going on at home and almost have gotten stuck on the negativity which you cannot switch it off when you leave your house or go to your room, or whatever, to find a job. I don’t think you can tell, but your unhappiness is showing to others…like even if you go out for a cup of coffee. Lethargic is the word I keep getting. Also, for whatever reason I am hearing that you need to exercising…I don’t know if it’s because it can change your mood, feel better, or you need an image change in your life. Anyways, a job will come and go, then another one will come about but I see 5 months total to where you will have a job and feel secure enough. Even then, I don’t see you leaving your house………..do you take care of someone there? Or feel like you have to, or someone expects you too? Do you owe someone money?

Has this been like a revolving theme in your life? I see that you cannot not break from this. What is this that keeps making you “trip up” in life?

I see 90% of your battle is how you are taking “it all in”…if you can somehow deflect the bad situation you are in, you will feel better and “get there”/where you want to be.

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posted November 20, 2013 01:41 PM            

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Originally posted by Rosalind:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by cherful24:
[b]I see that your pain and anxiety largely come from the demands of others ( I guess family), but it’s not coming from “life”. Perhaps you feel too much stress from what’s going on at home and almost have gotten stuck on the negativity which you cannot switch it off when you leave your house or go to your room, or whatever, to find a job. I don’t think you can tell, but your unhappiness is showing to others…like even if you go out for a cup of coffee. Lethargic is the word I keep getting. Also, for whatever reason I am hearing that you need to exercising…I don’t know if it’s because it can change your mood, feel better, or you need an image change in your life. Anyways, a job will come and go, then another one will come about but I see 5 months total to where you will have a job and feel secure enough. Even then, I don’t see you leaving your house………..do you take care of someone there? Or feel like you have to, or someone expects you too? Do you owe someone money?

Has this been like a revolving theme in your life? I see that you cannot not break from this. What is this that keeps making you “trip up” in life?

I see 90% of your battle is how you are taking “it all in”…if you can somehow deflect the bad situation you are in, you will feel better and “get there”/where you want to be.

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posted November 20, 2013 01:49 PM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
1st...what's so bad?
2nd...why have you not left (when you could have or had a job or moved in with a friend)
3rd...do they feel they need to take care of you? Why aren't you leaving....there is a strong sense that YOU are not leaving because of something, not because of lack of money.............

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posted November 20, 2013 01:56 PM            

ok, so it confirms my messages and I get it...I get where you are coming from and what you are thinking...but I also see the reality of the situation.

You have to learn to close yourself, emotions, etc off to your family. You cannot let their f'ed up-ness hurt you any longer and to do that, you need to learn to switch it off. But you also need to learn to fake it until you make it, switch on the brightness when you leave the house...I guess that's where the excersizing is coming from...go walk do something invigority to help with your shine showing up on your face and with your being.
Ok, have you thought about being an "advisor" on bitwine, or keen, etc...that way you can be making money with your talent and they don't need to know about it.

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Originally posted by Rosalind:
Its because of money. I don't have friends because my parents are controlling my life and I'm terrifi ed of them. They threatened me with closing me into a mental house. They forced me to go into welfare because they want money. My mother told me feels nothing but pity for me and cursing me she says I'm a good for nothing. Because of them and this situation I've become Ill. I barely eat or sleep and my whole family is against me. My mother told she already dreams about the money I'll receive from well fare.

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posted November 20, 2013 02:04 PM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
Ok, so you do "owe" them money...although it's in a strange way You do need to stay there because of them...you are taking care of them........they depend on you...the money you do or will bring into them.

I get it.

Ok, have you thought about being an "advisor" on bitwine, or keen, etc...that way you can be making money with your talent and they don't need to know about it.

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posted November 20, 2013 02:36 PM            

They seem mean and cruel people. But you cannot give in to them. Don’t believe their bs…they are lazy and rather make you a sacrifice lamb instead of them doing something about their lives. Be better than them, start by thinking better, and thus, take back control.

You will be fine you just have to believe it and really focus on a game plan…a way of getting money to move out….or apply to college and live in a dorm…take out loans to do so.

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Originally posted by Rosalind:
I owe them money? No. Do I take care of them? No. Do they depend on me? They only want money. They don't care about me. They are seeing me as some sort of bank. Is there any hope for me? You just said that no. Thanks. Maybe I should reconsider suicide now. Because I simply can't take it anymore. I can't spend my life crying hopelessly.

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posted November 20, 2013 02:44 PM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:
Yes, you do owe them money…you’re not keeping the welfare checks, right?…they depend on you for that money which is why they don’t want you to leave…and they have successfully filtered your thoughts and feelings into actually staying there. Find a job online where they won’t know about it, save, and move out without a notice.

They seem mean and cruel people. But you cannot give in to them. Don’t believe their bs…they are lazy and rather make you a sacrifice lamb instead of them doing something about their lives. Be better than them, start by thinking better, and thus, take back control.

You will be fine you just have to believe it and really focus on a game plan…a way of getting money to move out….or apply to college and live in a dorm…take out loans to do so.

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posted November 20, 2013 03:21 PM            

I pulled 6 of Pents rx crossed by 9 of cups rx
bottom: 7 of swords rx
left: 6 of swords rx
above: Judgement
right: The Sun

Strength-3 of Pents- Ace of Pents rx- 2 of Swords (clarifying: 5 of wands, The Heirophant rx)

It seems as you said your family's unfair demands have really gotten to you on a deep level, and it's making you very unhappy and feeling like you're trapped with no way to move forward. Their sneaky and manipulative intentions have been revealed, and you want nothing more than for them to face judgment for what they've put you through.

But it's not all negative... It seems you're much stronger than you give yourself credit for, and as they say it's always darkest before the dawn. The sun in the near future position is a good sign. Your money problems and fear of failing professionally are holding you back, but 3 of pents shows you can and will succeed if you put the time and effort into it. It probably won't be easy and you might have to start at the bottom, but you'll find support and praise from others if you show that you're dedicated.

2 of Swords as the outcome shows that this really comes down to a choice you need to make... You have to stop giving your power/resources away to others and believing you're not capable of supporting yourself and being happy, because you are. 5 of wands and the hierophant rx shows you can either choose to stay in your combative situation and face even more arguments and defeat from your family, or you can take the untraditional route and break free from the "system".

If school isn't an option and employment is hard to find, you'll probably have to think outside the box in some way... If you're thinking of re-locating to England, I would say it's definitely a good possibility. Regardless of the reading, staying around your family seems like the worst thing you can do at this point tbh..

posted November 20, 2013 04:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Rosalind:
You are absolutely right FireMoon. Thank you.

Funny thing: I just turned on my TV ( I rarely do this) and switching channels the remote stopped on one where England is presented. Should I consider that a sign?

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No problem... And yes! I've come to believe sometimes little things like that really do mean something, and looking back I always wish I would've paid attention

Anyway I would say go with your gut about moving, it seems like a change of location could be just the right thing for you right now.. Can I ask do you have connections in England or know people who can help you get on your feet once you're there? Even if not I think leaving our comfort zone no matter how stressful can usually be a huge motivation and self esteem boost...

posted November 20, 2013 04:21 PM            

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Originally posted by FireMoon:
No problem... And yes! I've come to believe sometimes little things like that really do mean something, and looking back I always wish I would've paid attention

Anyway I would say go with your gut about moving, it seems like a change of location could be just the right thing for you right now.. Can I ask do you have connections in England or know people who can help you get on your feet once you're there? Even if not I think leaving our comfort zone no matter how stressful can usually be a huge motivation and self esteem boost...

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posted November 20, 2013 06:36 PM            

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Originally posted by Rosalind:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by cherful24:
[b]Yes, you do owe them money…you’re not keeping the welfare checks, right?…they depend on you for that money which is why they don’t want you to leave…and they have successfully filtered your thoughts and feelings into actually staying there. Find a job online where they won’t know about it, save, and move out without a notice.

They seem mean and cruel people. But you cannot give in to them. Don’t believe their bs…they are lazy and rather make you a sacrifice lamb instead of them doing something about their lives. Be better than them, start by thinking better, and thus, take back control.

You will be fine you just have to believe it and really focus on a game plan…a way of getting money to move out….or apply to college and live in a dorm…take out loans to do so.

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posted November 20, 2013 06:40 PM            

What do I need to know about my situation with John....Such as: (1)what does he want with me (to talk, something casual, make amendands, walk away, tell me off, etc....I can't figure it out.
(3) what are his thoughts/feelings towards me/us at this point or what he is thinking towards the future
(3) in the big pic of things, is he going to stay with her or leave?

(4)should I be patient with him, should I walk away, does he want to walk away from me, etc

posted November 21, 2013 03:02 AM            

Five of Cups- The Fool- Ace of Swords

I believe that he wants to make amends and wants to be your friend. Ace of Swords card shows that its up to you if you accept his amends and friendship.

2.

Three of Swords- Ten of Wands- 4 of Swords

Something bad happened with him and his relationship. He feel suffocated and burdened but he doesn't have the courage to change things. He just want to escape his reality.

3.

4 of Pentacles- The Empress- Knight of Wands

He wants to leave but he can't. Something is tie him down to her. Love or money. Or both. I don't like 4 of Pentacles as a card. The person feels manipulated and controlled in base of some things.

4.

Page of Wands- Ace of Swords-Page of Swords

posted November 21, 2013 04:23 AM            

Is it possible for you to be an adviser on all these websites quoted, or even your website you can do one for free, and do natal reports for a prices that'll help you (just how does paypal work in Romania?)

quite a few people here do that, and i'm sure they are more likely to help you in sharing how they set up than see you as 'competition'

i'll do a reading later, but what i think is we need to brainstorm a practical way for you to make money and get out of there ASAP!

does your guy in England know you are going through all this btw?

posted November 21, 2013 04:37 AM            

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Originally posted by NoRainNoRainbows:

OMG Rosalind! i am going to tell u what you already want and to get out of there as soon as possible!
i can't see anyone being able to stay sane in such a sick environment.

Is it possible for you to be an adviser on all these websites quoted, or even your website you can do one for free, and do natal reports for a prices that'll help you (just how does paypal work in Romania?)

quite a few people here do that, and i'm sure they are more likely to help you in sharing how they set up than see you as 'competition'

i'll do a reading later, but what i think is we need to brainstorm a practical way for you to make money and get out of there ASAP!

does your guy in England know you are going through all this btw?

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posted November 21, 2013 05:54 AM            

Can I ask you a question, as I did a tarot reading in the beggining?