posted December 14, 2013 03:13 PM            

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Originally posted by Tofu addict:
Moon in Sagitarius, when you need them they feel caught, they are emotionally the most unavailable moon imho. I am one myself, know what I am talking about. They can philosophise till the cows come home , about life and death and name it , while their loved ones are literally dying. ( Not saying you are dying, but as a matter of speaking).

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THAT was my thought! I swear the sag cancels out a lot of cancer tendacies doesn't it? He's not a typical clinger. And something in me has always been cautious about coming to him for help. If its not emotional wise, he is there in .2 seconds. But emotions? Depends. Hell LISTEN. But other than that? No. I called him, for the first time asking for help, explaining what was going on in my head....mostly silence.

So... I flat out asked .
"Was calling you a mistake? Quite frankly we've been together a while, I think I should be able to call you for support. I never need support. But I can't control this and I'm going crazy."

He said no it was not a mistake, I could always go to him... But when I asked to see him I got a basic brush off. Avoid.

I'm not needy. I've always been independent. He likes that. But this is out of my control, and I needed him. I hate admitting that, but I did.

I understand the sag needs a long leash of freedom. I think that added with cancer moods is the whole reason for the rubber band love.

But I always thought if I needed him he'd be there...and... He's not. It makes me question his loyalty. Because if the tables were turned I'd be there in 10 minutes flat.

Is this a permanent thing? How are you supposed to have a future, family , andnmmarriage with someone if they bail when you need them.