posted December 20, 2013 02:04 AM            

In the meantime, what I've been guided to tell you is that your life's not ruined. You may not be able to change your circumstance right now but you can change your perception. Changing your perception will help you get through it & grow & eventually you'll look bad one day & be proud of how far you've come. Being worried & negative does you no good...it won't fix things, but it will affect your negatively affect your health & your sanity. I know it's not easy but you have to make an effort & it will get easier. I've been there, as most people have at some point in their lives when they've thought & believed their whole world is crashing down on them & they feel suffocated by life itself. My suggestions to you, should you choose to take them is to 1) start looking at your life in a different light. Find things to be grateful for, there are many...you live with your mom, instead be thankful you have a roof over your head & food. Be thankful you have internet. Be thankful you have your health etc. 2) before anyone new can come into your life, you need to be willing to fully accept them. You're asking about A but your still hung up on your ex. Is it fair to A to be in this relationship? You can't use people as "fillers"...you need to work on getting over your ex. You can still love them, the love we have for people isn't limited, but you can't put your life on hold for them or the hope that you will reconcile. You can leave that door open but don't stand there waiting for him to come home so to say...you deserve better. You will find that perfect person for you & until then love your life & enjoy it...don't look to others for validation.

Hope this helps! Again, I'll do your card reading tomorrow. Hugs

posted December 20, 2013 10:42 PM            

Theme: Akasha: I interpret this card as spiritual development
Challenge: Crystal-have faith and hope, there's something positive that you can't see yet. This card is saying that there's a lot of negativity around you and is trying to encourage you to be more positive.
Guidance:Blessed Change: You need to change your perception on your current circumstance. Also, perhaps change your 'routine'...basically the guides are saying that change is needed and it will help usher in positive energy for your situation.
Outcome: Isaiah-it's time to give birth to new situations in your life

OK so to me these cards are basically repeating what I was guided to tell you yesterday. I really think your angels/guides don't want you to focus on the outcome of either relationship, but rather focus on yourself, at least during this time. I know this is not the reading you asked for, but this is the reading/message that I've received for you (twice lol).

posted December 21, 2013 02:55 AM            

It was a night.. I guess I got my answers neither wants me or thinks I'm worthy that's it ...it is what it is. I will retreat back into myself & be alone ...I'm just tired of being alone cause I'm always alone always have been...but I guess I just need come to terms with things & how they are...I think I was meant to be alone on this earth need just deal with it, accept it, learn to love it.