posted January 03, 2014 03:19 AM            

When does it end? They say happiness is a choice and I convince myself to be so...and then life throws me another curve ball.

Right now I'm waiting for news about my very ill dog Jenna

On Monday I go back to work and will encounter. My woman hating manager for whom I have lost all respect. I have applied for other jobs and will continue to do so but so far I was short listed for two without a successful outcome

I'm battling financially and when I socialize with people here I'm usually the one who pays because the friends I have here are worse off than me. And yes, sometimes they can and do take advantage

Been single for years and often joke that I have become the man I was supposed to marry. I guess I have become used to being alone .

Christmas and new year are lonely too my friends go out of state and my immediate family lives in another country. I can't and won't leave as I have to be home for my dog who because of her nature will pine if I board her in a kennel. I won't be able to enjoy myself knowing that she will be wondering why I have abandoned her

I don't know if I can manage any longer....or why I am being tested so much...more than I can write down here

I feel disconnected from everyone and everything

posted January 03, 2014 04:06 AM            

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Originally posted by incognito:
I could have written that. Maybe ur outer planets are hitting a certain house. Know that you are not alone. Post chart with transit and progressions? hugs

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Hi incognito

I'm sorry you are going throughout the same I wouldn't wish it on anyone...

I keep telling myself to stay positive that things will change and that I have a lot to be thankful for but I'm falling deeper and deeper into a bottomless dark pit. It seems Life laughs at my attempts to climb out

I have taken your suggestion to post my chart with transits and progressions

I hope things improve for you...let me know how it's going?

Hugs and blessings

posted January 03, 2014 05:26 AM            

Hi Natsu,

If the birth time is correct, Uranus about to enter your 6th house means that you will very soon be changing jobs and you may do so several times so get prepared. YOu can probably feel it so you have already been looking. But it's not necessarily a bad thing. Someone i know used it to start his own business. It manifests as dissatisfaction in your current job for whatever reason. This is a pretty long transit but you should try to make the best of it. Another person I know quit his job during this transit as his boss was becoming unbearable (whether it was his perception or his reality or that he just became more annoyed and less likely to put up with restrictions at work, I don't know) Changed his job twice in the next few months after that and is still looking for change.

Saturn conjunct ascendant square your natal venus and going into your first house is probably why you are feeling so insecure about yourself right now and lonely when it comes to relationships. I know sometimes saturn transit conjunct venus means breakup or getting v serious. So not sure what square would be like. It looks like its going to retrograde so not sure how long it's going to last. Maybe a year or 2? Check astro.com

Also from your chart you seem to be quite a jovial and giving person but can be a bit impatient with restrictions like these.

A good thing is that pluto is going to enter your third house soon which will give you depth and insight when it comes to your thoughts and communicating. This could help you a lot with your next job.

Neptune is also about to enter your 5th house soon. I would say keep your wits about you in the romance department.

posted January 03, 2014 05:51 AM            

Birth time is correct

I have had this dissatisfaction for the past year and my manager who here on secondment leaves in July
I don't think I will wait that long...he is devious, cunning and manipulative and has got on the wrong side of the higher ups more than once. I have been told to sit tight, but honestly the company as a whole does not value it's staff

I haven't been in a relationship since 2010 and looking back what I had was not a relationship in the true sense of the word.

I'm trying to think with more depth and insight...to consider the consequences before I act

I'm very wary when it comes to guys...but I'm also quite vulnerable and feel that, yes, I should keep my wits about me...

I travelled in 2011 and haven't gone anywhere since then as my doggy has been unwell and I won't leave her in anyone else's care

I had zero love life these past two years, lol

Thanks for this...I may not like what is happening right now but at least I now understand it a bit better

posted January 03, 2014 12:23 PM            

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Originally posted by incognito:
Hope you feel better and ur doggy is ok. I don't know if that interpretation was accurate <3

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Hey incognito

I fetched Jen from the vet earlier...significant spinal degeneration and she has received pain meds and an extension on her anti inflammatories and diuretics

It's not her time yet and I am going to continue doing the best I can for the time we have left together

Thanks again for taking the time to respond to our thread

posted January 03, 2014 12:26 PM            

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Originally posted by incognito:
Hope you feel better and ur doggy is ok. I don't know if that interpretation was accurate <3

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BTW I think your interpretation was good...except that I haven't been in a relationship for over three years ...I guess the stars indicate possibility and it's up to us to follow through