posted April 05, 2014 02:17 PM            

I'm back! I had an absolutely awful week and time spent in the hospital with over exhaustion. Just doing too much and I didn't think I was doing that much! But my Doctor gave me the noodle lashing, actually more than that, and ordered me to stay home for two weeks. My employer has been so patient. So I've been gardening and getting my guy friends to dig in manure and compost. Oh and putting in my scarecrow "buddy". He looks like the one from the Wizard of Oz. Crows want to make a nest in his hat. Oh well keeps the bunnies away.

posted April 05, 2014 04:23 PM            

Things at my work are stressful but I'm trying to make the best of it!
My little man has been a bit sick - allergies I believe and teething so I've been tending to him
I've been at the farmers market today & got lots of organic goodies! I'm vegan so that place is my favorite!! Lol

I do have lots of questions regarding CB - I've had so much help from LostTaurus during this week

I told CB I didn't think I should see him anymore. The constant questioning of where things were going and feeling like he was back burner ing me just started to feel too tiring

I also saw a giant red flag when he told me he was sparing physical affection (remember he only kissed me twice in three months) bc he didn't want to "give me the wrong idea" or "lead me on"

Those statements alone just made me realize he doesn't want to commit to me and he kept saying he didn't want to rush into anything

I think 3 months is adequate time to see if you're wanting to progress so even though our last evening was full of laughs, good cooking and flirty smiles I just knew the next day I couldn't feel back burnered anymore

If you can do a general reading I would appreciate it

I'm curious to know if he will contact me again, interested in being with me

LostTaurus says she thinks he will in time and says she thinks he's upset right now. He seemed so complacent. I hope not to hurt him, only that he learns something from our time together & that a girl won't wait forever!

I am so appreciative of all the support from you and several others here

It has really made me so aware of such kind, caring souls that I'm surrounded by

posted April 05, 2014 07:00 PM            

Hi sweetie,

O.K. I'm not going to do a reading for you only advice from an older sister that has been there. It is up to you if you want to take some advice or not. Always a choice.

I have read a lot of your e mails and readings for you. If you will look back into your last email to me you stated

1. Don't think I should see him anymore.

2. Felt too tiring being on the back burner.

3. He doesn't want to give you the wrong idea by too much affection. Your red flag.

4. You said he sounds complacent.

O.K. my question to you after telling me all this and pretty much telling me and twitter and many others the same thing...why DO you want him back??

Think about it dear one. He simply doesn't want what you want.
When I did readings for you I saw progression between you two but perhaps that was because you were making it happen. Not him. Crimson saw the two of you with a child. She said it could have been the two of you with your son. I feel that's it.

I know it is soooo hard to let go but do you really feel that you would be happy with him in the long term? You said 3 months should be long enough. I agree. YOU CANNOT CHANGE A PERSON. He is not going to change to fit your mold.

I feel it is best to just move on. You deserve someone who will give you lots of love and wants a future with you and your son. Give yourself some time to heal and please keep in touch.

**Also think about asking about more and more readings. I'm not trying to be hurtful, I would NEVER do that to you, but it is so tempting to latch on to someone who gives you something positive. Go back and read what you said to me honey and please take good care of yourself. I here if you would just like to talk. Much love Poochy XX