posted July 03, 2014 03:04 PM            

i know it sounds strange and normally I always know what I want but at the moment i have a little (or even big) crisis.

1. I do not know what I really want in love: do I want a partner or not do I really want to get married some day and have kids (I am sure that I want children one day though)

2. do I want to end my creative project or shall i start a new one? Maybe I am just not talented enough to do so? Maybe I don't want to be in that creative field anymore (while writing this my heart feels sick...)

And above all: Why don't I know what I want? Normally I always know what
I want...

posted July 04, 2014 09:29 AM            

Oh, I'd love to. Thank you in advance

posted July 04, 2014 09:52 AM            

I am listing my own preferences although I do not mind a considerate smoker. Then when you look back over the list... you will see that a person will emerge...

posted July 04, 2014 10:23 AM            

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Originally posted by tphoenix5:
I used to teach classes on just this kind of thing. The first thing is to sit down and list all the things you know you do not want... lets say I do not want a smoker, someone who lies, someone who will not be faithful to our relationship..

I am listing my own preferences although I do not mind a considerate smoker. Then when you look back over the list... you will see that a person will emerge...

You might want to try that...?

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posted July 04, 2014 10:26 AM            

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Originally posted by tphoenix5:
When I get back I will throw cards on number 2.

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posted July 04, 2014 10:29 AM            

What the cards show with the 5 of swords, is a deep distrust, a sense of unfairness in terms of your perception of things. Perhaps you have had to fight hard for what you have had---and often times, you may feel that there may be no purpose in deciding the future, because life has a way of "winning" over you anyway--however, this mentality, is also clarified by the Ace of Cups, which shows that you have healing, love, and gifts of contentment in life which you hold on to, and which will appear to you. So, the mentality here is: "even if life is unfair, I want to win at it, and grab every gift I can." The Ace of cups shows healing of unfair events or circumstances.

In terms of insight or advice into what you need to do for clarity, the cards show that a period of rest and internal questions and transformation will help you. The two of swords here is ironic b/c I feel that this is telling you to examine what you DO NOT want in order to find out what is meaningful to you. The need to go within (4 of swords) is reflected, take some time to simply remind yourself of the things in your life which offer you the most peace.

The "Death" card appears, as a transformation, after taking time to rest and regroup, you will complete your transformation and end the "5 of swords" feeling and step into the "Ace of cups" feeling. The Strength card shows that love, pride, and also humility are key to what you are looking for in your life. The 9 of wands is a powerful statement, that tells you to push through your confusion. In the deck I have, a woman is surrounded by sunset with 9 flames around her--which to me represents you having total confidence in what surrounds you and really taking in everything you have sorted through.

posted July 04, 2014 11:22 AM            

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Originally posted by lotus_flower:
Enne,

What the cards show with the 5 of swords, is a deep distrust, a sense of unfairness in terms of your perception of things. Perhaps you have had to fight hard for what you have had---and often times, you may feel that there may be no purpose in deciding the future, because life has a way of "winning" over you anyway--however, this mentality, is also clarified by the Ace of Cups, which shows that you have healing, love, and gifts of contentment in life which you hold on to, and which will appear to you. So, the mentality here is: "even if life is unfair, I want to win at it, and grab every gift I can." The Ace of cups shows healing of unfair events or circumstances.

In terms of insight or advice into what you need to do for clarity, the cards show that a period of rest and internal questions and transformation will help you. The two of swords here is ironic b/c I feel that this is telling you to examine what you DO NOT want in order to find out what is meaningful to you. The need to go within (4 of swords) is reflected, take some time to simply remind yourself of the things in your life which offer you the most peace.

The "Death" card appears, as a transformation, after taking time to rest and regroup, you will complete your transformation and end the "5 of swords" feeling and step into the "Ace of cups" feeling. The Strength card shows that love, pride, and also humility are key to what you are looking for in your life. The 9 of wands is a powerful statement, that tells you to push through your confusion. In the deck I have, a woman is surrounded by sunset with 9 flames around her--which to me represents you having total confidence in what surrounds you and really taking in everything you have sorted through.

I hope that wasn't too intense. I don't know how this stuff comes out, I really don't!! <3

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Wonderful. Really wonderful Thank you so much