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posted July 09, 2014 10:38 PM            

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Today is the anniversary of my graduation.
I studied for 8 years for my degree, it was blood, sweat and tears.
During my dissertion internship (the last six months to finish) I not only had to deal with a new environment and high responsability, but I was also grieving my father. Against all odds I made it through, with honors.

It's been 1 year and I'm still unemployed.
It's been 1 year of feeling caged at home.

Always said to myself that if one had the courage and will to do something, he'll be successful in doing so.
Now I don't believe it anymore. I feel so defeated.

I want to do so many things, but it's like my hands are tied. I want to further my music knowledge, go to a school. I can't because I don't have money, because I don't have a job. Tried to get a part-time outside my study's field, nobody's willing to give me one because I'm over qualified for such jobs.
I want to be independent, to have my own place. I can't. I want to go back to my University's town. I can't. Or, I could even go abroad, change countries, why not? Also can't.
I like to have control over my life, to feel everything is planned and heading somewhere. I'm just freaking out!!!

I spend all of my time at home, not much to do, maybe I'm over thinking.

Could someone give a reading on the near future? Is it going to change soon? A job, moving out, a nice guy, anything?

I'm sorry for the long rambling, had to get it all out. Thank you for your patience. I'll make sure to give back the kindness when I'm better.

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posted July 10, 2014 12:45 PM            

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posted July 10, 2014 12:59 PM            

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I asked about will you get a job soon? There were too many questions to ask so many at once...Here are the cards and the way I see it:

the Magician
The 10 of wands Rx
The Devil

Clarifier: 7 of wands Rx

This says you have the power to get a job. You refuse to let go of stumbling blocks. Ok now I have this big degree... I want the big job... but maybe you have to intern first... or something like that... Your fear of letting go losing control keeps you from being employed. You have a great deal of education. But right now the entire world is over crowded and not enough jobs to go around. That said, I believe if the Spirit is willing... and you seem willing but you seem to have put parameters on your willingness... I will not take a job that is...... I have done this myself. I have tons of education and at one time I would not allow myself to think of a lowly job. Then I became unemployed and homeless. I took a job as cashier in a grocery store. Then work of my nature came in... You know when you are not dwelling on something it comes forward.... truly... I think that is the problem. I do not know your chart and Springtime Flower is a better reader than I am... (and that sucks since I have been to alot of astrology schools too but I quit doing any of this work for almost 16 years)... but the feeling is the same. You have to take a job... or something to get you back in the game. That will lead you to something else... more like what you went to school for. I am on this forum honing my skills to go back to reading in TIME... and I do it with earnest and usually only ask for a reading in return.. (one of my teachers used to say... what you give for free people treat as worthless... dont want that)... But this is my way of saying... i am out there... trading to learn. Why not offer your services for half the going rate for the first month to a company... its worth a shot...

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