posted July 20, 2014 11:11 PM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
Hello dear. Thank you for remembering our reading. Yes I can exchange with you, what is your question?

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Hi! Of course, I was very glad that I came across an old deck. My other one got destroyed. This one will work for now.

My question is similar to what we were talking about before (LOL, I am lame I know). I'm just at a crossroads right now about how I feel toward the person we were discussing in my synastry reading. I'm mystified about her feelings....and mine. That is unusual. To put it simply, what does H really feel toward me, and would she want to start a romantic relationship at any point in the future?

posted July 20, 2014 11:28 PM            

3 of Swords/6 of Pentacles: You feel that the psychic you consulted was trying to give you good advice, but weighted your heart down with heavy and unstable news. Perhaps you feel like there is an imbalance between you two now...you may feel that you've offered her better and/or more accurate readings and she is starting to take more than she gives.

4 of Wands/7 of Pents/the World: I drew these cards as insight to your inner nature and how your dad sees you. You are very home oriented, but have large aspirations for yourself. Your family network is very important; you want a bright, loving supportive base of friends, family and loved ones and you show you care through loving actions you do for them. This will aid you in your success. You are methodical and pragmatic (true to your Saturnine nature) in your dealings with the world and pursuit of success. You accept that hard work must be done in order to get concrete results, especially in the achieving of your dreams. All around, your dad is very proud of you - he sees you have a good head on your shoulders and he respects how cultured you are for a young person.

5 of Pentacles/Judgement Rx/8 of Wands Rx/Knight of Wands Rx/9 of Pentacles/the Hierophant: I drew a mini-spread of cards about what is up with your dad. I focused on his inner nature, possible motivations, and if he really has 'perversions' as the psychic told you. I feel that if your dad has 'perversions' at all, it may be an interest in other women if he is married or in a committed relationship, or impulsive in his sexual choices. He may feel left out in the cold if he's with a woman right now, so his loneliness and thirst for variety may lead him to have a wandering eye.

I got a strong sense of robust Fire energy from him, Sagittarius in particular, which may make him inclined to have issues with cheating. The Hierophant combined with the presence of Judgement Rx+Knight of Wands rx shows a strong pull between following conventions and what he knows is right (moral compass) and what seems right in the moment, especially when led by the heart and the libido. The 8 of Wands rx shows he may have an interest in younger and unstable women, passionate affairs that quickly lead to nowhere.

Overall I am not getting a strong sense of a bizarre or outlandish sexual perversion. Your father is not twisted or a 'bad' man... he seems to be looking for love in the wrong places and may have a wandering eye or a hard time staying committed.

posted July 20, 2014 11:43 PM            

How does H feel towards you?
QUEEN OF WANDS
THE STAR
4 OF PENTACLES
H is attracted to your fervor and your prowess over her. She enjoys the attentions of you and that you are charismatic woman who always get what she wants and loves to provoke her partners passions so they can chase after her. You are seductive, confident around her and is not easily broken by other's criticisms of your looks or your behavior -- but you do, or she does, find her jealousy and vanities piqued quite often when around with each other and she finds this comforting to her in some way, like she thrives off the drama it ensues. You are prepossessing and a magnificent beauty who oozes sex appeal and your body appears to be made of flowing flames itself, like a glowing ember that always lightens up the dark, gloomy mood and easily beautifully blazes in the midst of passion. She has hope and inspirations for you and often fantasizes about you and your dominance over her, she finds herself vulnerable and dreamy around you but she can control herself to an extent and this only makes the choice more interesting. Remember when I mentioned vanities and jealousy becoming easily piqued? It could be hers for the 4 OF PENTACLES, who lords it over you and is possessive over you is similar in this regard. She can come across as stubborn minded and not easily swayed but always found in your distance!

Is she interested in starting a relationship with you?
THE HIGH PRIESTESS
THE HANGED MAN
10 OF WANDS
She is drawn to you unconsciously which is the strongest passions of it all but she feels as though she cannot act on them. She certainty feels vulnerable and the psychic connection is there and she is aware of it but she is not used to these energies or at least has not experienced them to this intensity before. I feel as thought she "knows" that you are very interested in her and even talk about her online a lot. lol. She can sense your emotions, your thoughts, and it makes her feel overwhelmed with emotion and exhaustion. She thinks that you are good for a sexual or casual relationship but if you two were to get into a romantic relationship you would be to overwhelming for her.
Progressing
THE HERMIT
8 OF PENTACLES
THE TOWER
I feel that it is her going inwards and introspecting on the situation and what to do next, she will distance herself from you and work on her character before going back to you. You will feel confused, heart broken, and not sure what to do because of her sudden withdrawal. Then afterwards, a shocking truth will be exposed that was unexpected and certainty not what you planned for. It can indicate an extreme change of events or a separation in the stage of your relationship.

Advice
QUEEN OF SWORDS
THE WHEEL
2 OF SWORDS

posted July 20, 2014 11:58 PM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
[b] The psychic is fine, we have equally done exchanges for one another and it was both very accurate. I am content with her except with her reading for my dad, however I have forgiven her and stopped talking about it. This is her own personal intuition and who am I to question it?

The relationship between me and my dad is actually quite poor, he dislikes me and he doesn't trust me very much. He often judges me for a lot of things and even blames me on things I didn't do. I only really feel close to my mom, even then that's not much.

My father is very blunt, opinionated and he has a retrograde Mars (bad for male) in Leo and Moon in Scorpio square Pluto. He has an intense, brooding nature and he isn't very nice..

My father, as my mother has told me, has less of a fervor that most men carry. He's passive with my mother and let her get what she wants lol. He is very attracted to her though, and yes they have been together.[/B]

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posted July 21, 2014 12:00 AM            

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Originally posted by sweet-scorpion:
I'm sorry, my reading sucked. I can go back and see what else might be up... I wanted to try to help you out but I don't have a high confidence in my reading abilities right now. Maybe with some of the cards I was picking up the wrong energy. I kind of hate these cards, but figured it wouldn't hurt to try to use them anyway... my mistake.

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posted July 21, 2014 12:08 AM            

I loved your description of me, omg... it was both flattering and, I think, accurate of how she sees me. I won't go into major details here but we have those themes of power/control in our relationship and I think that's why she likes me so much. I do come across as confident and sensual in her presence. I don't hide my feelings about her yet at the same time I'm cunning in my subtly.

I agree with what you said about her liking the jealousy thing. She seems like a possessive type. I can be a possessive type but really try hard to avoid it, more than ever before, and even now I'm coming into the mindset that lovers aren't possessions with Saturn rx passing over my natal Venus in Scorpio.

It saddens me that I might be overwhelming to her. I think that your advice about remaining clearheaded and objective is really good for me. I'm a Libra with an Aquarian undertone to my chart. I usually try to avoid becoming enticed with a person like this and this situation is also overwhelming to me. So it seems like there is a shared sense of overwhelmed feelings between us... it's remarkable that she can sense my emotions, I actually have my Venus-Jupiter in her 12th and her Moon squares that conjunction so maybe that adds to it! Wow. I'm extremely impressed by your tarot reading abilities...you're amazing.

What you mentioned about her withdrawing and needing time alone is also very accurate. I was initially worried it had something to do with me which is why I sought out guidance here but I've realized that if it does, it's not because I did anything inherently bad or wrong, but because she needs time to herself and to sort out her feelings.

posted July 21, 2014 12:09 AM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
It's fine..
Lol why do you hate them? What deck are they?

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posted July 21, 2014 12:30 AM            

Page of Cups rx definitely shows your dad's self-centered nature. His emotional processes are usually skewed. I can definitely see the lack of balance between your mom and your dad with this card. Page of Cups rx shows a person who is emotionally immature, a bully who targets people's feelings... I'm sorry to see your dad is like this.

Combined with the 9 of Cups rx, is he an alcoholic? He indulges in things that allow him to escape and shut out the world. Not a very good behavior set. The 10 of Wands rx shows his sexual passivity probably from mental and emotional imbalances and an excess of drink and/or escapist behaviors. He can't carry his weight in his marriage or home life situation. He seems like the type who won't shoulder the burdens when need be. Your mom is probably frustrated by this which has led her to take the aggressive stance, and your dad accepts it since he doesn't want to do any work.

As I'd suspected originally [despite how the general 1st reading wasn't too clear], I pulled the 8 of Cups rx with the above mentioned cards, meaning 2 possible things: your dad doesn't particularly like how he takes the passive role, but his energies are so blocked and muddled that it's easier on him to just accept; or, your mom might be getting tired of his brooding and his generally negative attitude but his controlling hold might be keeping her with him. Is she thinking of leaving him?

The 4 of Pentacles came up too which doesn't improve matters much. As you mentioned this character is controlling and possessive. I can see your dad being cruelly possessive of what matters most to him, including your mom. He doesn't see the depth of people's emotions, choosing to ignore them. He instead focuses on how others and situations can appeal to him and make him happy with little to no regard as to how his actions will affect his environment.

posted July 21, 2014 12:35 AM            

My dad is not very nice, I don't know why my mom tries to say otherwise.

posted July 21, 2014 12:52 AM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
[b]Yes this is true, Judgement RX is Scorpio ill-aspected, so instead of coming to a truth he dwells in the past like an idiot. He never forgives me. I dislike him a lot. I am tired of trying to be nice so I just be mean to him too. Why not?

He's a bully and very emotionally immature.

He is an escapist by his video games. lol

He's lazy yes, and he doesn't like it but he doesn't like to do work. What an idiot.

My dad is not very nice, I don't know why my mom tries to say otherwise.

This is more accurate, thank you. Would you like to do more exchanges or are you tired? haha[/B]

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You're welcome! :') I'm glad I could provide something more accurate. I'm very sorry that your dad is unkind... I have the sense your mom is unhappy and would prefer a different situation but he's emotionally and physically [w/ resources] controlling or has some hold over her. I suppose that 9 of Cups rx can be any escape though alcohol is usually my #1 suspicion, but video games can definitely be an addiction. I also got the sense that he very much prefer to be coddled/supported vs. doing his own work and yes, that is annoying!

posted July 21, 2014 01:29 AM            

JUDGEMENT / TEMPERANCE / ACE OF SWORDS / 7 OF PENTACLES / 6 OF WANDS

You have recently came to a major realization of your past actions in romance and all of your previous actions, whether good or bad, have been crushing down on you and what you have reaped is being sowed into your unconscious and conscious and effecting patterns in your daily life and in relationships. You are starting to have a fair outlook and temperament in your relationships and no longer thriving on drama and licentiousness and other dark things of that nature. You are tired of all the mess and now that you have been enlightened you no longer want to go back to those old patterns but you want to start anew after your major transformation. You must appreciate the qualities of your partner and only look upon it with judgement if it is very dysfunctional and preventing to you and your partners energy. I have a feeling you enjoyed the company of many lovers or had a lot of sexual partnerships and it only ensued more chaos and jealousy around you and you liked it in some sort of way because of an emptiness and depression in your life. Now there is an awakening, a calling for your ego to be destroyed and for it to birth anew -- you must not look to the past but move on and evolve, you must meditate on the subject and choose wisely, think more, stop self-sabotaging your relationships with your pessimism and by your sharp words but instead communicate your concerns with them instead of holding it against them and letting it all out in unexpected times later. You must change your options and your approaches in romance, you are often interested in the distant partner and ignore the one who is very into you because of your extreme insecurities. You have to stop being blunt without direction and using tactless words that would get you no where. Once you do this, you will succeed and get what you want. Have a positive attitude, become confident, do not let your past insecurities drag you down and embrace the awakening!

posted July 21, 2014 01:57 AM            

Knight of Swords: I have the psychic sense that T is more 'sexy' but he isn't looking for someone like that or a relationship based around physicality. I had a strong Air sense for T too which might mean she's a witty conversationalist but P has a hard time keeping up and might feel like she thinks she is smarter. At first he appreciated her wit and intellect, but now it's getting old.

Ace of Wands rx/Chariot: I pulled two separate sets of cards twice to be safe, and this card appeared both times as a strong influence. I feel like P's confusion about what he really wants is dampening his libido and his will to act. The Chariot here may mean that either you and T are zeroing in on P and/or encouraging who he should choose...maybe female rivalry? He isn't taking well to it. In fact, it is exhausting him and making him turned off.

Hanged Man rx/5 of Cups rx/7 of Cups rx/2 of Swords rx/Ace of Swords: Out of you and T, I see him leaning more toward you. However, I get the general sense that P is, again, not as decisive as he'd like to be. His virility comes out in sudden bursts. He may seem like he lacks confidence but then very quickly seems over-confident. The Hanged Man rx shows that he has some sort of indecision over trying to decide between you two - you seem like you are a comforting and safe person to be with, yet something about T still allures him despite being aware of her lesser qualities. This is a man at a crossroads in love.

I feel that the Ace of Swords shows he may come to a concrete decision soon. It would not hurt to be direct about how you feel about him in order to provide a greater mental clarity for P. He may have been with T before, or is thinking about going back, or cannot let go of T. Some kind of pattern in P's psyche is making is difficult for him to choose who he wants to be with or let go of old relationships.

The 2 of Swords rx shows that P really must make up his mind soon, and take his head out of the sand. I get the sense that you aren't lovelorn and have communicated to P that you won't stick around forever waiting for him to make up his mind. In your heart, you are sad about the prospect of P choosing T or another woman over you, but you want him to make up his mind and either rejoice in his decision or let the healing begin. I get the sense that you KNOW P is leaning toward you but you can't get him to drop the other metaphorical shoe. Something is holding him back. Perhaps a bad romantic track record. It partially saddens and partially frustrates you. 7 of cups Rx suggests you should, again be clear with P about what YOU really want too.

9 of Wands rx/10 of Swords rx/Hermit: I pulled these clarification cards for extra info... I feel that like T, you are an intellectual and very bright. The way you both communicate can be enchanting to him. However, these cards confirm to me that P has been heartbroken before. I'm becoming more and more suspicious that it may have been with T. The Hermit here after 10 of Swords rx meant a lot of private healing time after a major hurt.

posted July 21, 2014 02:01 AM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
It's alright. And he is very controlling with his finances and handles them poorly, he gets really mad regarding this issue. I find him soo annoying. It's my Sun sq Saturn and Sun opposite Neptune making my father figure poor I think lol.

[b] JUDGEMENT / TEMPERANCE / ACE OF SWORDS / 7 OF PENTACLES / 6 OF WANDS

You have recently came to a major realization of your past actions in romance and all of your previous actions, whether good or bad, have been crushing down on you and what you have reaped is being sowed into your unconscious and conscious and effecting patterns in your daily life and in relationships. You are starting to have a fair outlook and temperament in your relationships and no longer thriving on drama and licentiousness and other dark things of that nature. You are tired of all the mess and now that you have been enlightened you no longer want to go back to those old patterns but you want to start anew after your major transformation. You must appreciate the qualities of your partner and only look upon it with judgement if it is very dysfunctional and preventing to you and your partners energy. I have a feeling you enjoyed the company of many lovers or had a lot of sexual partnerships and it only ensued more chaos and jealousy around you and you liked it in some sort of way because of an emptiness and depression in your life. Now there is an awakening, a calling for your ego to be destroyed and for it to birth anew -- you must not look to the past but move on and evolve, you must meditate on the subject and choose wisely, think more, stop self-sabotaging your relationships with your pessimism and by your sharp words but instead communicate your concerns with them instead of holding it against them and letting it all out in unexpected times later. You must change your options and your approaches in romance, you are often interested in the distant partner and ignore the one who is very into you because of your extreme insecurities. You have to stop being blunt without direction and using tactless words that would get you no where. Once you do this, you will succeed and get what you want. Have a positive attitude, become confident, do not let your past insecurities drag you down and embrace the awakening!

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Thank you Karka, this is stunningly accurate. You really zoomed in on my past and what I want for my future. I slept around with person after person looking for an emotional fulfillment I wasn't going to find in a hook-up world... I was sexually confused, thrived on drama because of the emptiness my BPD causes inside of me. But now, with Saturn rx on my Venus, I am finally seeing the truth behind the situation: drama should be transmuted into kindness and devotion toward my partner, and over protectiveness and jealousy will destroy me and my partner. You're very right about not falling for the distant partner since I did this quite often as a challenge to myself. I believed I didn't deserve love, only hardship, so someone liking ME - a person I see as so flawed and unlovable - seemed weak in my eyes.

posted July 21, 2014 02:19 AM            

T is a bad person but so is he tbh... yes if I prod about him he would withdraw from me. Good advice! I will do just that!

He has been hurt by T, especially cut by her words and this crippled him romances. Their relationship was mainly sexual btw.

Ah yes, I have high mental energy and I often pique his interests.

Overall the reading was very accurate and good. THANK YOU!

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posted July 21, 2014 02:23 AM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
I am not in a relationship with P nor was I ever but he is interested in me and pursue me a lot, but I kind of got caught up in my feelings for him and I am prone to some jealousy but not that much. I don't care about being heartbroken about him and crying about his wavering interest and eye. I tell him to leave me alone but he doesn't leave me alone. He wants to have his cake and eat it too.
T is no longer in his life at the moment, I do not know her personally but have heard of her. I feel that I am vulnerable and naive with P and he is attracted to that while being at the same time attract to T's femme fatale nature. T is more sexual than I and has more "masculine" qualities if you know what I mean.

T is a bad person but so is he tbh... yes if I prod about him he would withdraw from me. Good advice! I will do just that!

He has been hurt by T, especially cut by her words and this crippled him romances. Their relationship was mainly sexual btw.

Ah yes, I have high mental energy and I often pique his interests.

Overall the reading was very accurate and good. THANK YOU!

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Ah yes, I am glad I was accurate. I am glad you are changing for the better.

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I am really glad that this was accurate for you! I immediately sensed the 'femme fatale' energy of T. Even if she isn't physically in his life he may still think about her. She definitely has the piercing/shadow side of Air qualities. I could totally tell that T's sexual nature has kept her on P's mind which is what I meant by 'alluring' qualities, LOL. I could sense some of your energy in the Chariot card. Maybe P is attracted to dominant females. Makes sense in hindsight.

posted July 21, 2014 02:25 AM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
I am not in a relationship with P nor was I ever but he is interested in me and pursue me a lot, but I kind of got caught up in my feelings for him and I am prone to some jealousy but not that much. I don't care about being heartbroken about him and crying about his wavering interest and eye. I tell him to leave me alone but he doesn't leave me alone. He wants to have his cake and eat it too.
T is no longer in his life at the moment, I do not know her personally but have heard of her. I feel that I am vulnerable and naive with P and he is attracted to that while being at the same time attract to T's femme fatale nature. T is more sexual than I and has more "masculine" qualities if you know what I mean.

T is a bad person but so is he tbh... yes if I prod about him he would withdraw from me. Good advice! I will do just that!

He has been hurt by T, especially cut by her words and this crippled him romances. Their relationship was mainly sexual btw.

Ah yes, I have high mental energy and I often pique his interests.

Overall the reading was very accurate and good. THANK YOU!

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Ah yes, I am glad I was accurate. I am glad you are changing for the better.

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I am really glad that this was accurate for you! I immediately sensed the 'femme fatale' energy of T. Even if she isn't physically in his life he may still think about her. She definitely has the piercing/shadow side of Air qualities. I could totally tell that T's sexual nature has kept her on P's mind which is what I meant by 'alluring' qualities, LOL. I could sense some of your energy in the Chariot card. Maybe P is attracted to dominant females. Makes sense in hindsight.

posted July 21, 2014 02:35 AM            

4 OF PENTACLES / THE FOOL / THE TOWER / 5 OF PENTACLES / THE ALCHEMIST / 10 OF WANDS / KING OF SWORDS /10 OF PENTACLES

You are holding on to old ideas that must be changed and you are not willing to let that go. You have an excellent mind and you can easily lord it over anyone or through your writing skill but you are not willing to adapt to your surroundings or take advice that will majorly change your storyline. You have a good plot and arrangement of characters but you just can't place it on the paper well and often find yourself disgusted with what you wrote despite being happy with it later. This is the main restricting factor in your abilities. Now you are looking forward to a beginning and you have gone away with your physical evidence of your story (deleted it, threw it away) and now your imagination is as strong as ever but ungrounded, see its either grounded and unimaginative or ungrounded and highly imaginative! There is no inbetween it seems! Something inspired you and you ready to invest in this.. suddenly, something will come crashing down and your dreams will be crushed. You must compromise to change yourself and learn to tap into this fertile energy but you will end up feeling insecure, helpless and like you cannot do anything. You are in despair and you are worrying which will greatly effect it, and I have a feeling its due to outside influences and you will focus on that instead because of the crushing importance. RIGHT when its about to get good too! Now you regain your tools and knowledge again, okay, read to invest in it again and you feel inspired.. then suddenly you feel tired and exhausted about all of the energies around you and feel like you must overextend yourself to make this work or never, it would be painful yes but it would be worth it you would think. The writing would be ugly at first but will become more clear and finally express the qualities of your thinking on paper and feel agile-minded, now you MUST take an opportunity of this feeling! You know that if you would have done it after you were overwhelmed you would have to "restart" your patterns again and now it succeeded. You write your story.. you invest all your time and energy to it and not become distracted by frivolities and write through your experiences and your passions.. and yes.. it will come out of it! A very excellent ending indeed.
Warning: This can easily be changed if you randomly get lazy. This fate can be changed at any time. Don't get too excited now.

posted July 21, 2014 04:59 PM            

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Originally posted by KarkaQueen:
My Q:
Why am I a little jealous of P liking T? (lol)
How do I tell P that I only want to be friends in a way that would appeal to him?
How would he react?

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First off, thank you for the excellent reading last night! I had to go to bed, I was so exhausted. I really found many of your points quite true. I have a tendency to feel very inadequate about my fiction writing. Poetry I have a lot of confidence in, but I'm weak with fiction writing...I think I need to draw more from my personal experiences and find a balance between practicality and imagination. I need to learn that I can be grounded and imaginative at the same time. I have a tendency to have run-away ideas and need to focus on remaining eloquent but also stable in my creative process - so my reader can comprehend what I'm trying to say, themes, etc. I find your advice very useful so I'm going to use it! I've already applied your advice about H and my romantic life since last night by meditating on this change and trying to send cosmic messages to her that I don't plan on being overwhelming or possessive... I want to change, I really do.

Now, onto your reading:

1. Emperor Rx/6 of Pentacles/2 of Pentacles Rx/9 of Wands/Fool Rx/Page of Cups Rx: I feel that you are somewhat jealous of P liking T because P being interested in her makes you confused...you are both amused and annoyed at P's ridiculous choices and his illogical thinking. I feel that frustration and resentment lies beneath your feelings about P being involved with T, but from an objective standpoint. You don't even want to be with P, yet the fact that he isn't using his brain when it comes to T is making you annoyed. You feel like P should have quit on T a long time ago, and you resent how he has eyes for not just you, but for her, since he's making such foolish choices.

The Fool Rx combined with the Emperor Rx is a good description of this - P is so easily lovestruck and led astray, and you feel overly critical of his stupid decisions in love since he got you directly involved. Maybe you've even directly criticized his desires for T, which made you feel you were slightly jealous, but I didn't even get that aura with the reading. It's some deeper sense of righteousness, like you know more than he does and it's making you angry that he can't see the truth about T. You don't get HOW he could like T.

2. 6 of Swords Rx/2 of Swords/Death/10 of Swords/King of Swords Rx/4 of Pentacles: Now, onto what would happen/what will happen when you tell P [as you need to] that there's no chance in hell that you two will be romantically involved. This is both an intellectually and emotionally charged set of cards. Death presents itself alongside the 10 of Swords, 2 of Swords, and Rx King of Swords.

Changes WILL happen. The relationship will be seen in a totally different light. It may end altogether if you aren't careful with your words. Easily infatuated and romantic at heart P will be damaged by your words and unable to accept them [2 of Swords, perhaps, but most definitely 10 of Swords]. I drew this for P when he broke up with T before. He is a very sensitive person, at least at heart - a secret crier.

The 6 of Swords Rx shows that emotions may become heated and that a potential to have logical communication may be impeded by P's hurt and stubbornness. He may verbally lash out at you and this will provoke an intense mental anger within you [King of Swords Rx] and how amazingly you can hone in on his weaknesses and degrade him for how he's bothered you can lead to some serious issues. Even though you'll tell P how you really feel, it probably will be hard for you to control your annoyance/frustration at his defiant reaction and he'll end up trying to hold onto you with the 4 of Pentacles coming up strong. P is possessive of the object of his affections, and it's very immature. You need to be clear-cut and possibly end the interactions you two have if he reacts in this manner and refuses to see the truth. The Fool Rx also concerns me about P since it can carry over into this context, too. P can live in a fantasy world. I have no doubt you'll somehow wake him up out of his delusions about you with your clear-cut logic but he may be resistant to totally letting go of you because his ego will feel damaged.

posted July 21, 2014 11:29 PM            

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Good reading.

First you must look within yourself and balance yourself. Think of the card TEMPERANCE, balance your inward and outward activities and learn to apply it to daily situations and thus will gain power and control showing self-restraint and an objective mind. You must fix your insecurities and any malaise to feel better and thus perform better. You have psychological fears about school and the people around you are pressuring you to do better or at least it feels like it for you. You try your hard to succeed, you are a perfectionist, easily disgusted with your work even if it's good. Learn to strengthen your might and your endurance no matter how dire the situation is. Know where you are and what you must do and not get led on by false paths and promises like a frivolous or intense relationship (romance is your major weakness). The key word is YOURSELF and your potential power and success. Focus on mundane and practical things.

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Thank you. I am glad it was a good reading for you. All that you said here is great and I truly appreciate it. Yes, romance is a major weakness for me since I tend to look for fulfillment through other people because my identity is weak... I totally agree that I need to learn to be happy with my efforts and stop being so hard on myself. I am going to try to go to therapy for my insecurities and maybe journal more about what my goals are so I don't get led astray.