posted October 30, 2014 02:14 PM            

Hierophant - Queen of Pentacles - 4 of wands

Well, seriously, if the cards are right, can you send him over?
lol Looks pretty ideal, loyal, grounded, stable and with the right amount of fire.
Someone who is confident in himself, who does not have to "show off".

His intentions for you?
8 of swords - Ace of Wands - 3 of pentacles

posted October 30, 2014 03:26 PM            

3 of cups - Knight of Pentacles - Page of Cups

While he might not be a player, maybe he has more "options"? Could be just a time for socializing for him with several people, but not necessarily in terms of a rival.
maybe he is simply popular.

posted October 30, 2014 05:57 PM            

Break time lunch was over. I'm off here are your cards

Five of swords - hmmmm curious about the context lol. He felt it was sent with some carelessness? Like it was for the sake of gaining something . Has there been some issues between you two that just seem to not be getting resolved its like not just one bad thing is happening but a few differentbthings

Ten of cups - He feels a sense of completion like it gave him closure, it reaffirmed a decision he initially made about you or the situation....which I don't think is that bad or drastically terrible. I think he is laid back type who doesn't fight to always be right he compromises knows how to get along well with ppl.

The sun- I think he looks forward to a friendship with you again

This could be off, not sure how well that resonates but please do let me know if it does or not I'd be more than happy to pull again for you

posted October 31, 2014 02:48 AM            

Well, the message was not really a bad one or even an important one, so these rather dramatic cards surprise me a little.

The context is simply, that after the concert last saturday, I was just writing that I enjoyed the concert and that it was too bad it will take such a long time till the next one (and I was not the only person writing this!).
anyway a few hours after that he suddenly announced a new concert, and the message I was asking about was simply that I wrote that it is too bad that I canīt see that concert, for it is too far away. But that I have most wonderful memories of the concert in june and was wishing everyone going there a great time.

The remark about the june-concert was a bit, I donīt know, it was truthful and honest. I DO have very nice memories of this one. But of course it was also the very cocnert where I apparently made him lose a little balance on stage (i did not do anything, I was just being there), messing up some songlyrics and resulting in his comment that that woman in first row (which would have been me, due to the description. lol) was driving him crazy.

I never really talked to him about that comment, and I donīt think we will.

But even for the last concerts (yes there have been a few) he still was paying "undue" attention to me, including coming down from stage to ask me for my name, and well, just from the way he was looking at me, I figured he was for some reason - still- intrigued with me.

But we never really talked about that, as I am not doing fan-ly things. I am not waiting to speak with someone, not wanting autographs or pictures. I jsut enjoy the concerts and then disappear at the end of it (well saturday I actually had to leave before it really ended, which was too bad).
So it just dawned on me that I never really let him know that I did. Enjoy these concerts, including the one in june, so it was just what I did.

The thing with the 5 of swords is very interesting though.
Actually we originally had met some years before, which I was sure he wouldnīt remember, which led to my very evasive behaviour when seeing him again after that, and he always had the tendency to show up in my proximity coincidentally, or so I was thinking. I did not think he recognized me. If he did, my avoidance-ignorance-mode must have been almost rude.
Anyway last year in november I decided that I wanted this lopsided Do-I-know-you-donīt-I?- thing to become more normal, so I was talking to him after a musical visit. Just very shortly.
It was a very nice chat (though it is a bit disconcerting how it feels like he is always trying to crawl into me, when we actually talk - he must just like to be close to people in general. lol).

Anyway I always pull cards for these days of concerts, musicals, whatever. That day the 5 of sword would haunt me.
Yet, there was no abuse, no conflict, no shouting, no defeating, no winning, no beating taking place.

BUT I took its meaning as this change in style for me. I am usally very withdrawn and pretty passive when it comes to these things.
At that point I was uncharacteristically forward, though still very subtle in comparision to other people. lol

I observed that 5 of swords after that, and it seems for me personally to depict a more straightforward communicative behaviour than I usually show.

Of course it could also mean the conflict with his girlfriend. For some reason she seems to really dislike me.
Which surprises me, because I would not have thought, she`d consider me a threat or something like that.

Yeah, I do like him, but I completely respect the fact he is in a relationship. Still I have lived a long time hiding my feelings (in general - not just in terms of him), and I am tired of that.
I will not feel guilty about the way I feel. I am not doing anything wrong here. Unle4ss it is wrong that of course I do enjoy the attention the pays me. It is flattering, and since I like him, it makes me happy, even if that is all there can ever be between us.

And well I really do regret not being able to see this solo concert of his. So I was just being honest.

Oh and as I noticed back then on saturday, before the concert started he was peeking through the curtain, and actually take pictures of his audience.
Now, I was yesterday, that this picture miraculously showed up on his friend`s and band-member`s facebook site, and coincidentally it is me in the very centre of that picture, though of course it was taken of the whole audience.
And his friends put the writing above it: Big Brother is watching you.

lol

things ARE a little weird, and seriously, if I had been a bit mroe like I am today, 2 or 3 years ago, maybe things might have gone differently.

posted October 31, 2014 03:27 AM            

I have actually no idea what he really wants (from me or how he wants this connection between us to be or to develop), and possibly he already did more than is really positive for his relationship, as the attention he pays me start becoming noticed by others, too. Well his girlfriend for once, who is less than amused, but actually some people in the audience were turning back at me to see whom he was looking at so persistently, I suppose. No other reason why anyone should get distracted from the action on stage and instead look at someone from the audience, and no real reason why one of his colleagues on stage should suddenly be winking at me.

I mean, seriously, most of the time I am just sitting - or standing- there, thinking: What the f*** is going on???