posted February 03, 2015 05:14 PM            

Today was very hard for me, had a nervous breakdown and thought about dying again.
Generally I'm very positive, outgoing and I'm always with a smile on my face. I don't like to bother other people about my problems so I never really express my feelings. I'm sorry you have to take it, somehow I feel comfortable doing it here on the forum. And I love you all so much for that <3

I've been unemployed for so long, since I finished my Masters about a year and a half. Engineering companies say that I'm either too young, unexperienced or that I live too far away. Other jobs I tried to, not in my studies field, say I'm too qualified or too old (I'm 27, are they telling me I'm a freaking middle aged woman already?).
And today I got yet another NO.
Later in the evening, my music teacher gave my solo to another person. No explanations. I've been a member for 6 years, never missed a class and every Tuesday I take a 2 hour ride just to attend. Performances are free, never got anything back except the utter joy of doing something I simply love. And now she just took it from me.
I feel I'm good for nothing, no matter how much effort and passion I put into things, it doesn't matter because I'm never good enough, not for a job, not for my charity-like hobby.

So, I'm not asking for a reading per se, just that someone would look at my chart (added transits and progressions) and help me identify what's going wrong.

If you actually read my long rambling, thank you.

Much love,
E.

posted February 03, 2015 09:50 PM            

I can't read charts. But I asked my cards what's awaiting you for the next 2 months and got good cards!

Scythe + clover + ring + key + stars

I think you'll get a job, the ring speaks about contract.

However, you'll get another (or a few) 'no' before you get the contract (scythe)

Clover - you might get two opportunities or get some lucky break.

Ring + key + stars - I think you'll like the job, it'll be something with communication, Internet (well everything involves Internet but yeah..)

posted February 04, 2015 01:00 AM            

I can attempt to read your chart but I'm a novice at it also. I just started to do reading myself although astrology is not new to me. I just rely on others to read the advance stuff for me.

Perhaps invoke the violet flame to help transmute whatever barriers that are in your way. I find this energy of love to be most powerful when all else fails.

posted February 04, 2015 10:06 AM            

I don't know where you're located, but the French job market is really tough, especially in Paris because there is a lot of competition. Plenty of people graduate from top schools and jobs are therefore hard to get if you don't come from those high-end schools.

It could be that you will have to look for a job in a field other than engeering, maybe banking/finance/IT.

I was based in Paris for about two years and after I graduated from college, I thought I could find a job over there ... I was delusional. The market is saturated and most people I know got their jobs through connections. Nepotism is huge in Paris (like in any other place, but more obvious over there).

Have you thought about relocating?

Personally, I chose to go move overseas (again) because the Paris market was a dead-end.