Author
|
Topic: Tgem - are you around for a little exchange?
|
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 10:08 AM
Ok upon shuffling the book fell out. Roads-mice-heartI think the book is indicating that you're not supposed to know at this time. Roads show it will go either way: stressful or very well but I think something more needs to happen (be revealed) before a definite answer comes. IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 10:12 AM
well, just wehn you probably were having the book falling out, I was considering if I should book a short trip, to see "Casanova" after all. This would take place in may. But I don`t quite know if I really should do it. (and this time I really intend just to see the play, and for nothing else. lol) I donīt know though if it is going to be worth it, well, I wouldn`t want to undertake the trip if there is no joy in it. lol Besides there is a lot of trips coming up, the one to Cornwall with my parents nad brother in april, the schooltrip at the end of june, which will be more stressful than anything else, so maybe this may-trip would be just too much trip-trouble. Though I am partially also tempted as it curiously falls close to the date we first met 7 years ago. lol city looks quite interesting, too, and it`s time to discover some new place I feel. lol
IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 10:51 AM
Yeah I can see what you're saying about the booking those trips...and yeah, the book and crossroad in that spread indicates trying to decide if you shoud "book a trip?" HA! Funny IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 10:58 AM
so shall I? IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:05 AM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: so shall I?
Mice-ring-sun Pulled heart to clarify sun Yep! Go for it! Heart told me Casenova IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:09 AM
LOLCan`t escape the mice I suppose. Worries, anxieties, let`s hope it is only minor worries. Yeah, maybe I AM to see Casanova. Even though last time I thanked him for singing that one song from Casanova, as I couldnīt make it to watch it. Maybe I will be able to do so after all. Funny thing though, there were exactly 2 tickets left, and I even could book a hotelroom without problems. even though it will be a bank holiday weekend. hopefully a good sign if the booking goes so smoothly. lol IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:09 AM
btw thanks for pulling for me. Do you have some more questions? IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:10 AM
I completely agree! IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:13 AM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: btw thanks for pulling for me. Do you have some more questions?
Sure NP! Anytime Yeah..what's the current situation between JB and KC? R they still in a "relationship?" IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:16 AM
So last week with the Eros/psyche and moon/venus/Mars conjunction was quite erotic for me! Of course I didn't see him (BOO) but the heat I was feeling was "off the charts!"How did it affect you? Do you get the ringing in your ears? I do and I've come to realize I think it's Cusp. Do you get that with P at all? IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:30 AM
quote: Originally posted by tgem:
Do you get the ringing in your ears? I do and I've come to realize I think it's Cusp. Do you get that with P at all?
It`s funny you ask that! Last week I was doing some thinking about the last time we met, and finally realized what had struck me so "weird" about it, except for my strange behaviour of course. Well, the main thing I have been thinking about was the way we ended the chat. Well, when he sort of called me back, just to tell me "I wish you well", which was sort of strange. Well I turned back to him and of course reciprocrated that greeting or goodbye, but it just felt a little weird, because it is a highly unusual thing to say goodbye in this shallow circumstance. I mean either you say it to a friend, or at least someone who is a little closer than a very loose aquaitance, or it is being used if you wish someone well for a certain project (promotion for example, which was not the case), and then there is the possibility of it to be a final goodbye. A last friendly greeting before you send someone on their way to whereever, just certainly out of your life. The thought must have been there when I came back home, but I sort of could not grasp it then. Anyway when I did last week, I was wondering about if that was what he really meant, some sort of saying: Never ever come back here again. lol I eventually asked my Higher Self to give me a suggestion if this meant "goodbye foreever" or was more a "goodbye until next time, whenever that may be".
That night I had trouble falling asleep, which is rare for me. I was always woken up again, because I could have sworn, I was hearing a ringing in my ears. Like a bell, but from far away, not my doorbell, but the ringing was there. I remember to be woken up like that at least twice. But even though I had not been able to remember my dreams for weeks and have not dreamed of him for even longer, that night I did dream of him. And the bits I remember were very realistic. Well after an awkward beginning the dream involved talking - a lot, sharing silence - a lot, and in the last part kissing - a lot. lol I am still kinda puzzled by that. I don`t usually dream about kissing him. Well I wish I would do, but that`s beside the point I guess. lol Also interestingly initially it did feel a little weird because of how close to a real kiss it felt. Anyway, dreams are dreams of course, wishful thinking whatever.
Fact is he picked the day AFTER that dream to return to his facebook again, telling the world he is rehearsing his new play, and putting this drawing I described online. The timing was a bit eery to say the least.
Well if the dream really was being a message from my guides, then it surely did not feel like goodbye forever, but it definitely felt like a shift is taking place or has been taken place, and ther eis a period of adjustment needed. IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:42 AM
actually the dream took place when the Venus-Mars-conjunction was exact. Tr Moon on 16 Aries conjoined with Tr Uranus and on my Draco Sun Eros and Psyche still one degree conjunct and additionally on his natal ASC and my Draco ASC. his pr EROS on 00 Aries and hence right between both conjunctions.
IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:42 AM
Wow! That's interesting. Yeah see this week I havent heard the ringing so much. I know it's communication of some sort..just don't know who it's from LoL.... Last week I was going NUTS!! Astral sex...the whole thing. IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:43 AM
Snake - anchor - coffinno. It seems like the stability (anchor) was being ended (coffin), possibly due to another woman (snake). IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:46 AM
quote: Originally posted by tgem:
Astral sex...the whole thing.
Yes, actually I was wrong he posted not after my dream but 2 days later, after when well what you described, at least the feeling was there suddenly, and a strong sense of him, and well, apart from the sexual feeling, he seemed so angry with me. Not with me personally, just I don`t know, my existence alone? lol For some reason it did not bother me too much. And well if that is what is needed to make him break the silence. IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:49 AM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: Snake - anchor - coffinno. It seems like the stability (anchor) was being ended (coffin), possibly due to another woman (snake).
Yep..definitely a NO. Thanks. IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:50 AM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: Yes, actually I was wrong he posted not after my dream but 2 days later, after when well what you described, at least the feeling was there suddenly, and a strong sense of him, and well, apart from the sexual feeling, he seemed so angry with me. Not with me personally, just I don`t know, my existence alone? lol For some reason it did not bother me too much. And well if that is what is needed to make him break the silence.
Yes, maybe it was sexual aggression :laugh: IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 11:57 AM
quote: Originally posted by tgem: Yes, maybe it was sexual aggression :laugh:
Yeah well, sometimes I get tired on the ride home in the bus, and sometimes I fall in some sort of semi-trance it seems, and when I did so last week, I was usually "dreaming" of him, and he was sort of shaking me and it seemed like he was trying to push me away and pulling me close at the same time. Pretty aggressive and well, almost like he was intending to scare me, but I am not easily scared anymore and I can handle a bit of push now. I am simply not that girl anymore that feels the need to hide away. If he wants me to be like that, I am sorry. Can`t do it anymore. Anyway in these semidreams he seemed pretty upset and I just thought that that must be a manifestation of my emotional processing, but who knows? Maybe he felt like that for real. IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 12:03 PM
Hmmmm...I'm going to go with a manifestation of your emotional processing IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted February 28, 2015 12:04 PM
Yes, me too. I had a LOT to process. But the processing went just fine. lolIP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted February 28, 2015 12:25 PM
LMAO...good to hear IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted March 01, 2015 06:05 PM
So I had a very accurate reading done today. Found out Cusp was the one who sent the letter to my ex. I'm heartbroken...how selfish. Always held out hope that it wasn't him who did it. Don't know what to think anymore. How do you forgive that? Leeloo's GT for me was right. I was knighting Cusp with moon and fox. I was under an illusion of him IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted March 02, 2015 09:28 AM
Sorry to hear that. How did you find out? Are you sure it`s true? IP: Logged |
tgem Moderator Posts: 3607 From: Registered: Jan 2013
|
posted March 02, 2015 09:41 AM
I had a reading done. This is twice now by two different psychics that can contact spirit. I was told the same thing a year ago. I'm devastated. I was told him and go back many many lifetimes and loved each other very much. What was supposed to happen to me in this life was karmic lessons. The betrayal was real, he put my reputation through the mud to save his reputation and his family..basically selfish reasons. I'm supposed to let him go. I was told we will re-unite but I won't be able to forgive him for what he did. I'm so heartbroken. How do you change your heart's feelings? I'm in such shock, I don't what to think or do IP: Logged |
Ceridwen Moderator Posts: 18245 From: Registered: Jul 2011
|
posted March 02, 2015 09:55 AM
Well seriously I wouldnīt put so much stock into readings, no matter who has done them. And even if he did that, yes, maybe he did so to save the face of his marriage, but I doubt that he would share this email with the whole neighbourhood. That is such a female revenge-act to do! But even if so, while I understand how embarassing it must have been for you, I donīt see any fault in what you did. It was brave and honest, and noone could seriously judge you just for having feelings nad being honest about them. And if they do (and we all know people can be so stupid), they are not worth your time at all. You fell in love - so what? Big deal! It`s not like you ACTED on it or tried to break up his marriage. You were acting straightforward, even trying to save your own marriage, that was beyond the point of saving at that point already btw. If however he actually DID that, then yes, I understand you feeling betrayed, but not becuase you did something wrong but because he shows a really undignified side of himself, that is full of fear. And he should really work on these issues then! But I am not convinced he did that. Not at all.
And boy, psychic readings are just educated guesses and usually lucky guesses at best.
IP: Logged |