posted June 06, 2015 02:19 PM            

Also my dream life has been crazy in an amazing way. I wake up pretty confused however.

I'm laid off right now but I have a return to work date so that's pretty amazing.

I've read all about the Saturn return and there's no doubt that there is a connection... I felt the shift when it entered Sagittarius and now that it's heading back into Scorpio... Could that be it?

I'm in love with somebody and dream about him all the time. Messages from him come up during meditations too. I've asked him (spiritually) to stop. I asked him to contact me in the physical world if he wanted to say something and he didn't. In fact I learned of his wishes to marry- someone else.

I've decided to let that go. Is that why I'm so tired? It hurts so much. Especially when the memories come up in my deepest moments with myself.

Any insights anyone? Please help me. Comfort and hope is welcome but I would really appreciate honesty no matter how brutal.

posted June 06, 2015 02:43 PM            

I think part of what you're experiencing is the transit of Mercury in Gemini (communications, thinking), which seems to be in your 12th house --subconscious, dreams, illusions squaring your Pisces planets in the 9th--emphasizing the same 12th qualities. Things should get better when it goes direct (more clarity on things) late in the day on June 11 and then finally moves out of your 12th house by late July.

With Pluto transiting your 6th, and even though you may feel healthy, it might be a good idea to get a check up as the Pluto transit could relate to reproductive stuff there.

posted June 06, 2015 02:50 PM            

Saturn was close to my moon already and I wasn't depressed but I was isolated. I just enjoyed being with myself. Not like now- now I'm kind of frustrated with myself but I still don't want to be around anyone for long- except I do feel lonely. When it was close to my moon it almost felt good- I was very fond of myself and my own company. But all my friends/family coworkers noticed right away. I told them Saturn was on my moon and I still loved them just wanted to be alone. They understood Haha

Do you have any insight on the man that clearly does not want me and yet I continue to feel his presence. I used to have a little hope and romantic wishful thinking but at this point (over two years later) I want peace. Even if I am alone for the rest of my life I don't want to long for somebody that ignores me.

posted June 06, 2015 04:35 PM            

I want to tell you that Transit Neptune is about to conjunct your natal Venus soon. That should be a lovely transit to find love for you =). Good luck!!

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posted June 06, 2015 07:04 PM            

You're welcome!

I think the Mercury transit from your 12th house (subconscious) is bringing up this guy--it's as though you didn't have closure, so anything unresolved typically comes up through the 12th house. Mercury should clear your 12th house by late July. The Mercury transit is also squaring your natal venus mars conjunction adding more pressure there for you to reach your ideals. As Empress stated in her response to you, when transiting Neptune gets closer to your natal Venus, you should find that relationship you dream of. Just don't sit at home and also accept those invitations from others to get together with others.