posted June 14, 2015 09:06 PM            

I'm not sure where to post rants like this, but I guess this would be the safest place.

Lately, I've been thinking that I might have lost touch with my own emotions. I have gone through a lot last year and I sort of built this extremely tough exterior. It's almost as if I can't feel anything. I've been very insensitive to people--even my mom, which is really bad because she's going through a lot at this moment. The only excuse I always come up for my insensitivity is that I have to speak the truth even though it hurts other people. Is it really wrong to speak the truth? It seems to me like being real has driven others away from me. Being emotionless has kept me out of touch with other people as well. I am so confused.

I have also been having a low libido and I have been extremely critical of others. I haven't been in the mood to talk to anybody, not even my closest friends. I've been staying in my room every single day keeping to myself.

I honestly do not know why I'm feeling like this, when months ago, I was pretty sure I figured it all out. I just wanna be happy and it seems like every time I'm close to it, it gets farther and farther away. It feels like such a burden for me.

I want to feel again, but I'm scared because I know that if I felt pain, I'd feel it way too deeply, it could drive me insane. But this state of being lifeless is also driving me nuts. I'm just not sure what to do anymore

I'm not asking for a reading, I just want to know what you guys think I should do.

posted June 14, 2015 09:12 PM            

Sure be honest. But say it with compassion...I sense they feel ur lacking that part...did people turn their backs on u? Stop hanging with u? . That's what I see....

Be in a lighter mood, laugh a bit....tension is in ur energy...can u work on ur charkra?

posted June 14, 2015 09:43 PM            

I made insensitive comments to people and just didn't seem like the sensitive people pleasing person I used to be. Everything around me, friends, activities, goals, everything started to really feel meaningless and a bore. I couldn't even tell you how long it lasted but I survived and wouldn't trade it for anything.

Looking back, I really was the caterpillar struggling to become the butterfly and I needn't that experience and time to find myself.

posted June 14, 2015 10:18 PM            

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Originally posted by cherful24:

Sure be honest. But say it with compassion...I sense they feel ur lacking that part...did people turn their backs on u? Stop hanging with u? . That's what I see....

Be in a lighter mood, laugh a bit....tension is in ur energy...can u work on ur charkra?

I'm sorry ur down. Stay strong, became happy 😃

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I am moving for college in a couple of months, so there's that. I'm also thinking of going on a zen retreat, however, I'm still looking to make some money for that.

posted June 14, 2015 10:20 PM            

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Originally posted by SDragon:
I'm not sure I went through the same thing but I went through something similar. It was during my Saturn Return.

I made insensitive comments to people and just didn't seem like the sensitive people pleasing person I used to be. Everything around me, friends, activities, goals, everything started to really feel meaningless and a bore. I couldn't even tell you how long it lasted but I survived and wouldn't trade it for anything.

Looking back, I really was the caterpillar struggling to become the butterfly and I needn't that experience and time to find myself.

Sometimes nothing will solve it because it's not the past that's needed, it's the future and we just need to let it happen on its own time.

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