posted July 30, 2015 01:15 PM
First of all NONE of this is your fault, you cannot and should not be looking at this as your "fault" so even thinking what you did "wrong" is not the "right" way to go. How could you be at fault for your fathers illness?
Unfortunately you need to understand this fact and this is your lesson, to stop blaming yourself. When you stop doing this you will se light and calmeness in your path.
Usually some illnesses in family catch like dominos falling people around them and its like a butterfly effect.
The only thing you need to focus on now is to STOP blaming yourself and putting it all on your shoulders.
As you are responsable for your health thats how everone is responsable for their own bodies.
Yes you can help out, but NO you cannot carry the burdons on your shoulders !