posted August 20, 2015 10:01 AM            

I am sorry to annoy you again and I hope you guys are doing well. I am not asking for a reading, as I know I have asked far too many times. I'm just really interested in getting some guidance/advice as to how to deal with this situation and get rid of this 'block'.

I posted a thread a couple months ago regarding the fact that I may have potentially been the victim of a 'curse'. At first, I thought I was probably stressed out because of my job search. This time around, I am sure there is a block of some sort!

I was scheduled to have two job interviews this week. One of them cancelled the interview by saying that the position offer is now 'on hold'. The second company never reached out to me again! I sent an email, I never got a response back. We had scheduled an interview.

Things at home are slightly complicated. My mother turned into her abusive self from many years ago and managed to hit me physically many times today. I can't forgive for the 1000th time. I'm done for good this time. I forgave her for making my childhood a nightmare because I had to daily hide my bruises from everyone at school. As an adult, I do not have to put up with her instability.

I've been applying to jobs but my phone has been 'unusually' silent. I know summer can definitely slow the pace down, but this is very unusual. I only got three phone calls this summer and both companies bailed on me!

I don't get it. I'm not sure what is happening. I had a health scare a couple days ago because of a 'mole' that appeared on my skin and I'm still awaiting for the doctor's diagnosis next week.

This is a bit of a nightmare at this stage. Life was good from January-June and then it turned upside down again. I don't know if this is Saturn's last straw in Scorpio that is causing me such problems, I am really tired. I keep trying to find my way but nothing has happened.

I'm a good person. I don't understand why the Universe is throwing such roadblocks in my life.

I can post my chart for further details.

posted August 20, 2015 10:50 AM            

I am so sorry hear about your abusive mother. It must be so hard to go through that. I feel for you, I really do. And I am sure you are a good person, and you do not deserve to be treated like this. Not as an adult and especially not when you were just a kid.

It does seem like you are going through a hard time. I wish you good health, and hope that its nothing serious.

About your job interviews, someone I know has been going through something similar. He has been unemployed for months now and it is causing him a lot stress and frustration. So I can imagine you are feeling this way too. It maybe Saturn finishing its transit in Scorpio- hopefully. When it enters Sagittarius maybe things can change. Where is Saturn transiting in your chart right now?

posted August 20, 2015 11:38 AM            

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Originally posted by goddessinworld:
Hello MineAgain.

I am so sorry hear about your abusive mother. It must be so hard to go through that. I feel for you, I really do. And I am sure you are a good person, and you do not deserve to be treated like this. Not as an adult and especially not when you were just a kid.

It does seem like you are going through a hard time. I wish you good health, and hope that its nothing serious.

About your job interviews, someone I know has been going through something similar. He has been unemployed for months now and it is causing him a lot stress and frustration. So I can imagine you are feeling this way too. It maybe Saturn finishing its transit in Scorpio- hopefully. When it enters Sagittarius maybe things can change. Where is Saturn transiting in your chart right now?

I am sending you love. I hope you can make it through this hard time.

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Thank you very much for this goddess! Your support means a lot. I don't have many people to turn to. It's slightly embarrassing to be 'jobless' and staying with an 'abusive' mother. This is not something I would be comfortable discussing with friends. Hence, I really do appreciate you taking the time to read this post. It means a lot.

I thought she had finally learned her lessons of being abusive towards me because we had a great relationship in the last two months. The moment I started 'showing' her my 'love', she became mean and abusive towards me. I've always been very cautious about being vulnerable in front of her because I knew it could backfire. I was right, unfortunately. The moment I let my guards down, she switched he behavior. I strongly believe she has some sort of narcissistic disorder.

For some reason, last night I started reminiscing the first time she hit me. I was 4 at the time. I felt the pain that little girl felt decades ago. Today, I experienced this real-life throwback.

I believe I have a lesson to learn from this. I forgave her but maybe some people never change and it is better to let go of them than to have them slowly destroy your life and self-esteem.

I hope this 'mole' is something benign because I've never seen such thing in my entire life. It is quite scary looking, but I try not to stress about it too much. Either way, I know I'll get through it, hopefully.

As for the job, I don't understand why companies even bother to contact you if they cannot follow through with the schedule interview. It takes time to get prepare for an interview. That said, when a company's HR department is so bad, it says a lot about the company's culture in itself.

When Saturn was in Sagittarius I had really well-paid internship, I made really great friends, I was healthy, my social life was great and I was living on my own but now I've come back to the desert.

I do hope your friend is going to find a job soon!

I have no clue how to read a chart but it is here in case (http://i1375.photobucket.com/albums/ag459/AssiaB23/Natal%20Chart%20-%20Edited_zpsdwesuj2p.png).