posted November 04, 2015 06:32 PM            

I moved out of state to be with my boyfriend as he works a temporary job. Not sure when the job will end (he is a construction contractor). We both hate it here and both want to move back to my home state (Kansas)..where there are good permanent jobs and my family.

Ive tried to make the best of it here by applying for jobs but no one is hiring me. We are living with his family and they are putting a lot of stress on us. They are insane. Fighting, using us for money, they are alcoholics, and really dirty and I just dont feel good here at all. My panic attacks came back. I hate it here. No, we cant afford to get our own place and we dont want to be stuck in a lease here.

We cant leave TOGETHER any time soon because of money and my boyfriend's upcoming custody battle in court.

However, I have the chance to move back home with my wonderful parents, get a job and save money living rent free, and finding a home for boyfriend and I when he is able to move back there. But that is going to take months for him to be able to come back to Kansas.

So we would be away from each other for a few months. We did that before, for six weeks, and it was really hard. Reallg really hard. We are both so sad to think of separating again.

But it might be in our best interest, in the long run...

What should I do? Im trying to weigh my feelings for the relationship and my feelings for my own needs/wants/goals. Its a really hard decision.