posted July 23, 2016 10:36 AM
Pluto right on the cusp of the 5th. You have always been drawn to things that are dangerous,profound,hidden,explore sexuality and deal with matters of life and death(Pluto).Now Pluto is also a very serious planet for the 5th and does suggest some type of trauma surrounding issues of creativity,fun and play.
Pluto also squares Mars in the 1st house. This may sound like a serious statement so feel free to correct me,but it does suggest the possibility of a traumatic (Pluto) experience very early in your life that involved the physical body(Mars in 1st)?
This thing may have possibly also affected your sense of emotional security(Cancer Asc) in the area of friendships (11th) or associates.
It really seems like I am reaching. But am just trying to connect the dots. Because the 11th house and 5th house are intercepted with Moon(security) and Uranus(sudden change) respectively. And this highlights issues related to these two areas of life.The difficulty in expression.
I find it interesting that you say that you never loved anyone because Saturn is conjunct Venus in the 4th house and the Moon is intercepted(interrupted in its expression).
So your emotional nature is very controlled but it does not mean that you are incapable of love. But it is possible that early childhood circumstances didn't clarify the "how"
Much of your physical security (2nd house cusp) comes from living in your head(Sun in 3rd house). So with Uranus aspecting the 3rd house Sun, your tongue is sharp and mirrors much of what you think about.
You don't mince your words and can be considered a little abrasive for the more sensitive types.
Now Uranus is also intercepted(interrupted in expression) in the 11th house suggesting that much of your ideas may be too revolutionary and others find difficult to embrace.
This could have you feel very much alone or at-least a part of a very small club of like-minded souls. Especially since Uranus adversely aspects the Sun(identity)
Pisces on the Mid-heaven suggests a life that is preferably lived in the shadows and away from people's glare or very much in it(superstar,movies etc.)
But its very nature , it is not like Leo. As Pisces Mid-heaven image can shape-shift and is not easy to box; so we may get the "martyr" as well as the "villain" in this placement.
The traditional ruler(Jupiter)is in the 4th house. So it does suggest one who feels very comfortable with BIG BROTHER, an exhibitionist or is very much a "on screen" person.
Add to that that the Saturn conjunct Jupiter aspect does not make you vain about it. Its just a "job" to you and that is where it ends. You handle the attention with self control(Saturn) and professional.
Of-course Neptune(2nd ruler)in 6th suggests a work environment that is associated with secrecy, flexible working hours,spiritual things,going incognito,wearing many masks ,glamour,disguise, playing pretend and/or deception.
But it also suggests that you take a lot of the work "home" with you via the unconscious mind.
Neptune is the self unfolding in ones lifetime. And with your 12th house cusp Gemini. There is likely to be a speaking out on things that sit in the 12th (Mercury in 3rd).
You may not keep these things hidden at all and so I wonder if you will write a book or speak publicly one day about your experiences?
Or it may also be that you are very spiritually inclined person who speaks of the spiritual aspect of things a lot.