posted October 15, 2017 04:48 PM            

I have Saturn in Taurus 20.51 in the twelfth and North node in Aquarius at 22.24 (House 10) South node Leo at 22.24 (house 4).

Right now the transiting node is at 22.36 and stirring up things, possibly.

Since anything family related equals a major disaster for me... I have moved away from anything blood related to me and I'm fully estranged by my birth family. If I go in that direction, then there is way too much and terrible drama. Which has an immediate effect and I start to feel sick and think I'm losing my mind......(ah, but what is family for a Cancer moon..... in this case... it's a tragedy) - although I'm well versed in my family genealogy.....

I belong to many 'groups' within my locale.... right now there are my mental health supports, LGBT drop in space, church, karaoke friends etc.....

I like approaching things via peer support and have a better grasp of things related to others that way.

They tell me that I'm multi-talented....I just figure there are things that I can do and I'm humble.....

I get told that I'm amazing photographer and should enter contests etc to get my stuff out there. I get requests to teach knitting or make something. My cooking ability is way off the scales and I'm quite happy with my skills there..... I get told that I'm a talented writer.....I get requests to go back up on stage to do Stand up comedy and I have been told that I have an awesome singing voice......I would if I left anything out..... I'm sure there are other great 'talents' there.

Note - for requests to make things etc.... I refuse to put pressure on myself to perform....it's basically what I have they can use.

The majority of the are competitive and I really don't like being competitive. I seem to roll my eyes at competitions or contests because I don't want that title or earn junk that piles up and collects dust because I'm not materialistic.

I don't want that Leo star quality of shining out and being known for something.....

Something in my soul tells me that all my skills and talents have to be used to benefit mankind. My ego must be out of it and I need to help others shine their lights and to be who they are. Maybe there are things that I have mastered in my life.... but again this must be used by others.

I have this craft show coming up at one of my hangouts during the week..... I will offer up some of my crafts. They lady running it says that we can keep the money from the stuff that we sell of off our own tables and I would rather fund raise for the agency then to pocket anything really.

They will be having a dainties table and I will be offering up two dessert recipes for my peers to make for the sale.

I have done photography contributions to society and some of it goes to fund raising. I'm happy giving to causes and find that is my way of contributing to the community.

Commitment is still tough but I'm slowly working on it.....I know I need to get out of the house more and get more involved with community causes.

Since I have over twenty years of astrological experience (although I stray from it from time to time).... maybe adding that element to the group... my peers at one place seem interested and maybe this is another thing I can offer up.....a tool for insight etc.

I'm nonconformist and march to the beat of my drummer.... my friends accept me for who I am and I value my individuality....... especially when I'm in the LGBT space....

On that note I have been a LGBT advocate teaching others about the Genderbread person.....

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they say that Saturn square nodes is a skipped step somewhere and I'm not sure where that is.....I have a lot of earth in my chart.... so I slowly and methodically structure things..... sometimes I think I'm on autopilot.

posted October 21, 2017 07:15 PM            

I can relate to much of what you have written, possibly because I am also a 12th-house Saturn, square nodes exact. Saturn builds, and the 12th house is concerned with the deeper, collective spiritual needs. It is a natural conclusion that you would feel that whatever you build on this earth is for uplifting others.

I'm not sure what the question is though?