posted November 18, 2019 02:46 AM            

I lost my 9 year relationship earlier this year in January and everyday since I feel tremendous guilt, regret and frozen. Most nights I feel shocked. I am haunted by the question if we just moved into our own apartment in the fall of 2018 would we have stayed together? I am living at my parents where she stayed and left and I really need to leave, but I don't know where or what to do anymore. What i wanted was to be with her, to begin a life together and it's like I missed the train and am stuck at the station.

posted December 03, 2019 07:38 PM            

How are you doing?
Have you been in any kind of touch with her?

I'm not an oracle card reader.
But I just want you to know that I read how you felt. That's a really rough spot.

Have you decided on what you think you want to do, now that a few weeks have passed?

A few of us are astrology students here--
Your break-up happened during eclipses --
one was January 5 or 6, 2019, with New Moon Eclipse to "15.25 Capricorn."
Jupiter had entered Sagittarius mid-November 2018.
Jan 21st there was a Full Moon Eclipse at "0.52 Leo"/AquariusSun.
Uranus finished up with the sign of Aries, entering Taurus March 7th, 2019 end of last.
Chiron ended its journey through Pisces, and entered 0 Aries Feb 18th.

You made this thread on the day that Mercury in Scorpio turned retrograde. Mercury will be "out of its shadow" on Dec 5th.

Jupiter JUST left Sagittarius and went into Taurus on Dec 2nd.

There has been an energy shift.

Right now, there will be a Christmas Eclipse at 4+ Capricorn, then a line-up of HEAVY Capricorn in January 2020.
FM Eclipse at 20.00 Cancer on Jan. 10th, 2020

Are you familiar with your astrology chart?
If so, you might want to check where those are stimulating your chart.
Share your chart, if you'd like..