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Topic: Will moving back home be good for me?
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LibraGirl92
Knowflake Posts: 1381
From: NZ
Registered: Nov 2014
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posted November 02, 2020 12:27 AM
  
I am planning on returning home in January from living in New Zealand for 4 years and I would like to know if This move will be good for me?
I am hoping to find peace and resolve issues I left behind when I moved to New Zealand.
Thank you to anyone whom will help much love ❤️ IP: Logged |
vansio
Knowflake Posts: 1347
From: the outskirts of Delphi
Registered: Dec 2017
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posted November 02, 2020 02:22 AM
I'm already getting that by returning home you're going to be recognizing that things/certain issues left behind are meant to be cut out of your life. The experience of returning to them, seeing they/you are not as you once left them, will release you of their residue as "stable images". The decision you've made to return home came from a perspective of opportunism, a sort of revolt against loss and blockage, the emptying of dreams. In time, through the process, you will come-to fill the vessel again. Whether not it is good for you is beside the point; the movement has been mandated and you have set out on this hermitage, abidingly and intuitively. (Disregard if it doesn't resonate. Has "a man" in your life, literally or metaphorically, "died"?) IP: Logged |
LibraGirl92
Knowflake Posts: 1381
From: NZ
Registered: Nov 2014
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posted November 02, 2020 02:55 AM
Thank you for your response <3One thing I would like to mend is the relationship with my grandpa (papa I always called him) as the last time I spoke to him was the day before getting on a plane to leave for New Zealand. His new wife practically made him not speak with his family anymore it was all about her and I felt as he abandoned me like my mother and father did when I was little (dad was always in and out prison and my mom was young and just wasn't ready to be a mother so my grandmother (dad's mom) with my papa raised and adopted me) Secondly, I hope to build a good relationship with my mother and hopefully get to see my dad it is such a strained relationship with both as they really haven't been in my life and I just feel sometimes feel that they don't really care. Heck, I am going to be staying with my mother when I arrive as she is the only one I know that will let me. I just want them to get to know me truly as I just feel so distance from both. Lastly is to find closure with my ex Jordan who I really truly loved. In September I sent a very long overdue apology message through Facebook apologising for all of the hurt I caused by being naive and selfish. We dated from 2009-2010 and that literally felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest and we almost tried again in 2013 but due to a bad fallout, we haven't had contact since then. I hope that when I come home that we can meet face to face and talk about everything and hopefully make peace with one another.
(Interesting you say about the death of a man one I know who I actually know was one I use to work with here in New Zealand his name was Mark and he passed away on the 6th September from being murdered) IP: Logged |
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