posted December 29, 2020 08:30 PM            

Your chart is actually that of revolutionary people, look at that Sun in 11th conjunct Uranus square ASC, Nodes trine Jupiter, Mercury square Vertex?! Here we have a contemporary Jeanne D'Arc mixed with the spiritual karma of Siddharta and the competitive genius of Elon Musk ❤️

If it wasn't due to your Taurus ASC sticking you on the ground, you would be lightheartedly coming and going from a parallel universe through a quantum teleportal door.
But your Taurus ASC and Saturn in 12th, uhmmm... where did I forget my quantum key to fly across the universe? or, the keyword to connect to the mankind?

It's obviously hiding in the darkness of Scorpio Chiron in 6th house square to Jupiter and Neptune.

But before getting there, we need to look at your Aries Saturn opposite Mars. This is where the key was stolen, blocking your adventure. And you know that. You know that there are/have been energies preventing you to express yourself according to who you really are and feel, hindering your own revolution and freedom...
I think you outwardly appear more outgoing, social, assertive than how you feel and maybe you don't feel enough appreciated in the way you express yourself, so there's a more consistent side of your Self and feelings that you keep for yourself and don't show to others. There may be a strong defensive/self-protecting instinct that could even suppress your feelings leading you to learn a certain amount of self-control, and maybe appearing less emotional than how you really are.
You may have likely had bad experiences with authority or male figures you felt abused from or that lead you to suppress your self-expression. Maybe you were even too accomodating to these people, while you may have been holding anger inside. This dynamic may have built an armor around your outward expression, and so you may also appear to others as someone who has "an attitude" or who may impose their will to others, but you may actually be completely misunderstood or you don't feel understood for who you are.
Chiron in Scorpio is not helpful, cause it tends to keep you "in hiding" and in a self-defensive strategy when this happens. The square to neptune may let you experience such conflict even in a more painful way, cause it may prevent you to see the roots and the solution of the issues, while carrying the wound locked inside... This whole configuration may be felt as if your efforts never really set you free and you may experience this pattern over and over without finding a real way out. The square to Jupiter though offers a huge way out to your consciousness, cause it's a door to an higher awareness and healing. So it is possible that through such awareness you have found/are findind your "own" way out outside of any average standards, so it is possible that you have adopted a very personal life style based on your ethics and values, on higher spiritual believes and philosophy, which you based your daily life on, so this is your Siddharta trait, you may have let go of certain western or mainstream material "attachments" to gain an higher form of spiritual individuality, freedom and happyness (Saturn in 12th house and Chiron square Jupiter).
Let alone that your Vertex square to MC and Mercury gives you a powerful psychic mind and intellect, through which you're able to analyze things and pursue a certain perfectionism in whatever you wish to accomplish, likely as a way towards awareness through which you crave to set yourself and the whole mankind free (Sun in 11th house conjunct Uranus).

posted December 29, 2020 09:17 PM            

Also, fangirling that you compared me to Elon Musk, I adore him so much and kind of have a crush on him 🙈❤️🙈.

I had no idea what vertex square mc and mercury means!? The vertex is something I still don’t understand that much, but I’d love to learn more. I know you and Todd utilize it a lot, so it must be important.

It’s funny I’ve never considered myself that rebellious, but I mean I would ditch class even as early as 6th grade and go home if I felt like it 🤣. I’ve always done whatever I want, when I want kind of thing, but this is mainly because my parents were very lenient and let us do whatever we wanted because they were drug addicts and negligent. They would stay in their rooms for days at a time sometimes, and my older sister and I would fend for ourselves.
I spent a lot of time alone growing up (Saturn in the 12?) and still do and enjoy it. I consider myself an introvert, but because I’m very loquacious , when I do have to socialize people would be surprised to know that I am.
So when you said appear more outgoing than I am, that definitely rings true. Also I am very self-protective in a lot of ways too, yup.

100 percent accurate about bad experiences with male/authority figures....My father was very abusive growing up, a tyrant really, and a professionally diagnosed narcissist. Just these past couple years he’s been going to therapy and actually has improved a bit. It’s still there, but he’s not as unbearable or abusive now.
But yeah, having to tamp down my self-expression was a survival instinct I learned very young, I walked on eggshells around him. He was the type that you couldn’t say or do anything that made him feel bad about himself. You weren’t allowed to cry or pout or make a certain face or do anything that made him feel guilty or like he did anything wrong, even when he did.
If he killed one of our pets in his rage, you had to act like everything was fine and it was ok and that you didn’t care, so HE didn’t feel bad or turn his anger on you.
I’m a very emotional/sensitive person, but growing up my tears were thought of as a bad thing and something that would get me in trouble, so yes I rarely ever cry when I’m around people and am thought of as unemotional by others, but I’m actually an empath and can literally feel other peoples emotions around me as if they were my own. In private I cry a lot and easily lol to movies, music, videos etc.
I think it’s my Venus conjunct Neptune, and also Venus is my chart ruler, so Neptune conjunct ASC ruler too. I’m so sensitive, that even loud sounds, bright lights, strong smells, crowds etc. affect me heavily. It’s why I like to be alone so much, so I don’t get so drained.

Also, very interesting what you said about “Siddharta” and lack of materialism/earthy matters. I have so much earth in my chart, and my Taurus rising etc. that you think I wouldn’t, and I’ve always found it so strange that I’m literally the least materialistic person I know!!!!
I could care less about money or status or material objects lol and I’ve always been that way. I could live in my car for the rest of my life and not care and have zero shame. My parents are the exact opposite, and it’s always been a point of contention between us. My father is always trying to brag to me about his fancy new purchase and I have to feign excitement or interest every time 🥴😂. And yes, I do live my life according to my own values and ethics! And they are more spiritually based. I even stopped wearing makeup and looking at mirrors for awhile, because I wanted to truly let go and evolve past any earthly matters and get more in touch with my true self.

posted December 29, 2020 09:50 PM            

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Originally posted by LunaIscariot:
Also, fangirling that you compared me to Elon Musk, I adore him so much and kind of have a crush on him 🙈❤️🙈.

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😂😂😂 I swear God I felt a strong Elon Musk vibe in your chart 😍

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I had no idea what vertex square mc and mercury means!? The vertex is something I still don’t understand that much, but I’d love to learn more. I know you and Todd utilize it a lot, so it must be important.

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Just between us... Vertex is a mystery to me! I envision it as a "universal mind" kind of channel/energy, pointing in the chart how we're connected to an higher dimension (if it ever exists ?!), so to me to have aspects such as Mercury/Vertex, nodes/vertex, jupiter/vertex, Sun/Vertex... is always an indication of strong psychic abilities and of someone connected to that higher dimension...

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It’s funny I’ve never considered myself that rebellious, but I mean I would ditch class even as early as 6th grade and go home if I felt like it 🤣. I’ve always done whatever I want, when I want kind of thing, but this is mainly because my parents were very lenient and let us do whatever we wanted because they were drug addicts and negligent. They would stay in their rooms for days at a time sometimes, and my older sister and I would fend for ourselves.
I spent a lot of time alone growing up (Saturn in the 12?) and still do and enjoy it. I consider myself an introvert, but because I’m very loquacious , when I do have to socialize people would be surprised to know that I am.
So when you said appear more outgoing than I am, that definitely rings true. Also I am very self-protective in a lot of ways too, yes.

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Well, rebellious can mean different things and attitudes, but the background/education you describe is enough out of ordinary to match your Sun/Uranus and a sort of "lawless" spirit, even though you have also a strong Saturn/Capricorn and mercury influence that likely led you to find your own "structure" and control on your own, actually in a very independent way I think.

Yes Saturn in 12th can give a lonely trait, but in a way that you enjoy it and do not fear loneliness. With the opposition to Mars can also give a sort of "unsolved" accomplishments, as just dropping whatever you're pursuing just because you have lost interest in it.

posted December 29, 2020 10:03 PM            

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100 percent accurate about bad experiences with male/authority figures....My father was very abusive growing up, a tyrant really, and a professionally diagnosed narcissist. Just these past couple years he’s been going to therapy and actually has improved a bit. It’s still there, but he’s not as unbearable or abusive now.
But yeah, having to tamp down my self-expression was a survival instinct I learned very young, I walked on eggshells around him. He was the type that you couldn’t say or do anything that made him feel bad about himself. You weren’t allowed to cry or pout or make a certain face or do anything that made him feel guilty or like he did anything wrong, even when he did.
If he killed one of our pets in his rage, you had to act like everything was fine and it was ok and that you didn’t care, so HE didn’t feel bad or turn his anger on you.
I’m a very emotional/sensitive person, but growing up my tears were thought of as a bad thing and something that would get me in trouble, so yes I rarely ever cry when I’m around people and am thought of as unemotional by others, but I’m actually an empath and can literally feel other peoples emotions around me as if they were my own. In private I cry a lot and easily lol to movies, music, videos etc.

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This touches me so much and makes me upset and angry at the same time you went through all that. So I'd just wish to hug you! ❤️❤️❤️

True what you say about Neptune conjunct to your ASC ruler! At the same time, this conjunction may take the most materialistic trait of the Taurus ASC away, but it's especially Chiron square Jupiter... Chiron square Neptune can also give such control on emotions while with others and find more comfort in letting yourself go while being alone...

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Thank you so much brilliant Stoika, I truly appreciate you taking the time to read my chart! Much love 😘

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You're so welcome!! And thank you for sharing ❤️

Happy New Year with transiting Jupiter and Saturn on your Sun/Uranus ✨✨✨💥