posted August 22, 2021 06:35 PM            

Please help me to understand where the issue starts in my natal chart and if will treat these issues finally.

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posted August 22, 2021 10:54 PM            

Part of what is happening is the need to change your pattern of actions by changing your aspirations, ideals, and life vision. Pluto has also been parallel your natal Neptune. That marks a time in which your aspirations are challenged and some illusions get dispelled on our way to better understanding. Here's an article I wrote about that transit: http://kannonmcafee.wordpress.com/2019/07/22/plutos-transit-conjunct-parallel-natal-neptune/

Also the transit of Pluto parallel natal Uranus occurring simultaneously. Change was scheduled even if your conscious aims weren't prepared for it:
http://kannonmcafee.wordpress.com/2021/08/13/transit-of-pluto-conjunct-parallel-natal-uranus/

I won't go into all the transits, because there are a number of them. So it's challenging, but you can come out of this better than you were.

You had been going through the transit of Pluto square natal Moon & N.Node for a few years before you made a break with your job. These transits schedule: (a) transformation of your life direction and sense of purpose (Pluto-Node); and (b) can create emotional pressure to let out any old baggage you've been carrying. It's a personal revolution that requires that you go within and tap into your softer, more vulnerable emotional side.

With Moon in Aries square Mars in Capricorn in your birth chart, there is no doubt you can be very energetic, productive, active, and can-do. Yet the risk with such an aspect is that you could focus your emotional energies too much on work and being a 'productive member of society' so that you end up neglecting your deeper personal needs. Now is a time to get in touch with those, no matter how hard and how long it takes.

It is hard to maintain inner balance when going through such Pluto transits to natal Moon. But understanding yourself at a deeper emotional level is just what is needed.

It's time to let go of any perfectionism and self-judgement that might be keeping your from seeing what your misconceptions or misbeliefs were that brought you here. No blaming. Just learning and forgiving.

Be as generous with yourself now as you'd be with a loved one.

You have a right to be angry about certain things. That was bound to happen with Pluto's transit conjunct natal Mars. The key is being willing to get beneath the anger to what it is defending. It's always defending some place of vulnerability in which we were hurt and don't want to be again.

Most of these tough transits are nearly over. Pluto's transits to natal Mars & Moon-N.Node will be completely over within the next year. What will remain a while longer are its transits to natal Uranus & Neptune. So please, read those articles linked above and let me know if I need to clarify anything.

Do you know about the Bach flower essence, Rescue Remedy? You might even be able to find a couple more specific remedies to help you. http://www.bachcentre.com/en/remedies/the-38-remedies/quick-reference-guide/
Flower essences can be very helpful for difficult mental-emotional states.

Know that your place in the world is wider and more important than ever. It now contains more possibilities because you let go of the old to make room for the new. It may take time for the next thing to show up, but it will after you've healed enough.

posted August 23, 2021 07:05 PM            

Then completely from dec till middle july i couldn't keep my head up high and find courage to continue,all my mental issues came together,the AVPD diagnosis,the depression etc.

Tell me,it was the right decision to leave that job for my mental health,may wasnt the proper timing?

Now time is challenging,healing of my damaged soul and feelings will need big efforts for transformation.

It's not easy yet for me to leave behind the old and focus to a new start.

Tell me,will i make it to overcome these issues?

posted August 25, 2021 01:04 PM            

It's time to regain a sense of balance, or maybe to gain it for the first time. It's located in you and is built on a sense of trust of yourself. Even if the world seems to be falling about around you, trust yourself that you can and will be okay with you. Trust your judgment. No regrets. You're allowed to make mistakes or decisions from imperfect understanding. We all do. Trust your decisions. Trust that there is an order to things even when chaos seems to rule.

Feel out what inside you most needs healing, and then make decisions aimed at that.

If this seems incomprehensible or difficult, start with the smallest thing. Also, get some help with something like the flower essences.

posted August 26, 2021 08:51 PM            

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Originally posted by Sorrow:
I want to heal my soul and mental health issues,why will take so long and why im having so many people call me weirdo.I suffered in previous workplace from gossip,backbiting,slandering,without do or say anything bad to anyone.

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It can take a while to heal because it took so long to develop. It takes time to transform. In the process you may be waking up for the first time to who you really are. The important thing is that you develop a feel for what healing is, for what balance and wholeness is.

Also, be sure that whatever prescription med you are taking is not contributing to your condition. Prozac and Paxil have proven the worst drugs, but the whole class of SSRIs has a troubling history of exacerbating mental health for many people.

It is time to become your #1 advocate.

I don't know why your fellow employees would behave the way they did. Their behavior says something about them and they are responsible for it. Your well being can now be defined by other things important to you.