posted January 20, 2022 01:41 PM
Thank you soooo much for the voice-message!
I've been working on your chart again.Black Moon Lilith has a lesson she must 'get', and once you do, she can become an asset to you.
(I have a book-- no promises right now but-- I can dig it out of my storage boxes and relate what it says. author Delphine)
One thing that was consistent is that it indicates talent, also.
Your interests and education are freakin' SMACK ON for your Chart!!
I'd love to address each and every thing you mentioned in post above and on your voice-message.
You and I have some chart features 'in common', and I hope that I'll be able to give insight. I've lived a LONG life. Only got into astrology @ 10 years ago. Astrology is like a forensic for me.
I see/sense your limitation ..
There IS a way to handle some of what you go through with the inner 'alone' thing.
There ARE perceptions that you can cultivate that should bring light to some things when it comes to the 7th House. Sometimes just a tweak can make big differences.
Your Birthday is coming up in a few weeks.
End of May should bring in some new phases.
Right now is perfect for observing 'what' it is inside that's been going on, and having some new ideas.
I see you have an Astrodienst account.
You can play with some of their sample-features.
Under free Horoscope, there's a Short report for upcoming transits. It's not ALL of them, but highlights some. {If you go there once a month, and keep your own list, you can see more of what's going on, and start+finish cycles.}
Also visit the Astro-Click Chart. You get a natal, with your aspects. Click some of the aspect lines, and it gives you a description of energies working in your chart angles.
{Your Sun trines MC!}
{It's not there but.. your Sun semi-square Saturn can give you insight on the relationship with you and your Father, and the limitations {you may be placing on yourself, subconsciously}. One of the advantages of astrology is that we can come to know 'consciously' the things that float in our subconscious selves. Things that can be brought to light then released. As kids we can pick up some serious habits where it loops the wounds. Layer by layer, we 'notice' the feeling, recall the emotion {without words}-- analyze 'how' that makes you feel-- positive or negative, and we 'make our own choice' around keeping it, or releasing.
So, READ the Astro Clickable Chart.
I think you'll get a lot from it.
{Do some journaling about what you find.}
They give two authors' interpretation:
Hand, and Pelletier. Click both versions at the bottom of that short-description. Amazing.
Have you ever heard the story and songs of India Arie?
With your study of Culture, find some youtube vids about her life-- black woman, musician song-writer performer.
These songs she wrote definitely blessed me, years ago. From the time I registered here at LL, I've posted her songs ---
Remedy for a Chiron in H2.
(music) Video ('the' India Arie, w lyrics)
[~3:56] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZFG8Kh0VdY
(music) I Am Light
(India Arie, on Oprah)
[3:38] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OL-gxfx2QtY
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In the voice message, you mentioned 'husband'?
Are you married, or is that your wish-to-be a wife?
Are you brought up as a Christian?
(music) Charm is Deceitful
(Kim Hill, lyrics = Proverbs 31)
[~2:18] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ZYV1t8zyws
Christian churches (gospel) are great places to get singing experience when you have a great voice. You can join choirs, then get on some Worship Teams (on stage), even sing back-up vocals. Gets you stage-experience. Also is wonderful for your Inner-self/soul.
Do you write poems, lyrics -- songs?
Which instrument are you most-proficient with?
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Laughing at self...
I have TOO MUCH to Say!!
You say that you embody your Sun!
5th House, wow!! yep.
The SUN is in Aquarius now.
You may be 'feeling' a lighter vibe coming in?
The PLUTO on your Cap MOON?
Is designed to make you 'feel' emotions that you might not have realized were fully there. If you push emo's down? they work just-below your being conscious.
>>
I have a Virgo Moon 24.56.
Pluto et al transits, have definitely 'shown' me things .. from the past that I've been able to reframe into DEEPER narrative, while dis-associating pain that belongs to the far-past. Yes, things happen. Sometimes people around us don't known what's going on on the 'inside', and they can mis-perceive how/who we are... *bheart*
Pluto Cap.. on my Ceres rx 25 Cap, trine my Moon.-- I've had breakthroughs in mother-memory forgiveness {relationship to my mom AND dad were very very difficult}.
As a much-older adult, I see 'their' lives with more detachment. I remember being 'their' ages, and the things I went through. *They* had kids, while they lived-life and attempted to come to maturity {were teens when they had me}.
It's harsh, B2B ...
And, forgiveness/detaching IS a posibility.
Takes weights off you WHENEVER you'd be ready for it. Just know, 'it's there'.
Letting go of strife, long-held strife, leaves room for Peace...
Don't put self down for your 'narrative' ...
Your images are treasures, and when you peel them back, it's like WOW-- Go Further, Go Deeper.
{Journal about it!!!! Or at least jot keywords}
Neptune in 4th is having an 'idealized' image of what Home and parents 'should' be like.
I have a 2nd House Chiron---
yeah.
Talk NICE to yourself!!!
YOU are the one with you all the time.
Be your own Good Friend!!
(music) It's You I Like
(Fred Rogers, Dan Heidt, folk guitar, 2014)
[2:07] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C5kSDN03qmE
Be Blessed!
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Editing to ADD--
You took your voice message down.
It was 'luck' that I "happened" to wake early and got TIME on the computer that morning to listen, and take down some notes I wanted to address.
It was lucky---
I don't always have access to computer here.
And!! I live in a 'terrible' sound-toxic apartment. It 'hurts' each and every DAY to live in this place. {Can't move, ..}
So the apartment still needs more work (maintenance!!).
(And I feel yukky in my body..)
Please forgive my delays. That's 'the way it is!!'
I think about you!!
Told you I lost the packet of articles and chart work I had DONE already. Items are still lost. Had the info on Cradle Ascpect.
Transit-wise?
You're having a LOT of contacts to your chart.
Take it really super easy on yourself...
Be Soft with you.
You have a Destiny!! You were brought HERE on earth for a really special reason. Your chart also indicates you are a 'slow' bloomer... STAY IN THERE. *Heart* *hug*
We'll Talk.
Just, it takes TIME {because of circumstances}, okay?
Much Love to you.
Chart of India Arie
- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Arie,_India
2:05 pm
2022jan20