posted January 05, 2023 11:55 AM            

My north node is in Capricorn in the 1st house, I think I should be learning to be stable and self sufficient. With Cap and 2nd house placements I feel a need for material security and career. But my self of self has always been so hazy and I’ve never felt any direction for a career. Now with Transit Uranus in my 5th house, I’ve been musing that maybe I need to reevaluate the expectation of a traditional 9-5 career and find a way to work towards making money independently via creativity and passion. I’d love to be a therapist but at 30 with no degree that’s a long road of schooling and debt when I’m already broke. This transit has me considering studying and doing online coaching or classes making what I’ve learned available to audiences who are less concerned with paper degrees, and emphasizing transmuting emotions through art.

Either way, I feel a pull to develop myself and focus on 1st house matters and my north node, but I feel like the odds are set up against me with all of these personal planets piling on my south node. Everything I am currently is in opposition to where I should be headed. Is this like playing “Hard Mode” on my soul’s journey this time around? Am I destined to fail? Does anyone have similar experiences with their chart/ lots of opposition and if so have you found balance? Any other thoughts are welcome as well.