posted January 05, 2023 12:16 PM            

My north node is in Capricorn in the 1st house, I think I should be learning to be stable and self sufficient. With Cap and 2nd house placements I feel a need for material security and career. But my self of self has always been so hazy and I’ve never felt any direction for a career. Now with Transit Uranus in my 5th house, I’ve been musing that maybe I need to reevaluate the expectation of a traditional 9-5 career and find a way to work towards making money independently via creativity and passion. I’d love to be a therapist but at 30 with no degree that’s a long road of schooling and debt when I’m already broke. This transit has me considering studying and doing online coaching or classes making what I’ve learned available to audiences who are less concerned with paper degrees, and emphasizing transmuting emotions through art.

Either way, I feel a pull to develop myself and focus on 1st house matters and my north node, but I feel like the odds are set up against me with all of these personal planets piling on my south node. Everything I am currently is in opposition to where I should be headed. Is this like playing “Hard Mode” on my soul’s journey this time around? Am I destined to fail? Does anyone have similar experiences with their chart/ lots of opposition and if so have you found balance? Any other thoughts are welcome as well.

posted January 05, 2023 12:44 PM            

Your chart seems uploaded wrong.

I was currious to see it and see if there are all of them on this axis Capricorn - Cancer.

I was born in that generation too with Cancer SN and Capricorn NN. At some point, I wanted to be independent and career oriented, it was one of the biggest illusion I had. It gave me nothing and I'm now back to where I was when I started - considering family as being the most important. My nodes are in 12th/6th.

With a chart like yours, you could experience periods in your life when almost nothing happens, or everything at once. Because the planets are opposite each other, there is a deep emphasis on yourself and others on a karmic level.

Cancer and Capricorn are cardinal signs, also called movable signs. They are the next most changeable after the mutable signs. Cardinal signs are very good at initiating, changing things. This means that the karma can be changed during a lifetime. The most difficult karma to change is from the fixed signs.

You could take a look at your chart and think about what you like or dislike, what it gives you problems, and if you want to change something, you can.

posted January 05, 2023 03:44 PM            

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Originally posted by mee_chryssa:
Hey,

Your chart seems uploaded wrong.

I was currious to see it and see if there are all of them on this axis Capricorn - Cancer.

I was born in that generation too with Cancer SN and Capricorn NN. At some point, I wanted to be independent and career oriented, it was one of the biggest illusion I had. It gave me nothing and I'm now back to where I was when I started - considering family as being the most important. My nodes are in 12th/6th.

With a chart like yours, you could experience periods in your life when almost nothing happens, or everything at once. Because the planets are opposite each other, there is a deep emphasis on yourself and others on a karmic level.

Cancer and Capricorn are cardinal signs, also called movable signs. They are the next most changeable after the mutable signs. Cardinal signs are very good at initiating, changing things. This means that the karma can be changed during a lifetime. The most difficult karma to change is from the fixed signs.

You could take a look at your chart and think about what you like or dislike, what it gives you problems, and if you want to change something, you can.

It's not easy, but doing it step by step, you can do it.

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posted January 05, 2023 06:30 PM            

Are you sure the time of birth it's correct? It's 2 degrees Capricorn ASC. A few minutes back and you are a Sagittarius ASC.

You have Sun, Mercury, Venus in the 7th house. A sign a co-dependency is the Sun in the 7th house.
Venus in the 7th it's a really good placement for relationships. Uranus/Neptune are only opposite Mercury.

The Sun being conjunct to the South Node could make someone not having enough energy or not enough self-esteem. The South Node tends either to diminish anything it touches, or to loose oneself in the energy. The same will do with Venus too.

There is a tendency to disregard relationships, or to not care enough for them. Any planet conjunct the South Node will lead to the diminish of that energy into your life. Or to concentrate too much on it. Nodes are pretty malefic points in someones chart.

Venus it's also the ruler of the 10th and 5th house. Very often, people that have the ruler of the 5th in 7th house or 7th in 5th, would tend to not continue relationships after the romance phase it's over. They are lucky in relationships, and this kind of luckiness makes them think that love it's just the romance phase. Or I've seen it where they spoil the relationship.

Most likely, you will have more than one relationship and this is shown by the personal planets being there, but especially because South Node it's there. All the other indications are a plus.

I don't really think about the North Node as being the path, because I've already been tricked by it for like 5 years into thinking that I need THAT. But you have a chart that it's overly emphasised on relationships.

What do you want to change exactly? Do you want to do something else, not a relationship?

I think the ADHD are due to the Sun conjunct South Node and the oppositions from Uranus and Neptune to Mercury.

Someone told me once to stop refusing what life has set up for me.

If you want to be on your own, you can, but many of your life areas are leading to the 7th house. You could ask for help from someone else, but do most of the thing on your own and that will not interfere in a bad way with your life and realm of karma around you. I'm thinking that if you refuse relationships, many parts of your life will suffer. Mercury 9th house which it's your philosophies on life, culture, your higher studies. Venus rules the 5th house and 10th house - so career and your everyday joy and entertaiment. Sun rules the 8th house so the help you get from others and they resources that they could give you so you can do something.

Your planets are in good dignity, with the exception of Mars and Jupiter, but those relate to other areas, not really connecting to the 7th house. This means that the relationships that you will have will not be bad.

And if you want to stop being compliant or overly into relationships, the South Node will do it on its own, you won't have to do anything. Plus that the ruler of the 1st house it's in the 2nd, so you already deal with things on your own.

posted January 06, 2023 12:29 PM            

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Originally posted by mee_chryssa:
Are you sure the time of birth it's correct? It's 2 degrees Capricorn ASC. A few minutes back and you are a Sagittarius ASC.

There is a tendency to disregard relationships, or to not care enough.

I don't really think about the North Node as being the path, because I've already been tricked by it for like 5 years into thinking that I need THAT. But you have a chart that it's overly emphasised on relationships.

What do you want to change exactly? Do you want to do something else, not a relationship?
Venus rules the 5th house and 10th house - so career and your everyday joy and entertaiment. Sun rules the 8th house so the help you get from others and they resources that they could give you so you can do something.

Do you think that relationships are like too much for you? My South Node it's in the 12th and I really considered about overcoming some of the isolation. I sometimes stay inside for too long and I kinda of come to resent it very much.

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My birth time is from my birth certificate, though it’s possible it could’ve been recorded late. I feel like sag or cap rising could fit for me.

I feel like I pour so much into love and my relationship partners that I don’t spend enough time alone. I have pretty much never been single for more than a few weeks (since 14) and have the tendency to get lost in love. I have invested so much time, money, and energy into partners that they walk away transformed and better than ever, but I am left drained after sacrificing everything. Most notably the divorce during my saturn return, and losing custody over my daughter and all assets though I fought desperately, my ex took advantage of his financial advantage and destroyed me.

I’ve had multiple people I was so sure were “destined” lovers lol. And some relationships that were truly beautiful, deep love.
I always hear that I should feel complete and content alone without partnership, otherwise that is codependency.
I thought North node was the goal lesson of this life, and that was what I was supposed to work towards.

posted January 06, 2023 06:18 PM            

You can always start doing something new. The ruler of the 11th Mars it's in the 5th so friends and groups will help you express your creativity. So that it's something that it's not dependent on your partner, but still it's related to other people.