posted May 24, 2025 06:39 PM            

I had to say goodbye last week. She had cancer and wasn't eating anymore. It had also spread from her trachea/head/one lymph node (she couldn't get food down) to her lungs and liver. I was concerned that she wouldn't be able to breathe because the saliva from the cancer was thick and sticky and the tumor was blocking her throat. The night before she was trying to swallow over and over and over and wasn't drinking water earlier in the evening, but then she had some, which seemed to help. She also had another health issue that makes her not want to drink and she stopped wanting any medicine. It's sad that it took so long to diagnose it. After she passed, I heard this sweet child's like voice trailing away saying bye Mommy, then later that night or early morning I woke up to seeing an eye watching me. She had this goo coming out of one eye, so I know it was her. Then I fell back to sleep. When they diagnosed her (about two weeks ago) and I was on my way to pick her up (they had to knock her out while trying to do a teeth cleaning and see why (dental issue) she wasn't holding on to her food), I heard the same voice say, I'm going to miss you Mommy. At the other office (trying to see if they could do something to help her) I heard her say, I love you Mommy, when I was headed over there to pick her up.

Can I ask if my dog, D, and I will stay connected in the future?

posted May 29, 2025 07:04 AM            

I'm so sorry to hear that, I hope you are taking care of yourself. I must admit I shed a tear reading your reply.

Of course, I will get to that in a few hours. If you are up for it, may I ask why is my uncle stalling on probate and will I ever get any financial help from some inheritance?

posted May 29, 2025 04:20 PM            

You and D will indeed stay connected in the spiritual realm but it won't feel like it for the next few months. D is of course at peace, represented by 4S but the last two cards speak of an enduring bond with fur-babies and keeping a connection to the spiritual plane. D will be ready and waiting for you when this happens.

Don't rush or force it though. Let your grief process. Between you, your bond and love has not changed or gone away, it has just transformed into a softer, more ethereal existence.

I think D saying "bye mommy" was her saying goodbye to the physical, not like a complete farewell. She will miss the physical touch and cuddles but she is not gone forever- I hope that makes sense.

posted May 30, 2025 04:54 PM            

Magician R
9 of wands R
Queen of wands
Queen of coins
Strength
5 of coins

Your Uncle may not know all that he needs to do with the probate which may be the delay you are seeing. 9 9f wands R can also be healthy problems. I'm thinking the two queens are reflecting your mother and you. It looks like either (maybe your mom) someone will help him or he will figure out what to do to get things under control. I pulled another card and got the Emperor. Your Uncle may end up or has gotten help from someone in authority to resolve things. The 5 of cups may represent your financial needs as well or that your Uncle didn't have the extra money to get help.

posted May 30, 2025 05:26 PM            

Lovers R
Queen of cups
King of swords
Strength
3 of cups R
Page of coins

There may be sudden changes and the outcome isn't clear at this time.

It's almost as if you get impatient and try to intervene or someone else gets in the middle to help get things moving. You're definitely the queen of cups, and right in the middle. The cards are still showing delays, but the last card is showing someone who is honest giving you news about it and with them holding a coin it's literally talking about money or something you value.

Probates here can last nine months or longer depending on the complexity of what was left behind and whether or not there was a will.

Thank you on the read for my pupper. People often saw us as a unit and not individually, so that makes sense. On her scan it showed cancer at the base of her skull. I keep wondering if she had it there already early last year and it made its way to her spine--causing her hind legs to go out before affecting other parts of her body. I think that everytime I took D somewhere for help, she thought she would get better afterwards.

Sending you hugs and positive energy for a happy conclusion to everything.

posted May 31, 2025 06:41 AM            

The frustration is that he just isn't doing it. My mum thinks he's punishing us for not doing more, but my mum gave up her job to look after them and help them with everything. I think my uncle is just a nasty person on top of probably not having the brains or energy to sort this out. Mum did say if he can't do it then lets just get a solicitor which he apparently agreed to but I've checked the probate records on the government website and nothing has been done still.

I wouldn't normally be this annoyed it's just if I am going to be able to do anything with my life (marriage, fix my broken kitchen, have children etc) then I'm going to need some sort of help, or win the lottery! And my parents and uncles flipping know this. Doesn't stop them pestering me about when I'm going to do all this though! Drives me mad! I'm 30 now so y'know, time is of the essence.

Sorry for the rant... I hope that makes sense. My mother is probably the person being honest and passing on information as she is the one dealing with her brother, not me. I just sort of wish she would stand up to him a bit more. She didn't want to have the responsibility of being an executor but she knows what her brothers are like. Why she didn't just do it herself I don't know, because me and Dad could have helped.

Again, I understand, until in the same breath they're all like, "you should really sort that kitchen out, you have no space and the oven is broken, it's no good" and "I'm hoping for wedding bells and grandkids soon, when is it going to happen?"

I'm opening a side hustle soon so hopefully I'll be able to break even with that, but just like this problem, it relies on other people so who knows.

Sorry Spring, just had to get that off my chest, thanks for listening!

I didn't realise that about your pupper, poor thing. You did everything you could and she definitely knows that. From the reads I did, it definitely seemed like she would go up and down with what she had, I honestly thought from the cards they would eventually diagnose a particular tricky condition that needed management for the rest of her life like diabetes (though I know the symptoms you mentioned weren't like diabetes).

posted May 31, 2025 07:10 PM            

I think I do remember reading for you a while back and got cards showing an inheritance for you, but at that time I think you hadn't given it much thought. You were still in the grieving process I think. It's okay to vent. It was stressful for me to handle my mother's stuff after she passed.

When D had trouble swallowing, I think she realized that she needed to drink more water to help her and may have thought I said goodbye because she wasn't listening or being stubborn. That's why she started drinking more the last day. I think she really didn't want to go, but I didn't know what else to do and there wasn't anything the vets wanted to consider. She wasn't eating either, but it was interesting to see her look at the food I had made and stick her tongue out, but when I tried to give her some of it, she moved away from me. It was very stressful. She had also lost over 20 pounds and was much easier to pick up.

I have one question. Do you see my health going back to normal over the next four weeks or do you see me making an appointment with the doctor where I used to live?

posted June 03, 2025 03:59 PM            

That must have been really tough for you, my condolences. I wish I had the right words...

For your reading I got:

5P, 2W Rx, QS, knight C rx

I don't think your health will worsen necessarily but I don't think it will get better on it's own. This spread is telling me you do need support and may be feeling mentally foggy which may be manifesting as physical issues.

I think you will end up seeing a doctor but they might be also confusing themselves. I actually wonder if you'll end up getting a second opinion.

I am also getting the sense of something psychosomatic, if that's the right term. As in whilst there may be nothing really physically concerning , it may have links to other areas of health which is worth looking into anyway, if that makes sense.

posted June 04, 2025 09:21 PM            

I thought more about what you wrote, and it makes sense as what I take medicine wise just supports me until I heal from it. He had offered to increase it before, so this time I will take him up on it. I also think the pupper may have left me with something--all the bacteria from taking care of her. I think I need to have that checked, but it could also just be in my head and a result of not getting enough support, too. I need to keep things simple, though, so there isn't any confusion, which has been hard in the past. Thank you again.