posted July 12, 2025 09:11 AM            

Ever since I was young, I hardly made friends, people would just neglect or leave me at some point in the favor of others, but that kinda scooped out during high school (not completely), yet now I am struggling with romance.

1)chart of the guy here, I don't know his birthtime : https://imgur.com/a/hzkQU0y

The first situationship happened when I was 17, online. The guy clearly liked a girl he knew from his school, and probably fancied some other girls he knew online, and he blocked me when I started complaining to him about my parents. It was rough, and it took a long time for me to get over it. Now I regret not actually pursuing a relationship with the next person I am going to talk about (at this time it was back when she still had feelings for me).

2) I don't know the exact birth time of this person, but she said she was born at noon.

Her chart: https://imgur.com/a/ftTpdfY

I am now stuck in a situationship of a few years with the red person (a trans woman), an old friend of mine. I've had feelings for her in the past too (before she realized she was trans), but after she went through a change, she met someone long-distance (who back then was a trans woman too, but then realized he's not trans) who happens to be from my country (they were briefly in a relationship), and never stops idolizing him, and sees everyone else as beneath him. But despite that, she is still dating in real life and sounds so confident that she'll find someone, while I am losing my mind over the fact that I am 3rd place for her, with whoever she'll date irl in the first place, and her "friend" in the 2nd one. (I've seen that she likes making hierarchies like that, she once told me she considers me more important than her study).

Unfortunately, I don't know her friend's birth info.