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posted September 15, 2003 12:14 AM         

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sometimes feel out of place? Like at school? Because sometimes i feel like i fit in so well and then there are periods when im like....okay, i have no friends! Have any of you been in that situation? If so, what did you do?
And also, i mean, ihave friends...but GAWD everyone is so fake. Like i cant take it anymore. So then i just wanna seclude myself and i get all quiet and i dont talk to anyone, and all i wanna do is listen to my music and go to dance. But, i mean that goes against my nature, because im a leo with libra rising, and im a VERY social person. So i duno whats gotten into me, cuz if this keeps up and i decide that i actually DO wanna hang out with those people, they wont accept me back, you know? So im kinda stuck in a rut! lol thanks for your time!
Ika

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posted September 15, 2003 08:59 PM         

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Ika,
I totaly know what you mean, being in high school is a lot of hasle. everything is so formulated and systematic...one way or the high way in the social higharcky of high school. mean while there are real people like you and me having emotions and being human beings, eh? Me as a person, I am highly scial as well, a pisces witha aries moon. that makes me hang out more i like to socialize and talk to all the different people. But if i hang out with one group to long i get board b/c GAWD most everyone is alike and mostly fake. I'm sick of it I wish people had thoughts and feelings. I blaim it on the manifestations of money. Money creats superficiality, eh? You ever notice a fat ugly rich guy ever wallking down the street with a totaly gorgus babe? its sad. its not just high school but the world in genral. I'm just trying to find the people who are like you and I, you know? I also have a Virgo RIsing (complicated chart, trust me) So i anylize most everything. then as a pisces i understand human nature instantly. it helps me peice it together and make scece out of something so sad. I see it to. I have just tryed to put myself above it.

Hey i understand where your'e coming from.
Randall III

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posted September 15, 2003 10:12 PM         

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I'm so glad that someone actually feels the way i do! Like seriously tho, there are more important things in life other than hanging out with popular people, you know? It;s just getting so annoying! I hafta admit tho, i was just like that last year. But then something changed, i dunno what. I actually think it was because of EMinem....he really made me see the truth about people and he made me realize you can do anything. But yeah, i was contemplating whether or not to just seclude myself. I mean, thats gonna be really hard for me because i LOVE partying and everything. But it just gets so....unimportant! And plus, I'm new at my highschool, so i could easily seclude myself kind of, because im not at the point where i have tons of close friends. So i dunno what to do. All i wanna do is just focus on my career and education. Not partying and gossipping. And its hard to maintain a level of both because if you wanna have friends in this highschool...you hafta show up at every party and be known by everyone...and man i just dont have TIME for that BS! But yeah tell me what youthink i should do!!!! lol
PS-->ar eyou Canadian? You say "eh" a lot. haha i still say it too.
Ika

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posted September 16, 2003 06:55 PM         

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ika, same as deepiym, i know what you mean, it sounds like you have been reading my mind. i'm a leo also w/ sag moon and possible sag rising (dont know what time i was born). i always feel like NOBODY at school gets my jokes and its so completely obvious that they don't even like each other, so they only hang out w/ one another because they think its the end of the world if they aren't seen w/ the most popular people.
its my saggitarius-ness taking over, all that philosophy i drill into my head, and i always think about "why am i here"? what was i born to do? to make people laugh? to teach people something? what kind of difference will i make in this world?"
i also wonder if the other people even realize how fake and stupid they are acting. if you just mentally take a step back and LISTEN to the words they are saying, their body language, how they transition from one thought to another, and how they listen to other people's feelings and ideas, you can plainly see that most of them have no character and only care about themselves.
i'm not saying i'm perfect-far from it, actually. what i AM saying is that if everybody bit their tongues and listened to whoever was talking and tried to understand their side of the story or how they were feeling, the vibes i got from everybody would be so much cleaner and not so mucky and nasty, since that is pretty much how most people are these days.
i too was wondering if anybody felt the way i did. since i keep it to myself, i think-"maybe other people feel the same way but are just keeping it to theirselves." well i guess you and deepiym are two people i found that feel the same way as me, although you guys are older than me.
hopefully, when all the popular people mature-and all the wannabe-popular people do also, they will realize what we have realized-that everybody is fake and to just listen to other people and then everybody will have a place to fit in.

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posted September 17, 2003 08:06 AM         

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Hey guys!

Trust me I know exactly what your sayin'. I've been really sad and depressed lately because I really don't understand how people can be so superficial at my school. They say one thing when they mean another and then they say things behind your back. Why can't everyone just be more straight forward? If a friend of mine did something to annoy me I would tell him, I wouldn't ***** to the whole school and start ignoring him. I've stopped talking to heaps of people lately and now their calling me a snob, but I feel as though when Im with them I become a different version of myself and I don't like it. Its just not my nature to be fake. It makes me sick. Probably because Im a fire sign and I wouldnt compromise my honesty for something as stupid as being popular. I have my own friends anyway and they are people I know that I can trust and rely on. Superficial people with no character will never have real friends, or real experiences or a real life because how can you experience anything for real if u don't have real emotions!!!

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posted September 17, 2003 10:11 PM         

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yeah, and don't you just feel so...different? and it just annoys the H**L outta me because it's like...GROW UP already! And i just feel sorry for people like that because they have no ambition, no nothing, exept for having popular friends and attending every single party there is. So i find comfort in knowing that i have something to look forward to in the future, and that im working towards something that will get me far. I just wish people treated each other equally. Like really, everyone knows they should but very few people do it. Man, i dont do it either all the time! bUT, no ones perfect! well, i gotta get to bed! School tomorrow!!!
goodnite everyone, im happy you guys feel the same way!
Irene *MWAH*

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posted September 21, 2003 10:42 PM         

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"If the other people even realize how fake and stupid they are acting. if you just mentally take a step back and LISTEN to the words they are saying, their body language, how they transition from one thought to another, and how they listen to other people's feelings and ideas, you can plainly see that most of them have no character and only care about themselves." -FiReY leo 1

Leo, You know what I'm talking about as well as Ika and aries-chick. We are the few, the hand ful of people in this world who have what I call: Vision. Some people are conscious of it mostly fully (and painfully), some people are being awakened. It all depends. and just to think... These are the Idiots that are going to rule the world one day... I Don't know what I'm going to do, TV, Cars, greed, and commercialism, among many other things in world are corupting the minds of our people. Teenagers esp. We are so sensitive to it. it goes in one ear and out the other and we don't even know it. Subconsciously we are being altered to the liking of George W. Bush and friends. to be consumers, to be workers, and to be emotionless drones on the verge of insanity. and little do we realize what we have on our hands. so subtlety have we been changed. all we have to fight it with is Love. now thats a lot. but theres so little of it in this place anymore. It makes me sad to think about it.

Go to school and find Love? Thats crazy. So little...

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posted September 22, 2003 01:25 PM         

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posted September 22, 2003 10:31 PM         

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!!!! so true Deep, so true.

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posted October 01, 2003 09:27 PM         

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(sigh) I was in school the other day, I liked this girl. So sweet, so nice, pretty and kind. She is just going down the wrong path. the path of mundain life. I can read Auras, and hers told me of the pain of a mundain existence. I just want to show her the path, the path of enlightnement. Now i'm not there but i'm getting there. I wanted to show her of the life that she could be living, and the emotions she could be feeling. But life in school prohibits emotions, and if you have any you have to hide them well in fear of prosicution. I want to love, I want to feel the deepest of all emotions, i want to share this universe with someone, and that someone I liked had potential. But to me it is just going to waste.
Please god answer my calls take me from this stupid existence in school show me the path of true men and show me what you got, Love.

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posted October 08, 2003 09:02 PM         

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So what happened to this girl?

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posted October 09, 2003 03:17 PM         

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Have you caught that scopion's eye yet?

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posted November 02, 2003 01:38 PM         

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To the top!

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posted November 03, 2003 02:41 PM         

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Does Deep still come ? I havent seen him around for awhile.

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posted November 07, 2003 12:36 AM         

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I don't think he has... but you never know-- maybe he's been especially busy.

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posted November 12, 2003 02:48 PM         

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