posted December 15, 2003 09:21 PM         

my parents are gonna find out tonight, and even though they wont hurt me, theyll be terribly dissappointed.
all day ive had the worst feeling in my gut...i feel like its my life, my thing to deal with and i have, but its still that...i donno i just had to get it out...soz for rambling.

i know that no matter what i say, theyll still need to tell me exactly what they think, even if ive already told myself those things over and over again...but the fact is that the grade didnt matter to me during the time, so i cant exactly take it back, and i dont want to, i dont regret it, i had other things which were weighing far more heavily on my mind...

posted December 15, 2003 09:51 PM         

Maybe the teacher will let you do some make-up work. Even if he doesn't, it's only a grade. Hopefully your parents will understand that.

posted December 15, 2003 10:29 PM         

I failed a recent essay. Actually it was my first ever essay. I thought I would get an A it was so good. It sucked according to my teacher. Such is life. I will keep climbing the mountain and enjoying the view even if at the top I will tople straight back down.

posted December 15, 2003 11:08 PM         

This year I got High Honors, but I'm finding it hard to keep it up. You're not alone. I know exactly how you feel.

Sometimes when there is LOVE on your mind, it's very hard to focus on anything else.

posted December 16, 2003 08:29 PM         

im at home alone and dads coming home soon, i feel like im gonna vomit.

the thing is i know i can bring my grade up, a LOT, like i got a C two semesters ago but then i sort of tried again and i got a B, i still didnt really try, so thats ok. but this year i found out that yr 10 doesnt matter in the scheme of things, and my brain just went......OK! no workie for me! woohoo!

im so sleepy, would they get more mad if they got home and i was asleep??

posted December 16, 2003 11:09 PM         

i read all my other grades and im getting 3 A's 2 B's and the one......ahem.........D. but the thing is that one of the B's is gonna get changed, cos the silly teacher doesnt think i handed an assignment in, and the other, well thats gonna stay a B, cos i got the wrong dat for an assignemnt and had to hand it in two days late so i lost 20% on a REALLY valuable assessment piece.

anyhoo thanks so much for replying!
no i dont go to an overachiever school, its my mum, shes an overachiever...and yes i have been in love nearly the whole time, but i dont know why, it only ever shows up in my maths grade the one that my mum values above the rest.....bugga

posted December 17, 2003 02:42 AM         

well i think it went worse than what i originally thought. first dad saw it and just said 'well not everyones a mathematitian, jus try harder next yr" then mum came home and now i am "the dumbest idiot, and shouldnt even bother going to college because i wont do well, i should just go work in a fast food restaurant" (no offence to people who work there, but my dad meant it as the worst kind of insult)

i think im grounded for the first time in my life, for the entire school holidays of my last highschool year, im allowed no new clothes until the first term of college finishes, thats like 4 months, and only then if i have excellent grades.

and if i ever do anything like this again, my dad threatened to watch me like a hawk and always tell me that no matter what i've done, its not good enough.

i just realised i saw some of my closest frineds for possibly the last time last night...

posted December 17, 2003 03:25 AM         

Your parents need to take stock of their priorities and look at themselves before they are any more critical of you.

Know what I'd do??? I would leave this page on your computer in the hope they read it. Better still, print it out and put it on your fridge.

posted December 17, 2003 09:20 PM         

I'm glad you're feeling calmer.

posted December 19, 2003 02:14 AM         

well theyve apologised since, i still cant really buy nething till after first term, and my grade in maths MUST improve, but dad apologised and im allowed to go out! WOOHOO!!

majenta, i take no offence what so ever! i was thinking far worse things in my mind...thank god i didnt voice them...the mere fact that i was grounded for even a day means that they were seriously p'd off! i have never been grounded in my life, not even close! so ive definately learnt my lesson.

thanks for replying guys