posted October 14, 2002 05:56 PM         

okay, i remember a dream i had last night. i'll post them in parts. (i think i intuitively know what they mean, but thought i should post them to confirm).

part 1:

i was at stanford university. i think i was 17 years old. there were a lot of young people swarming around going from one class to the next. everyone had a piece of paper that had a checklist of tests we had to take in order to be granted admission to the school. the scale was from 1-5. the school was looking for 4s and 5s.

so, as everyone was running around, and i was getting my things done, i started to get the feeling that all the scores were subjectively given. that it really had nothing to do with talent, because i noticed that students who were clearly less bright than i getting better scores.

i was getting worried and extremely upset that i kept getting 3s, and a few 4s. then i intuitively felt that some students were ganging up against the "outcasts." the ones who are not in the same creme de la creme of the students. i saw it all, but for some reason, both sides accepted me and did not ostracize me. like having one foot on both sides. it was quite errie, but i identified more with the outcasts.

the outcasts were staying in the basement. i was guessing this was some sort of student retreat. i didn't know where the other students were at. there was a couch and some beds. i felt really sad about my scores and lay on the couch looking at my checklist.

part 2:

then that basement turned into my family's house. it appeared that we had just moved in, because we were walking around looking at everything. it was a very weird place because there were fireplaces suspended about 3 feet off the ground and connected with huge tubes, as though the previous owner was trying to convert the fireplaces heat into central heating! as we walked into the living room, i noticed that a part of the fireplace there was torn down already, even before i got there. my mom said it was used for bad purposes and she took it down before my brother and i got there.

thoughts?

posted October 15, 2002 01:16 PM         

I have begun to look at this, and have just one question at the moment - is there some situation in waking life in which you feel you are being tested?

I will look more closely later and post something tomorrow - hopefully!

posted October 15, 2002 01:30 PM         

thank you.

posted October 16, 2002 12:55 PM         

Is there anything else in your life that could constitute a change in the way you are thinking about something?

And your mother - is there something in her past that she may have protected you from? Some sort of family related turmoil?

There is some other symbolic information here, especially in part 2. I have not had much time lately, but I am still working on this.

Thank you so much for your patience.

posted October 16, 2002 04:38 PM         

"Is there anything else in your life that could constitute a change in the way you are thinking about something?"

yes. i am reconsidering an intimate relationship that i am in right now. i have not been happy with it for some time.

"And your mother - is there something in her past that she may have protected you from? Some sort of family related turmoil?"

my mother is *nortorious* for secretly removing things she thinks are "bad" out of my sight before i even have a chance to look and judge for myself. she is very taboo about sexual subjects in particular, so i think the fireplace removal has something to do with sex somehow.

"There is some other symbolic information here, especially in part 2. I have not had much time lately, but I am still working on this."

hmm, i am curious what your perspective is.

"Thank you so much for your patience."

No! Thank YOU for your patience

posted October 16, 2002 10:53 PM         

so...*hugs*

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When I despair, I remember that all through history the way of truth and love has always won. There have been tyrants, and murderers, and for a time they can seem invincible, but in the end they always fall, always.

- Mahatma Gandhi

posted October 17, 2002 01:37 PM         

Besides the test you face, there is definately an underlying energy that is driving the dream and some other possible "tests," there is something happening psychologically or spiritually.

I would first point out the significance of the numbers 3 and 4 that seem to apply to you. In Jungian psychology, 3 can indicate the beginnings of a psychological process - resolving some mental duality, and 4 forms the foundation of this process - that which the process is based upon.

So in this context, it would seem that you are undergoing a change in some process of thought, and have nearly reached the completion of the initial change.

The basement can symbolize the subconscious. It is a place where we store things, much of the time used or unwanted - old things. It seems that you are "storing" stress here (but who does not!).

It seems that by connecting with this stress concerning the test you face, you contact other stresses or subconscious material which is being "stored" there.

A fireplace can symbolize the hearth of a home - the family center around which one finds warmth an comfort. It must be significant that they do not touch the ground. There is something about the family which lacks a foundation or is disconnected, separated, not "grouned." Yet there is an attempt at making the connections, as indicated by the tubes.

To me, the feeling here is that some part of the family past has been severed - perhaps intentionally - so as to protect the future of the family, or at least the image projected, and deliberate connections have been made to ensure this more positive future. It could be that there is some connection between your mother's past situation - as relates to family - and your own circumstances/situation, and the change you are undergoing.

What do you think?

posted October 18, 2002 08:49 PM         

here are my responses:

"Besides the test you face, there is definately an underlying energy that is driving the dream and some other possible "tests," there is something happening psychologically or spiritually."

i had been pondering about these issues lately, about what tests i am being put through when i am confronted with a situation---both spiritually and psychologically.

"I would first point out the significance of the numbers 3 and 4 that seem to apply to you. In Jungian psychology, 3 can indicate the beginnings of a psychological process - resolving some mental duality, and 4 forms the foundation of this process - that which the process is based upon.

So in this context, it would seem that you are undergoing a change in some process of thought, and have nearly reached the completion of the initial change."

oh ra, there have been so many "thought processing" changes over the past 5 years. it's like going through a whole mental warp. "initial change" . . . i know, there's more.

"The basement can symbolize the subconscious. It is a place where we store things, much of the time used or unwanted - old things. It seems that you are "storing" stress here (but who does not!).

It seems that by connecting with this stress concerning the test you face, you contact other stresses or subconscious material which is being "stored" there."

yes, indeed. one stress touches another. *sighs*

"A fireplace can symbolize the hearth of a home - the family center around which one finds warmth an comfort. It must be significant that they do not touch the ground. There is something about the family which lacks a foundation or is disconnected, separated, not "grouned." Yet there is an attempt at making the connections, as indicated by the tubes."

yes. my family was always moving while i was growing up. it was also dysfunctional in the violent and emotional abuse form. i was always tired of the constant emotional and physical uprooting that i really did not/do not have faith in my own intimate family's unit. i don't trust the family unit because every time i began to settle, something would always happen to destroy the foundation and i become temporarily emotionally shattered. in some respects, i have felt homeless even though i had physically a home and a family. i've learned to deal with it my creating my own foundation and peace from within, so i don't have to rely on anyone else to provide this to me.

"To me, the feeling here is that some part of the family past has been severed - perhaps intentionally - so as to protect the future of the family, or at least the image projected, and deliberate connections have been made to ensure this more positive future. It could be that there is some connection between your mother's past situation - as relates to family - and your own circumstances/situation, and the change you are undergoing."

my mother has a lot of skeletons in her closet that she keeps to herself. i become irritated with her when she creates MORE of them by creating distortions and lies to protect herself. she ALWAYS created illusions and puts up these fantasy walls around her and the family so people do not know what is really going on.

*SIGHS*

you are amazing ra.

thank you very much. there is so much to think about.

love,

aphrodite

What do you think?

posted October 23, 2002 02:02 PM         

It is difficult to express, but your response helps to ... close the intuitive loop ... that I have thrown out there. Confirmation and clarification are what you have given me.

Thank you SO much!!

posted October 25, 2002 12:47 AM         

i don't know why you would ever doubt yourself.

posted October 25, 2002 08:52 PM         

Do you know anything about remote viewing? The intuitive energies that I use are very similar - and not at all perfect. Feedback is critical when there is the intent to learn and expand, as it ties together any "loose ends" that are strewn about in time and space.

I do not want to get lost in myself out there! I learned THAT lesson the hard way, and it took a few lifetimes!

posted November 19, 2002 05:04 PM         

"Do you know anything about remote viewing?"

no. what is it?

"The intuitive energies that I use are very similar - and not at all perfect. Feedback is critical when there is the intent to learn and expand, as it ties together any "loose ends" that are strewn about in time and space."

yes, feedback is really important to tie up loose ends. i know what you mean about learning and expanding.

posted November 21, 2002 01:27 PM         

It is a fantastic learning tool.