posted October 04, 2002 10:27 PM         

A few nights ago I had a dream about my Twin. I haven't seen him for 5 years...last time I did see him, it was a disaster. He knows that we have something magical. But I don't think he is ready. He came to visit me in college. But he hadn't known my number, but he used to go to college with me, and he just picked a "RANDOM" number and called and left a message for me. The clincher was that it belonged to the girl across the hall, who happened to be a very good friend of mine. How "coincidental" it that right? Well we were having a great time together, until - The night before he was supposed to leave, he and I and two friends were all hanging out, and he decided to do something really stupid with one of (I thought) my friends. I couldn't believe it. So I just had to go. I couldn't be with him. This is the hardest thing I have ever done, and at the time I knew that unless he can respect me, we can't be together.

This dream I had(some gaps here but giving as much as I remember)

He -my twin- comes to my parents house, to visit. It is winter time, but very warm for winter in the 60's. The sun is shining, and the sky is so blue. We decide to leave, I can't remember why, but we get in the car and go. It is stormy now. The sky is grey and dark. For some reason we can't leave, something is preventing it, I am not sure what it is. We go back to the house, he gets a phone call there from a girl who is his Fiancee or girlfriend, turns out she is pregnant so I am going out to talk to people about this. It's as if all the people that are in my life in the waking world are there, and my mother in law is there demanding to know what is going on. Kevin is there, I don't see the kids, but he doesn't seem to be concerned about my twin being there also. I go back to the house to see what's happened with my twin, and when I get there the house is empty of people. So I go back outside, and discover a snowstorm is occuring. I go looking for Kevin and the kids to make sure they are alright. I don't find anyone, so I go back to the house. Everyone is inside having hot chocolate with marshmallows. I don't see my twin, as I ask about his whereabouts I see a car drive off. I know it is him.
He has told no one where he is going or how to get a hold of him. "Always the same, everytime I see him" I think to myself. I am very distraught, and try to find out what happened after I left the house. I get a little more of the story. I am trying to piece it all together.

After this I got woke up by Morgen who needed her pacifier, so I don't know how it would have turned out.

What does this mean? Please help.

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The human mind is not capable of grasping the Universe. We are like a little child entering a huge library. ...It does not understand the languages in which they are written. But the child notes a definite plan in the arrangement of the books....a mysterious order which it does not comphrehend, but only dimly suspects.

posted October 05, 2002 12:23 PM         

It will be a couple of days before I can analyze it, but I am sure some of our other Knowflakes can give you some ideas in the mean time.

posted October 05, 2002 06:50 PM         

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The human mind is not capable of grasping the Universe. We are like a little child entering a huge library. ...It does not understand the languages in which they are written. But the child notes a definite plan in the arrangement of the books....a mysterious order which it does not comphrehend, but only dimly suspects.

posted October 08, 2002 11:55 AM         

This dream typifies a twin type of relationship.

He is part of your psychological foundations (parent's house) but the relationship between you is in a "frozen" state (winter time) and you are aware of this (warm/sunny/clear blue sky).

Connection with him (both in car) initiates the typical twin "syndrome" of discord/emotional upheaval (stormy/grey/dark). You cannot leave because there is no progression with this connection at this time. He is not yet ready(phone call).

All the people in the house enforce the life/karmic connections that are being presented.

Your mother-in-law probably represents an aspect of self that is looking for answers.

Kevin is not concerned because there is nothing to be concerned about.

Finding the house empty when looking for the twin, and then discovering the snowstorm occuring reflects your feelings of "being left out in the cold", so to speak. You feel a sense of abandonment, of being alone, isolated.

Then your focus returns to the life that you DO have, your family, and this is where you find a connection with some measure of warmth, security, and the love that a family provides (hot chocolate and marshmallows).

On the one hand, you have the warmth and love of family - but on the other there is an emptiness that can be filled only by the twin, who is not to be in your life at this time. A difficult position that tears at the very fabric of your emotional being.

But you know that this must be for the best, right?

Much light to you.

posted October 08, 2002 02:46 PM         

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The human mind is not capable of grasping the Universe. We are like a little child entering a huge library. ...It does not understand the languages in which they are written. But the child notes a definite plan in the arrangement of the books....a mysterious order which it does not comphrehend, but only dimly suspects.