posted November 11, 2002 01:45 PM         

Last night I had a dream that I went down to my ex-boyfriend's (Jim) house because he was sick and for some reason I needed to check on him. My current boyfriend was in the dream for just a second. He was standing near Jim's front door and when I pulled a key out of my purse to open the door he seemed upset that I would just let myself in without calling Jim first. He acted as if it was an invasion on Jim's privacy and said that he was going to talk to him about it later to see how he felt about it.

Jim was in bed and I climbed in bed with him for a second. Then the next thing I knew these two guys that I know but seperately from Jim were saying that they needed help moving a trailer outside. I had to move Jim's truck so that they could do it. That part went on for a little while but it was nothing more than me moving Jim's truck.

I went shopping in the dream for a little while and then came back to Jim's. I realized that I had left my key inside so I had to knock on the door. A little boy answered and I asked for Jim. He said that he wasn't there. A woman's voice called from inside the apartment and told me to come in. It was his sister. She said that she had been waiting for me. She and her husband were going to take me to a baseball game and that Jim would meet up with us later. We went to the game and again I saw people that I know seperately from Jim. I said hello to them and then kept on walking. I sat down for a few seconds and realized that I had left my dog at Jim's house (which was not part of the dream until now). I left to go get him and saw that my mom had showed up at the baseball game with a girl that I used to be friends with. I hid to avoid seeing her and became upset that my mom had brought her to the game. When I got close to Jim's house I realized that there was a big empty pool that I had to jump in order to get to Jim's door. The pool was so deep that I couldn't see the bottom. At first I did a little leap, not concerned at all, but when I was in mid-air I realized how deep it was and caught on to the side before I could fall down. Then suddenly I was standing at Jim's door. This time the door was open slightly. I walked in and saw that he was in bed. He was hiding his face from me at first. He said that his mom had been there and started crying when she heard that she had missed me. He said that she went to the game to go find me. I climbed into bed with him again and started to fall asleep. That's when I woke up.

posted November 12, 2002 11:05 AM         

My thoughts mirror Stella's in many respects, and as she said, you decide what fits. I looked at your dream last night, and this is what I wrote:

I think you answered your own question as to why you are having these dreams - or at least this one: "everytime I feel that I am over my ex I end up having a dream similar to this one." And, "I guess I still have some more work to do."

This dream reflects these issues as they are being worked out by your subconscious mind.

There is a great deal of symbolism dealing with this subconscious struggle. In fact, the symbolism is very redundant and as much as I would like to dissect each symbolic cluster, I only have time to touch on a few - but these will illustrate the point.

You still feel connected (key) with Jim (Jim/house). Feeling this connection (climb in bed), your subconscious illustrates the need for you to remove the mental/emotional block (Jim's truck) so that the material/energy that is attatched to the situation (trailer) can be separated from it - driven away - freed.

Next, you exercise your freedom of choice (shopping) or perhaps this is symbolic of distraction or relaxation, or suggests that you are looking for something, and you return to Jim's. Your subconscious self certainly is having difficulty with release!

As in life, Jim is not there - the physical separation has been made - yet you subconsciously retain hope of a future "meetimg."

The conflict/competition between parts of self is symbolized by the baseball game, and further emphasized by the avoidance of the friend - an aspect of self. The avoidance is triggered after a subconscious reference of "loyalty" (dog) to Jim.

The last scene is all about the emotions involved in this situation. You feel a void in your emotional being (empty pool) due to the separation (pool between you and Jim's door). Perhaps you are not consciously aware of the extent of this void (not concerned at all), having pushed your feelings into your subconscious, but the emotions are deep (could not see the bottom). It is evident that you do not wish to "face" the emotions that you are stiffling (he hides his face), and would much rather forget them and keep them locked up within your subconscious (get in bed - fall asleep).

As you said, "I'd like to believe that I'm over him and it would be great if I could dismiss my dreams and move on ..."

There is so much back and forth movement on this in your mind! You poor thing! You must let it out, somehow.

And Stella makes a good point considering another possibility. The ex could indicate an old pattern that is being repeated with your current boyfriend. It could be suggested that you are not receiving emotional fulfillment from him.

And then, all of these scenarios could be represented in some way, all mixed together into a big subconscious mess! I do not mean to make light of your situation, but you need some light!

Peace to you, plyrgirl.

posted November 12, 2002 12:15 PM         

WOW. I just read both of your posts....a lot to take in. Both of them made so much sense. I definitely need to read them a few more times to make sure I get everything.

You're right when you say that there is a lot of back and forth going on. This happens with him not only subconsiously but physically, mentally, and emotionally. I really thought I was over him this time.

Normally a dream like this one (where I feel closeness to him) would send me questioning my decision to stay away from him. I think what I'll do instead is just take this as advice from my subconsious. Almost as a warning that I have more work to do (in both of my relationships).

posted November 12, 2002 03:09 PM           

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