posted December 16, 2002 01:50 PM           

We came across a free outdoor concert by a band we weren't familiar with. They had a cult following, though, so there were dozens of people already in front of the stage to watch. Their first song seemed really good so we made our way toward the front and got right up to the stage. We weren't allowed to go to the center of the stage because the die hard fans were there but we were happy on the left side. We were getting into the music and sort of dancing around. I looked up into the sky and noticed these small purple dancing lights falling. They looked like stars at first but as I watched them I could see they had parachutes.

I immediately freaked out because a bunch of guys parachuting into a city at night was not a very good sign and there seemed to be hundreds of them. Finally someone else in the crowd noticed them and said something and the band stopped playing to look, too. I remember someone saying "It's the Japanese!" and everyone freaked out and started scrambling. (that's what I get for watching Pearl Harbor specials before bed)

I lost Anna/Regan and the other two assistants and I ran to my car. I didn't really know where to go, though, because it was my first time in London. I pulled out a map and was trying to make sense of it. I got out of the car and I could hear bombing in the distance and people were running around on the streets trying to figure out what to do.

A man on a motorcycle stopped for me. He looked like a stereotypical Harley Davidson biker with leather jacket and a beard and all. He was very friendly. I asked him if I should take the main highway to Austria.

"It's best not to go to any borders." he said and looked at the map with me. He pointed to a road and I could see it was called Amber's Road. I thought that was pretty cool! He said "Follow this and it'll take you to the circles and Stonehenge. The circles. You'll be safe there."

I thanked him and we looked up the road to see hundreds of motorcycles with guys waving British and American flags as some sort of patriotic thing to make the civilians feel better. I got back in the car to find the circles and I woke up.

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going somewhere ..ship is leaving right on time ..empty harbour, wave goodbye ..evacuation of the isle ..caveman's paintings drowning ..famous last words on the air ..i stay here and you are there ..while our city softly sinks 

posted December 16, 2002 02:00 PM           

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going somewhere ..ship is leaving right on time ..empty harbour, wave goodbye ..evacuation of the isle ..caveman's paintings drowning ..famous last words on the air ..i stay here and you are there ..while our city softly sinks 

posted December 16, 2002 02:01 PM         

Amber, never hesitate to post here. You are truly not a bother, and we all enjoy reading your dreams, at the very least. Of course, I cannot help but to want to jump into them and figure them out, because they are you, and you are worth figuring out.

posted December 16, 2002 02:07 PM           

And thank you for the encouragement

Sometimes on other message boards and in situations in offline life.. if I talk too much I end up getting people disliking me quite a bit by a few people. I don't know WHY that happens because I'm usually just being happy and nice to other people... but I don't want that to happen here because I appreciate the people here. I guess I can't please all the people all the time but sometimes I really TRY to.

I'll try not to be so paranoid.

er... sometimes I feel like a Gemini. I keep reading this post and... well I just feel like I have split personalities. Because, yes, I want everyone to like me but at the same time I don't really care what anyone thinks! For instance, I could dye my hair green and be fine with that... I could dress like a freak (and have) and not care what people think...

I'm just a confused person, I guess! Or maybe I am two confused people trying to live in one body.

posted December 19, 2002 01:48 PM         

I have not really looked at that first dream yet, but the second one - I have questions.

First, one possible mesage could to be: Trust in some authority leading to betrayal by same.

Whose security, yours or theirs?

Is there some situation in which you have placed trust in someone/thing for reasons of security - possibly job related? Or maybe beliefs?

Are you feeling the need to withdraw from someone/thing? If not, then perhaps someone/thing wishes for you to withdraw?

Do you feel trapped?

I usually interpret from the perspective of self-reflection, but, as my dreams have previously told me, the book does not necessarily apply to you! I am finding it difficult, with you, to separate what may be self reflection and what may be outside influence. Do you FEEL this dream is self-reflective, or a representation of these outside forces working upon you?

I am still trying to determine what is happening around you, but finding it intriguingly difficult. Just know that I have not forgotten and am still thinking and working along those lines.

posted December 19, 2002 05:05 PM           

Is there some situation in which you have placed trust in someone/thing for reasons of security - possibly job related? Or maybe beliefs?
hrmm... well I lost my job a month or so ago and I haven't really been looking very hard yet for another one. As far as my beliefs... I mostly study alone or places like here I'm looking for people to work with in person but not finding the right people yet.

Are you feeling the need to withdraw from someone/thing? If not, then perhaps someone/thing wishes for you to withdraw?
Perhaps I do feel the need to withdraw from some people lately.

Do you feel trapped?
All my life. heh! Well yes I do but not as much as in recent months so it's not too bad.

Do you FEEL this dream is self-reflective, or a representation of these outside forces working upon you?
I can't tell. I just know it was very vivid. I felt the needle and it hurt between my big toe and second toe on my left foot. I felt the drug taking effect. I really felt myself struggling against it and being angry about it.

posted January 06, 2003 01:45 PM         

The first dream feels like a partial past-life memory which your subconscious is using to relay some sort of message.

It begins with a plausible, life-like situation where you are doing things you are familiar with - except that you are in London. I would normally interpret the setting sun as the ending of a situation, but here I think it is rather more archetypal indicating that unconscious material is about to be presented.

A concert is something you are familiar with, and in this case I feel it symbolizes the energy of a past life situation. You were not familiar with the band, which in this case I feel represents the specific unconscious material you are about to encounter.

I feel the falling purple lights symbolize the "descent" of knowledge/wisdom from spirit, as if your soul is sending you a bit of information. This information sparks the past-life memory of paratroopers filling the sky, and the "freaking out" that commences. So perhaps the running, bombing, Austria, borders, etc. and the feelings surrounding these are extracts from this past-life experience. There must be something about that particular life that somehow importantly connects to this one.

Indeed, Amber's road will take you to the circles, those magical circles. The road you walk will lead you to everything that the circle represents - a place of safety, Self, change, cycles, reincarnation. Most interestingly, Sandra Thompson (dream analyst) says, "a 'magic' circle ... may relate to a developing secret".

A developing secret? In your next dream a doctor tells you that you "wouldn't be allowed to find out the secrets". Hmmm ...

In the next dream (blood sample dream) there is something about balance concerning your foundations, something about the "sedation" of the feminine side of this balance - an emotional struggle between wanting to do one thing, and not wanting to do another. This struggle could be causing a sort of paralysis within yourself - you simply do not know what to do, feeling trapped, feeling withdrawn.

But what is the big secret???

Does any of this strike a chord?

posted January 06, 2003 02:16 PM           

Yes, I did have the dreams on the same night.

It wouldn't surprise me if it was some sort of past life recollection because I've been delving into that a LOT in the past month which has been bringing up some odd dreams and experiences.

hrmm I'm not sure what the secret is.. just that I'm not supposed to find out! Maybe my subconscious knows.

I haven't slept well in the past week since the nightmare with the three men in black. So I haven't been able to really do a lot of dream exploration. Hopefully I can get that resolved soon!