posted December 24, 2002 01:59 PM           

I was at a special concert in a small place. I was in the front against the stage on the right hand side. The stage only came up to my rib cage and I was pressed against it. Vincent (my husband) was on my left side and Blue (a friend of mine) was on my right side. There were several bands playing and we were having a great time. Vincent had his digital camera and was snapping pictures everywhere. We didn't have a list of bands playing so each one was a surprise.

So Nine Inch Nails came on which is Blue's favourite band. She LOVES Trent Resnor. We were all dancing like mad and yelling and jumping around and Trent was happy we were right there in the first row because we got into it so much. Trent had a camera up to his face the whole time and was taking pictures of the audience. When Trent's set was over he jumped off the stage and wanted to take pictures of mine and Blue's shoes and legs for some art exhibition. The whole audience was staring at us now and Trent was arranging our feet the way he wanted them. He wanted to use my left foot and leg. I was wearing these boots that came up to mid-calf... they were black velvet with pointy toes but there was a zipper along the inside and over that there were buckles.

Vincent was taking pictures of Trent taking pictures of US. Then Blue says "Ohhhh Amber look there's Richard."

I looked up and there in the crowd was Richard from Rammstein and he was trying to get around the crowd around us because he was leaving. He got close enough so I was able to say "RICHARD!" and he looked up.

"Can I get a picture taken with you?" I asked. He was wearing a long dusty leather coat, leather pants, etc. He looked like he had been digging around in Indiana Jones' tombs or something!

"Oh sure!" he said and stopped where he was which was right by this iron gate on the right of the stage. I jumped away from Trent who was just taking TOO damn long to take those foot pictures and asked Vincent to take a picture of me and Richard.

ugh... Vincent was instantly ****** off and was glaring at me.

"You better not chop off our heads in the picture!" I told him, mad that he was mad over something as stupid as me taking a picture with a really cute guy. Vincent said something nasty, I don't remember exactly what, and Richard got annoyed. Richard opened the gate behind us and pulled me through it.

Next thing I know I'm walking up hill on this dirt road with Richard and we're going to his house. I kept looking behind me, worried.

"Vincent will catch up and kill us." I kept saying "And we're only walking! He'll come in a car and he'll be faster!"

Richard seemed unconcerned. "Don't worry we're fast enough on foot."

We made it to his white house and the door was on the right but in the back. We made our way back there but Richard stopped at the door, noticing something amiss. His screen door was closed but the interior door was open and he knew he had closed it. He pulled me back from the door and back to the front of the house.

Then the rest of his band showed up and he began plotting with them to go into the house and catch the intruder to keep me safe.

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for a million years they dream ..and the fog conceals and hides and eats our souls ..before they open up their eyes again ..how far we'll be ..remember me

posted December 28, 2002 06:39 AM         

let us know, fajita

posted January 08, 2003 01:38 PM         

In the first part of this dream picture-taking is the prominent feature. I am not entirely certain how to interpret this, but it could be suggested that your husband is trying to hold onto the past, or holding you to the past, from your perspective. The photographing done by both Vincent and Trent also suggests something that needs to be acknowledged or noticed. Your left leg and shoe? These could indicate your emotional balance, feminine issues, or even sexual energies - or a combination. I think that you are subject to sexual attraction by men which nurtures the feminine feelings you may lack in your relationship but which also causes an emotional imbalance within that relationship (with Vincent). This is why Vincent is taking pictures of Trent taking pictures of you. He sees the attention you receive from other men, it is a point of focus for him.

I would guess that he is relatively tolerant of other men taking notice of you, but when the interest is reversed, that is, when you take interest in another (even if it is not a sexual thing), this is what gets to him ... enter Richard, the symbolic other.

Next, a division from your husband and the entry into another scene, another life/situation (gate). It seems you have made a choice, at least subconsciously, to take another path, one that leads away from Vincent. As usual (!) this path is difficult for me to clearly perceive, as the symbology seems to be both positive and negative. The dirt road can carry various meanings - a more "grounded", connected path - an alternative road - a road less traveled - a road of guilt and worry. Both positive and negative aspects seem to be present here. You are also going up a hill which could either be symbolic of ascending in the positive sense, or a struggle in the negative. Again, both seem to be present here!

And the destination, Richard's white house, seems to be a positive sign, a positive energy, but there is something "amiss" here also! First, the door is in back which suggests something that is not obvious like repressed emotions or, curiously, secrets! (more "secret" symbology?). On top of this there is the possible presence of an "intruder" who suggests unconscious material that is attempting to - or threatening to - make itself known. It seems that this unconscious material/repressed emotions/ secret is lurking within this new situation (white house). No matter what we do or where we go, unresolved energy/material that has been pushed into the unconscious will always follow.

It is evident that there is much anxiety in you about breaking away from the past. The dichotomous symbology could reflect the fears/concerns that you have about setting out on this new, more enlightened(?) path, while also signifying that there will still be elements of secrecy and/or threat/fear that you will have to face and deal with.

This dream was posted before Christmas - what has transpired since then?

Perhaps you need an extra angel.