posted January 22, 2003 09:31 AM         

I hope you can give me some insight to this. Let me give you a little background. In high school, there was a guy ("Steve") who I recently found out had a crush on me. We always flirted back and forth but I was incredibly naive about guys (I still am!!) and I would have gone out with him, but he never asked. We were both in Peer Counseling, and we went on a 2 day retreat to a camp. During the night, all the boys snuck over to the girls cabin and this guy (without a word) got into my bunk with me and didn't do anything. I was freaked...so after a minute I got out (at that point I hadn't even kissed a guy). Nothing was ever mentioned about it, but we continued to flirt. (Me getting out of that bunk is the largest, ONLY regret of my life, by the way.) I graduated and never saw him again. (He was a year beneath me, and he ended up marrying a preachers saintly daughter, who was the total opposite of me.)

Last night I had the most vivid dream of my life. I had been thinking of "Steve" recently alot. In my dream (which takes place in the neighboring town where he really does live) "Steve" and his wife visit me with our school friends. He is overjoyed to see me and we hang out together for a long time (his wife doesn't seem to mind, and talks with other friends). We ride together in a car focusing on each other intently, even though others are in the car. Other stuff happens, but I can't remember. At the end, I realize I need to tell him how I feel and we walk together. He says he needs to tell me something too, he says. Suddenly, he is gone, and I am writing to him on 3 pinky-purple post it notes. Then I wake up.

I made the biggest mistake of my life by being naive and not realizing, but he didn't ask me out either. What does the dream mean to you, and what, if anything, should I do now? (Or just regret it for the rest of my life?)

posted January 23, 2003 01:18 PM         

To me, this dream seems to simply be a reflection of your recent thoughts about "Steve". It seems that your subconscious is kind of playing out a scenario with him, while also repeating the same end. I think the vividness or intensity of the dream is a reflection of your current desires to have the kind of relationship you have imagined may have been with him. You are not in a relationship? If not, it seems you certainly want to be.

I truly do not think this was the biggest mistake of your life, and certainly you should not regret it for that long! Things happen for a reason. Perhaps there are energies that need to be awakened in you for the purpose of attracting someone, so the universe has created this situation as a catalyst. Perhaps.