posted February 15, 2003 10:07 PM         

ok...I am in a room, filled with good friends, yet,only one person in the room, do I really know..I mean, I knew Michael, but I cannot put a name to anyone else. Michael is a dear dear friend to me, (not that one Amber this is a different one) anyway...Michael is there, and I am sitting on a couch laughing and laughing with my friends....then, we walk outside, and we are walking down a sidewalk that is brick. We notice this brick sidewalk and how pretty it is. They all go across the street to see something, a statue of some kind, but I cross the street and walk ahead...

Then, instead of being on the street, I am sitting on the couch again, and Michael is beside me. We are watching a television, and I suddenly realize that he was videotaping me while I was walking on the street. I see myself walk further from the group in the video and I am wearing a blue shirt..baby blue. He gets closer to me, and zooms in on my face...I am wiping tears from my face, and I see that I am balling and crying...sobbing as I am walking ...I am walking fast too...as if I had to hurry and get away.

I begin to cry while watching myself so upset on this video...I turn to say something to him, and I suddenly am in a church, and my youngest daughter Sarah is beside me. One of my friends from church Libby walks up behind me and hugs me from behind, I am seated in the pew. She thanks me for the card I sent her, and I begin to cry more. I thank her for being in my life and tell her what a blessing she and her family are to me.

I then wake up...and wonder for a few minutes, "did I send Libby a card??"

posted March 20, 2003 02:23 PM         

I would bet you thought we forgot about this dream. Well, perhaps it did get lost in the shuffle, but I would still like to give it a go if you would like, and if you think it is still relevant (it is).

I have worked up a bit of an interpretation, but do not have time to type it all out at the moment. I will say though, that the only thing not "normal" for you about this dream is that your emotions are not represented by symbols (tornadoes, darkness, clouds, dying, blood, etc.) and are instead probably literal. This crying and sadness that you experience in the dream are probably emotions that you are reluctant to express in waking life. So the question is, what is it in waking life that evokes this sort of emotion? And at what degree of consciousness is the emotional energy residing? (aware, subconscious, unconscious) The dream may offer some clues ... what do you think?

Until I get a few moments ...

posted March 22, 2003 11:47 AM         

the only thing I can say is to answer the question of what in my waking life evokes this? not knowing if i should walk away from my marriage and not knowing what waits for me if I do...and worse, what I might miss if I don't...but worse than that, losing what I do have, because I chose to walk away, only to find there was nothing to walk away to.

posted March 23, 2003 06:49 PM         

Here is what I have:

In the first part things are good. You are part of a group, comfortable, happy. The path you are on seems beautiful and purposeful (brick sidewalk), or at least this is how it outwardly appears (outside) or how you present your life/path to others. But there is some sort of separation, you become separate from the group, from their path, which makes sense from what you said about your marriage.

In the next part there is a shift from the street, which is your outer, observable path, to a scene in which you are watching yourself. Watching this video of yourself crying and sobbing indicates that these are emotions that you have distanced yourself from. It suggests that you are unconsciously protecting yourself from feeling or experiencing this. You are avoiding them (hurry and get away) in confliction with your intuition (baby blue shirt). It seems that you appear well outwardly to others, perhaps even convincing yourself that you are, but that there is emotional turmoil lying just below the surface.

Then there is a recognition of these emotions by your dreaming self (cry while watching), shifting the scene into the church which could represent a place of healing or spiritual protection, a sanctuary/safe place. And there is an exchange of energy here which elicits more emotion (hug/sending card). Your faith, your friends will help you through this. Your daughter probably is there because she symbolizes that which you fear the loss of or that which you want to protect. She could also indicate a connection with your own past at her age and some experience then which is causing this effect in your life now.

The end of this dream suggests that perhaps you can find solace in your life through spiritual/religious forces and the community of souls who work together in these. As I said - your faith and your friends will help you through this.

Walk in Peace