posted February 18, 2003 08:06 AM         

i dreamt that a girl who has been working in our office as the temp was staying here in my house. the girls were getting ready to leave with me to go to their grandma's house...Richard was still here and I was trying hard to get him to leave for work...he kept hanging around, and this girl Kimberly was in Sarah's room in her bed...I think she may have been sick..anyway, Rich kept lingering around like he does and I wanted him to go so I could check my email before I left.

He finally walked out and I went to start the car...while outside his brotherinlaw Greg drove up. He had just started a new job and needed some tools from Rich. I was leaning on the porch railing and did a handstand on them, but almost fell off, but Rich didn't see ..even though I was right in front of him. Greg walked over to get this tool and I went back in the house. When I came in Kimberly rolled over in bed and said "**** ! i'll never get any rest" I walked back in Emily's room where she and Sarah were getting ready and I told them as soon as they dressed we'd leave. I walked in Sarah's room where Kimberly was and asked her if I could get her anything before I left. She then said "well, you all could hurry up because you are bothering me! and will you clean up this house today?" At that, I got mad, and began telling her I was sorry for not being the maid!

I told her if she didn't like it to get out..and to get out NOW! I grabbed her by the throat and started to drag her out of the bed by her throat and hair!!! She was screaming and I pulled her off the bed, and I finally said I was going to get Rich to help me drag her out....but then I heard Rich yelling and screaming, I dropped Kimberly and ran outside. His grandparents lived next door, and he came running out of their door screaming "you were hiding in the garage the whole time weren't you? you heard me!" and he was crying...then, Greg came out crying...and another guy but I don't know him...at first I thought he meant this other guy...THEN his sister Tina and their grandfather came out, Tina was crying and was saying "will this NEVER end?"

I said, WHAT IS GOING ON?? Tina, get to my house, the kids are in there with the sitter that I just fired!! I ran in the grandparents house, and Richard's granny had found a gun, and shot herself in the foot. Noone had called 9-1-1. His grandfather was mumbling "she won't go to the hospital" and I turned and looked at him, dead in the eye,and he knew at that moment that I had known all about him abusing Richard. Then, I dialed the number and got some eye doctor who would patch me through to 911. The lady was aggravating me, and Tina kept coming back over to the house leaving the girls alone with Kimberly.

Finally, Richard went over to our house, and Granny was outside in a chair looking at the bullet in her foot. I saw her doing this and felt extremely faint. I sqatted in the floor and put my head between my knees and breathed deeply, while the 911 lady waited on me.