posted February 27, 2003 04:34 PM         

I watched the maid light the candle on a side board and thought she ought to fasten it better, it might fall down. But didn't say anything. Frankly, I don't know if it was her or mine hands around the candle. She walked away, and I watched the candle fall down, still burning, and rolling under the side table all the way to the wall, where the silk tapestry caught fire. I didn't do anything. All the people in the party made a fuss, and my real life partner (he was my husband in the dream) blamed me for not saying anything. I just walked away, still not saying anything, just feeling sad and empty.

posted March 01, 2003 08:28 AM         

Your dream is a little baffling to me but lets see if I can make some sense here.
Generally it feels like something has/is wounding you very deeply!
The candles lit in the first scene by the maid (the aspect of you serving your needs)are not secure enough so they fall and burn the wall furnishings...somewhere you have furnished a wall around this wound you have but the maid (you) are trying to help yourself by lighting up this darkness inside you, trying to heal it but the candle not being secure enough (the light you turn to, to guide you through this) burns the "cover-up", the wall furnishings you have decorated this barrier with.
You feel blamed...maybe blaming yourself for not handling the situation better. You could have warned the maid, advised her to secure the candle so that it would stay lit and thereby make this occasion with these other characters more homey, more loving, create a warmer atmosphere so that you would feel a little more comfy amongst these people you really did not want to be with. Walking away from this scene sad and empty shows you are blaming yourself for not being more useful to yourself!
Sorry as I am writing this its not making much sense.....I think.

Lets go to second scene in which now your more nurturing self (mom) reminds you to feed these people you don't like. Feed these aspects of yourself you are not comfy with. Talk with your dad even though you don't want to...not sure what yr relationship with dad is but you are not happy with him about something. Or he could represent your more assertive side which will help you deal with this wound/fear (only you know what it is)...so mom is guiding you to take action...go nurture these parts of you.

Again the candles.
You see how your mom sits next to candles...!
She (also your nurturing self) is reminding you to light the candles...don't be afraid this time, their light is what you need to break down this sadness inside you....feeding/nurturing these aspects of you with the light you already have inside you!
It takes a while for them to light shows you are struggling with this healing process but you persevere and you manage to light one.

You are not alone Evergreen and I think you are struggling to release something.
The fact that the wax burns into your skin is only your fear....you THINK you will hurt more if you delve deeper into this wound.

Don't we always experience the greatest fear at the approaching moment of enlightenement (lit candle flame) and healing? All of us I believe are like this. This is what we are striving for in our lives to be in God's Light....but we have to work through our fears and sadness and all that is hidden from us before we can see the Light.

You are very connected to your inner light Evergreen, so don't be afraid of burning yourself. Look at the name you have chosen Evergreen....green symbolizes hope and healing...ever...always!

You are capable of healing yourself and your dream tells you so. Your mom is right there with you reminding you how loving and nurturing you truly are....I am not sure how close you are with your mom, but however you identify with her, this dream shows she speaks the loudest to you, in your waking life too, she is loving and does not want you to be sad, whereas the other characters don't care...she does and she feels the most important to you.

Your dad however seems different than mom...you avoid him in dream even though mom is guiding you not to. I feel maybe you relate differently to him...there seems to be some hurt there...

I hope I helped some...I know my thoughts don't cover all the dream scenes but I feel these are the most important!

A warm hug to you Evergreen and sending you Light!

posted March 01, 2003 01:20 PM         

I think Mystique did a wonderful job hitting the major points here. My thoughts are similar, but the first thing that came to my mind is that there is a correlation here between a past life and the present. It feels to me that whatever the energy is with your father now is based upon this past life, which may also involve your partner. I think part of the message is that in this past life your feminine forces/attributes were injured (left hand) and that in order to completely heal this karmic carry-over you must forgive the father, and possibly the partner, from whom you have "inherited" this energy.

posted March 01, 2003 03:17 PM         

I agree to all above, and I'd like to add that I found interesting that this house was actually your husband's house.
I'm definately sure you whether need to, are or will - enlight your masculine aspect (also the presence of your father).
As Ra said.

posted March 02, 2003 09:40 AM         

Stellitsa, ti kanis ki esy!

posted March 02, 2003 03:05 PM         

Your response, even if it is just wishing you could help, means more to me than I know how to express since I sense this was an important dream I should REALLY heed. To have intuitive and caring people tell you you're not alone and putting words on what you yourself ignore, avoid or hide for yourself... it's a blessing.

Mystique; your interpretation and intuition is amazing, and don't worry, even if it doesn't make much sense to you, (I don't make much sense to anybody) what you write does make a lot of sense to me!!

I don't know if it is me who has built the walls, I more feel like I have willingly let someone else put up those exclusive silken walls around me, and yes, I'm blaming myself for it. And I'm not handling the situation well enough, and not being useful enough whether to not nearly all the aspects of myself or the people around me, I feel.

I am very afraid of getting (more) burned, hurt, to fail and so on. And that has a lot to do with my relationship with my father, but most importantly my relationship with (some aspects of) myself. Shaped by my fathers words and actions yes, but they're still my responsibility, and I'm walking out on myself.

My mother is very loving and nurturing, with a powerful energy and she's definitely more assertive than me. I guess she represents that aspect of myself kicking my butt, in a way.

Ra; Your feelings about my energy w/my father (and maybe even parther) being "inherited", based upon a past life is very interesting, also since Stella has looked at my horoscope and suggested something similar.

And I find some (reluctant) resonance in forgiveness. Thank you for suggesting that might be the way, I think you're right on the spot! although letting go is not easy for me.

Dreamflake; yes, I also find it interesting it was not my house, not my walls, so to speak. I'm not happy within these walls, so in a way it's my own (feminine)passivity helping me burn those walls down. But another, more constructive thing would be to use my masculine aspect and take charge, change the tapestry, put in some windows and furniture I like and light more SECURED AND SAFE candles in my life.

Another thing with this dream is that I just got a message from my skin-doctor that one of my moles were on the borderline of melanoma.

Therefore, all this burning the tapestry (skin of the walls) and candle wax burning into the skin of my hand, and Stellas lexi about fire giving scars and forgiving my father... put together with the input from all of you; I think it's a warning and that I will be fine if I don't give in to my fear again, take charge and responsibility for my life and talk to my father and forgive him. And my partner, too.

Now you see how much you mean to me??

posted March 02, 2003 09:02 PM         

Vi er her, en for det andre.
We are here, one for the other.

fred
Peace

posted March 03, 2003 02:11 AM         

I'm sending you a healing hug, and a big loveful kiss of light to your moles!

I suggest you let your fears go in another way, and noone will be hurt or offended by that.

I dedicate today's day to you!

posted March 03, 2003 02:13 AM         

did you know today's another mediation for peace, at 3:33 CET?

posted March 03, 2003 03:06 PM         

Dreamflake, thank you for your advice, hugs, kisses and dedication!