posted March 11, 2003 12:55 PM         

I was in this trailor home with a few friends but I don't know who they were in real life. I was cradling this cat. There were some evil forces after this cat of mine. I don't know why. We were hiding out in the trailor from the evil. It was dark outside and occasionally we'd peek out of the curtained windows.

I decided if the cat was conscious then the evil would find us sooner so to protect the cat and everyone else I had to get it drunk on vodka. The cat didn't like it... but it drank it to keep us all safe. This cat looked like a cat I used to have named Sam... loved that cat!!

Anyway... the trailor started rocking a bit and we knew the evil stuff had found us anyway. People started walking in because at the other end of the trailor was this mini concert. I looked down the hall and the stage was already set up. It was dark the walls painted black like a nightclub. I didn't go in the room but watched from down the hall. I could hear my friends behind me telling me not to look but I couldn't help it!

Rammstein came onto the mini stage and started playing one of my favorite songs by them. "Feuer frei!"

Whoever knows pain becomes criticized
from the fire that burned up the skin
I throw a light in my face
ahot cry
open fire! *

Bang bang

Anyway... I'm not sure what happened to the cat but I wasn't so worried about him at that moment. I just wanted to save Richard because I knew the place would go up in flames. The evil thing was in the drummer's drum stand. Fire was licking up from under it already. My friend's were making their exits and I was near a door and I looked at Richard and yelled at him to "Come here".

He put down his guitar and listened to me just as the fire errupted. All the music stopped and I could hear the evil thing in there mad that I was escaping. I grabbed Richard's hand and we ran across the grass to this ditch where my friends were waiting. Richard was so thankful to me but he was really upset and screaming because his band and friends were in the trailor still.

There were a few people running around outside but most of them were inside burning. I was really happy that my cat and Richard were safe. I spotted Rammstein's singer outside the trailor and I pointed him out to Richard.

"All's not lost.. there is Till"

So Richard called Till over and we all went to Las Vegas to hide out and I bought them Hawiian shirts so they wouldn't be noticed and they were complaining about that. Dana Carvey was there as we were checking out of the clothing store... he was a homeless person and was throwing plastic dinosaur toys at us.

While Till yelled at him Richard was telling me how he couldn't wait to be in the room alone with me... *woof!*

posted March 17, 2003 02:25 PM         

Working on it ...

posted March 30, 2003 02:36 PM         

Some aspect of self is nearing exposure, an unconscious aspect perhaps transported from one life into the next (trailer home/dark outside). This aspect or energy is instinctive in nature, perhaps karmic - an energy or aspect that has been incorporated into self, or "tamed" (cat) which also suggests a nearing of conscious expression.

Perhaps this aspect contains an energy that is difficult or negative, something you perceive as "evil", so you attempt to supress it, to keep it from fully entering your awareness (get the cat drunk).

But regardless of your efforts to supress it, "the evil stuff had found us anyway". I think the concert represents the energy of this "evil stuff", it's vibration. It is no wonder that the music is Rammstein! Could this relate to some sort of German energy? I think so. And again, there is an effort to distance yourself from (watched from down the hall) this unconscious energy (dark/black walls).

I am finding it difficult to convey my thoughts in conjunction with the symbology at this point ... I will give it a shot ...

The symbology suggests that there is a transformation or destruction (fire) of the "evil" energy, which enables you to find a new direction (escape), although it appears that all of this exists still within the unconscious (ditch). It is also suggested that something anent this transformation has been brought with you from the site of the "evil" and the transformation into your current life or consciousness (saving band members) and that - again - there is an effort on your part, albeit unconsciously, to keep it unconscious/hidden (hide out/disguise Richard and Till).

But there is still an effort by your unconscious to make this material/energy known to your consciousness (plastic dinosaurs thrown at you).

And then the next night, you had the "creepy dream", which carried much of the same symbology, and could have been a more literal expression of this hidden energy that is seeking the light of awareness.

Amber, you really keep us on our toes around here!

More than what you THINK, do you FEEL there is anything to all of this? What does that inner truth-meter say to you?

Walk in Peace

posted March 30, 2003 03:52 PM         

WOW!

How do you get such amazing insights, Ra?! I read half of this with my mouth open. I would never have thought of most of that and yet it all does make perfect sense! I sat here saying "yeah.. YEAH! Yeah yeah!"

You are so inspiring to me Thank you for taking so much time. I'm in a very good mood now!