posted July 17, 2003 06:34 AM         

I had some dream last night-I was walking into a subway station (but the entrance was ground-level with a slightly wide but short hallway, and stairs leading downstairs). As I walked in, I saw a couple of guys darting past me, and then a few more, and then a bunch of guys running after them (like cops or store owners maybe). I stepped back and leaned against the wall. Then I turned, and saw that a guy (either an undercover cop or angry store owner) had another guy pinned to the wall. It didn't really seem like he was holding him too tightly though. The guy being pinned against the wall had scruffy dark hair and a greasy looking face. He looked directly at me, staright into my face and then I heard two distinctively loud BOOMs shoot past my right ear. I quickly dropped to the floor an tried hiding behind a pair of feet that were now standing in front of me, but they walked away (i know that has to be symbolic ). I tried not to look at him and heard another BOOM, looked up out of the corner of my eye, saw that he had shot a guy next to him and saw him shoot two more. Those three guys all looked alike too. I remember counting in my head and realizing he'd now already used 5 bullets and knew there was one left. I just closed my eyes very tightly and the dream ended.

This one isn't much of anything...pretty blah...I also had a dream that I was living in a first-floor apartment. The stairs that led to the door did not have hand rails. I heard somehow that my ex was visiting from out of town and was at his friends place just across the street from me. (I know this is big b/c we've always lived far apart from each other except while we were in school). Suddenly, every bad feeling went away as I became excited, grabbed a bottle of red wine (strange because he doesn't drink wine) and went to surprise him (as we haven;t seen each other in years and flat-out refused to see him when he visited here last year). I got there while he was out, and his friends didn't seem surprised to see me. I just remember feeling nervous and anxious and noticed he looked exactly the same. All I remember next is walking outside with him, it was nighttime when we left. It was also summertime and he was wearing the black ribbed turtleneck sweater that I loved so much, but I was in summer attire.

posted July 17, 2003 02:17 PM         

I will have a look as soon as I can.

posted July 17, 2003 02:34 PM         

But I did have some anti-clamactic dreams last night as well-one was my coworker telling me that a guy she went on a date with said some nice things about her. I also had a sort of calm dream last night about my cat.

Oh, and in the same night as the dream about my ex, I had a dream that I found out my parents decided to get back together. This is not, by any means, a good thing and I reacted as such in the dream.

posted July 19, 2003 12:59 PM         

I have not had the time to properly dissect this dream, but I do have a few questions.

Does something in your life have you feeling like you are "up against the wall"?

Is there something which threatens your stability in some way, or perhaps your direction or understanding about a situation?

What is it that you are waiting to happen?

Has some old situation returned to your life in some way?

What is it in waking life that has you feeling nervous and anxious?

I am going on vacation tomorrow, so please be patient with me! I will try to pop in and keep up a little bit.

posted July 20, 2003 02:18 PM         

Hmm..

I'm always a bit anxious, I guess.

But I don;t really feel like I have my back up against a wall. And nothing old has resurfaced.

posted July 29, 2003 01:46 PM         

I am back from vacation! I have some notes on the first dream, but no time to type them out at the moment. I should have enough time tomorrow though, and maybe enough to work out the second as well.

Thank you for your patience!

posted July 30, 2003 01:49 PM         

For some reason, I am not getting a very clear meaning for either of these dreams, but if you can bear with me, we may be able to come up with something that makes sense after a couple of tries.

The first dream seems to pertain to understanding, or lack of it, of some sort. Because the "bad guy" looks you straight in the face, I tend to think he is a reflection of self. He seems to represent some negative, masculine aspect of yourself that you may have anxieties about, or is unknowingly causing you anxiety - or he could represent someone in your life, or a situation. His energy could symbolize something like aggressiveness, over-powering or over-bearing aspects, or even guilt. Do you think you could be too "masculine" or not "masculine" enough in some way? Is there a man or a situation in your life that may fit this description?

There are two symbols that relate to understanding - the feet and your ear - and the right ear is on the masculine side, coincidentally. The shots that BOOM past your right ear could be "warning shots" of sorts, perhaps calling your attention to something of your "masculine" side that you are not "hearing", or perhaps you are not "hearing" something "right". And the feet which walk away seem to correlate with this as they could indicate a lack of "under-standing".

In the dream you are trying to hide and you are closing your eyes - "tightly". This could suggest that whatever this energy/aspect/person/situation is, you do not want to "see" it.

If any of this is correct, you will probably have to look very honestly at yourself, or your situation, to see it.

Does any part of this strike a chord?

The second dream evades me entirely. Had you been thinking of your ex sometime before this dream? Has something or someone in your life created the sort of excitement you felt in the dream?

I am trying to correlate the feelings/emotions in this dream with something from your waking life - any ideas?

posted July 31, 2003 06:38 AM         

That's a lot to think about. In thinking about it, I realize its funy you should mention a masculine side. I recently hung out with a friend and their friend-a girl who happened to be rather masculine. She also seemed to take an instant dislike to me. Her masculinity was so apparent, and so my other friend and I were discussing it in passing recently. Could that have played a part? If I think inwardly, all I can muster up is the fact that I recently had a male friend who required me to be the..aggressor..in a sense. That's for lack of a better word. You see, I am very used to dating guys who are very masculine in a variety of ways, and that's not only what I'm comfortable with, it's what I enjoy. All of my other male friends are independent. Anyway, I was forced to be the dominant presence-to make every decision, to be the strong one (which stinks b/c no one should have to be the *only* strong force 100% of the time), I was made to be responsible for his feelings, and my own were overlooked, never even considered. I guess I basically couldn't be myself and had to take on a different role, one I wasn't comfortable with. In the end, it stirred up some resentment and anger in me (there were other issues involved too), and I showed it, which isn't like me typically.

As for the second dream, yes, I have been thinking about him a lot for a little while now. *hangs head in shame* I think you touched on a key word, Ra-"excitement". Maybe I have been thinking about him b/c he always stirred up those amazing feelings in me, and seeing as how life has been a little stagnant lately, maybe my mind naturally went in that direction. I thought the bottle of wine was interesting though. Our relationship was so...laid back...we've never even had a glass of wine together. I don;t think he even likes it.

posted July 31, 2003 07:19 AM         

that that situation probably did have me feeling like i had my back up against a wall

posted July 31, 2003 02:22 PM         

If you wish to look further, what questions would you ask about which part of the dreams?

Thank you for sharing your dreams Oxychick!

posted August 02, 2003 09:26 AM         

Actuall Ra, you've helped me clear up quite a few things. So we're all good.