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Topic: home is where the heart is?
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MOONAT
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From: the bottomless depths of my mind
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted March 10, 2004 11:57 PM
 
 i havent really been sleeping well lately and i finally rested well last night so i just wanted to post it...(soz if its a bore)i had a really nice dream last night... my family and i used to live in a small tourist town in North Germany called Groemitz, we were there from about '92-'96. ive always wanted to go back...and last night i dreamt that i had.
i cant quite explain it but the feeling throughout the dream was...euphoric...i was loving it, i couldnt stop smiling...i felt like i was glowing...
nothing special happened in the deam..i visited old friends who i havent spoken to in 8yrs...and even though i could barely speak german..there was no problem...i felt totally at ease and happy  ive made up my mind that im DEFINATELY going back...but my question is...from my reaction...is my heart still there? i think so  ------------------
" I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times,
in life after life, in age after age, forever."
~Rabindranath Tagore~
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Ra
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posted March 11, 2004 04:20 AM
Hello MOONAT It has been awhile. How are you? What a wonderful dream! Thanks for sharing it. Yeah, sounds like your heart is there. IP: Logged |
MOONAT
Knowflake Posts: 209
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Registered: Jun 2003
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posted March 12, 2004 01:05 AM
hmm i spose it has...seems i havent been sleeping well for longer than i thought! i started college and thats been quite an experience, already six weeks into the first term! time has FLOWN BY! i think the dream was caused by my thoughts lately...ive been thinking a lot about my gap year in 2006...i have no idea what to do and how to finance it...i want to work overseas but i can hardly speak 9 languages  ive got a job though and am gonna start saving...i predicted last year that this year i would figure myself out...i have to say its coming true...i know ME now...now on to everyone around me! lol o wow i ramble a lot...my point is...im good thanks! how are you? im always asking things about my dreams but never how your going...it must be hard thinking about everyone elses...not problems...but to do what you do you must be able to analyze whats going on with them...i would be so drained. i just wanted to say thanks...you helped me understand myself better! keep up the good work!  IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
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From: ontario, canada
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted March 12, 2004 02:38 AM
Hi Moonat!!!
Nice to meet you!I have to say, I agree with you.. I think Ra should relax, post a few dreams here, and let us shrink his brain for a change.
It's the least we can do for all his amazing insights and hard thoughts for others. Hard thoughts for others? Hmmmm... sorry. Um.. Difficult interpretations for others.. howz about that?! 
G'night!
Ra I miss your insights.. you are addictive. I want to read more. How are you? IP: Logged |
MOONAT
Knowflake Posts: 209
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Registered: Jun 2003
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posted March 12, 2004 04:15 AM
lol! i think that could be veerrrrry interesting! *evil grin* heheheh just jokin i wonder Ra, when you analyze...do you usually get a gut feeling about what the dreams are about or...how do you analyze them? IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted March 12, 2004 02:00 PM
I hardly know what to say. MOONAT, you know, I do not think anyone has ever asked me how I go about doing this ... hmmm, where to start? I will have to come back to this when I get a chance. Addictive? Never been told that before either! I enjoy doing this, its like a puzzle. The harder, the better. You guys are too much! (but I can handle it  ) 
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MOONAT
Knowflake Posts: 209
From: the bottomless depths of my mind
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posted March 13, 2004 07:15 PM
cant wait for ur answer IP: Logged |
MOONAT
Knowflake Posts: 209
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posted March 16, 2004 05:28 PM
i had another dream about Groemtiz!
but this time it was different, i was there with my family including my grandparents and a friend from school. the feeling wasnt as happy in this dream...i constantly felt restricted. i went out early in the day and then i was out TRYING to get to places i wanted but i kept thinking about my parents and if what i was doing was wrong...then finally at 12am that night i got to a bus station...and i checked my phone, because for some reason i had not been able to get to it, and it had a message from my mum it said something like "its not working, dad, ive done something, come bak". there were no buses but all of a sudden i was home...and my brother was there...apparently my mum had hit him exactly 20 times in the face for spilling some juice (my bro is 21 by the way, and about a 1/2meter taller than my mum)and he was yelling at her telling she shouldnt have done that...she also hit my friend apparently but just once and then my bro had restrained her. they even showed me charts of each hit...to prove that she ahd done it 20 times and once. i felt such a rage build up inside of me towards my mum...but all i could think about was goig out again and looking at hte places i had missed so much in Groemitz...but i never got anywhere. im pretty sure this is trying to tell me how i feel inside...because i feel like that consciously as well. i want to leave for a year after college...but i dont necessaraly want to come bak...i havent told them that and it has nothing to do with not loving my family...it just has everything to do with selfish reasons of me wanting to do my own thing, anyway i do feel sort of restricted in my going...like i shouldnt. i donno for now im just gonna start saving!
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Ra
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posted March 22, 2004 10:09 PM
Hello MOONAT. Well, I think you pretty much have it figured out. Basically, the main thing I see is your eagerness to be free, to do what and go where you want. But you feel restricted by circumstance, mostly by family ties or parental desires. The dream suggests that your desire to be "free" is automatically associated with child-like (or undeveloped/still dependent) mental/emotional ties with your parents ("I kept thinking about my parents and if what I was doing was wrong"), and there seems to be a particular emphasis upon your mother in this regard. This could be because she is the "disciplinarian", or some other issue. So, what is the deal with your mom? Unless there are circumstances that dictate otherwise, I certainly see no reason to feel selfish for wanting to "do your own thing" ... that is a natural part of growing up, and out, is it not?  IP: Logged |
MOONAT
Knowflake Posts: 209
From: the bottomless depths of my mind
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted March 23, 2004 05:45 AM
I guess she is the disciplinarian...i think mostly the feelings of rage towards her are mainly because my feelings toward my mum are really open...where as i hardly speak about things with my dad...mum and i constatntly bikker and we're comfortable telling each other what idiots we are. i think that my parents will "allow" me to leave...i dont think they'll fully support it...theyll allways talk it down like you go off and have fun and then come bak to the real world...or yea yea youll go lets just wait and see...it annoys me so much! i dont wanna go off and have my last bit of fun before coming bak to the "real world" ie BORING world. i guess its also my lynk to them that i would feel like i was betraying them...they brought us to Australia for a better life (we're refugees) and now i'm talking about how sick i am of it and stuff. i just feel bad.
i guess i also feel bad because i know theres nothing that can persuade me not to go. IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted March 23, 2004 10:15 PM
You may feel bad, but at least you know why, and you understand why you are where you are. A healthy conscience, I would say. And what you said about your mother makes perfect sense.I know you will do fine.   IP: Logged |
MOONAT
Knowflake Posts: 209
From: the bottomless depths of my mind
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted March 27, 2004 10:02 PM
on a different note, i've been sleeping really weirdly lately. i can go to bed at 10:00 and still not be able to drag my bum out of bed till 8:30....it's been like this for about 8 weeks...then last night at my b'day party i went to bed at around 2am...and got up at 6
:30...and i fell great! what is wrong with me! i always wake up early and get rest if one of my friends (or in last nites case MANY) are over for a sleepover or i go to someones house...i dont get it  ??? any ideas?
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