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Topic: Scary dream
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ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 43
From: Portsmouth,UK
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted May 29, 2004 10:59 AM
 
Okay, so I've been having very realistic dreams lately, the kind that make me really confused when I wake up. Like, it takes me a few seconds to realize where I am, and to understand what I've just seen was a dream. Saying that, two nights ago I had a terrible dream. When I explain it, it's not so bad, but I was so upset in it, I woke up breathing heavily and sweating. Here is what I dreamt.
I had the worst pain in my breasts. They were so sore, it felt as though I had had surgery on them. And they were huge. I am quite small chested, but they were about a D cup, but I was sure I hadn't gotten implants. I just kept feeling this horrible pain in them. Then my mum called me and said that my dad (who is remarried for the 2nd time) had come out and said he was gay. Then my dad sent me a text message with pictures of him and 3 other men, none of them I recognized, in various compromising positions. I was horrified. He had come out on national television on a talk show and showed the pictues/videos to the whole country. Then I was yelling at him, telling him what he did was wrong, and he should have just told us, not the entire country in such an embarrasing way. I was yelling, and crying, and my breasts were still hurting very badly, then I woke up almost hyperventalating.
Really strange, see? I have no idea what it means at all. Can anyone help me with this? It's been bugging me for two days. I would really appreciate it.
Thanks very much if you can. IP: Logged |
pixelpixie
Knowflake Posts: 2492
From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted May 29, 2004 02:26 PM
Do your breasts hurt in real life, or where are you in your cycle?
Being a worry monger, I say do a self breast exam.. look for any nodules or irregularities.. and get a general check up and speak to your doctor...
This is practical advice, not metaphysical or supraconscious.
Have you have any growth in other areas of your life? Any unexpected expansion that was beyond your control? Involving your personal sense of self/sexuality/womanhood?Did you watch any talk shows before bed? Had to get that out of the way....
Are you very involved in your fathers life? Do you feel he makes choices you wouldn't necessarily make for yourself.. is he impulsive and it leaves you frustrated? How is your relationship to him? IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 2833
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posted May 30, 2004 10:24 AM
Welcome ghanima!
 Ms. Pixie has begun by asking all of the right questions.  We'll try and help you figure this out!   IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 43
From: Portsmouth,UK
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted May 30, 2004 02:27 PM
No, they don't hurt, and my woman's burden was about 2 weeks ago, so I'm in between, I guess. I don't know about personal growth, I am living in another country, and planning on making it a permanent move, does that count?
My breasts seem fine, nothing out of the ordinary. No lumps or anything wierd.
I didn't watch any talk shows, and my dad and I are close, but he has a seperate life from the one I have. He is remarried for the second time, he has a daughter from the previous marriage, my half sister, and his wife Kelly has a daughter the same age as my sister. I was the only one in the family that was supportive of his union with Kelly. They have been married for almost two years now, and I'm very happy he has found her, as his ex-wife was a horrible person who treated him very poorly. It's a bit hard to be as close being an ocean apart, but I'm still a daddy's girl, and I love him to bits. Does that help any?IP: Logged |
Ra
Moderator Posts: 2833
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posted June 01, 2004 03:13 AM
Yes, that helps. I have some thoughts about some possibilities but no time at the moment. Hopefully tomorrow ... IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted June 02, 2004 03:00 PM
Hi ghanima First, it would help to explore the pain. You say there is no physical pain in the present, which leaves the only physical possibility in the future. That said, simply keep your eyes open for anything that may be foreshadowed here, just in case this dream is a physical warning, as pixlepixie said. If this is not about the physical then everything points to the emotional. Can you identify any area of your emotional life in which there is pain? If I am reading the symbology correctly, you may have hesitated on that last question, not really being able to put a finger on ... something ... tempted to say, "no emotional pain", but not sure, and not even sure what really qualifies as emotional "pain" in this instance. Think of the present ... any emotionally difficult situations? How about the recent past? Go back a bit farther, to childhood ... anything there that stands out? What I am seeing is the possibility of repressed emotion (internal pain) having to do with emotional nourishment (or lack of), identity or appearance issues, dependency issues, mothering issues (either you or your mother), or a more general issue concerning feminine energies (breasts). Because it is repressed (if this is correct), the "pain" resides more in the un/subconscious so you may only be partially aware of it, if at all, but it seems to be making it's presence known to your conscious awareness to some degree (larger than usual breasts). The source of the repressed emotions seems to be rooted in a family situation, probably when you were younger. And rather than your father as the focus (although he could still be), we could look more towards your mother as the cause of the repression, perhaps concerning your father in some way - some of the symbols could support this. If this possibility is valid, then it is suggested that the suspected situation had something to do with a violation of confidence, extreme embarrassment, or maybe some moral issue. Can you think of a situation when you were younger that may fit one of these scenarios? So, do any parts of what I have said ring of truth? If so, which parts? If not, then we'll start all over!
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ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 43
From: Portsmouth,UK
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted June 06, 2004 06:08 AM
Well, yes. I guess that all makes sense, when I get to the root of it. I can't have children, I say it doesn't bother me, because I don't feel like it does consciously. But perhaps it does subconciously? And emotional pain, I'm living 3000 miles away from my family, and it has been getting to me lately. I'm going home to visit in 2 weeks, and it's been making me really anxious, intensifying my homesickness. And I do have a tendency to keep things inside as to not bother others with my problems, I like to help them with theirs rather than burden anyone with mine. So that said, I guess I shouldn't really do that, as it does make an appearance in my dreams, probably getting itself to the forefront of my mind as a way of telling me to deal with it? EEk, is that right? IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted June 08, 2004 04:54 AM
That is right. And dreams can be a way of helping to deal with it, so long as you are paying attention to what they are telling you. By simply being aware of what your dreams are saying, they can act as a valve, a release mechanism for venting unwanted, pent-up energies. So, you are saying that the dream is based in present situations, rather than past? (I am still learning you know!) Or both? IP: Logged |
ghanima81
Knowflake Posts: 43
From: Portsmouth,UK
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted June 08, 2004 04:13 PM
Yeah, a bit of both I think. I mean, there are some things from my childhood that weren't, well, good, I guess. But my dad has nothing to do with them. Things I would rather not discuss... but that I've never really discussed, so perhaps on top of the things in my current life that are bugging me that I'm not aware of aside from showing up in my subconscious(which is not a bad thing), perhaps these past things are now rearing their ugly heads telling me they need to be dealt with in some way?IP: Logged |
Ra
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posted June 09, 2004 03:12 PM
Yes, they need to be dealt with in some way. I certainly do not expect you to discuss the details here, so please do not feel uncomfortable. Speaking generally is just fine. We all repress stuff to some degree, but when it begins to show up in dreams like this, it is time to pay attention. There is probably some situation in your present life that has an emotional connection with, or is influenced by, the past event, initiating the dream. Give it some thought.  IP: Logged | |
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