posted July 15, 2004 02:19 PM         

I was at a hotel with Laura, my SIL, and Adalya (the baby I babysit). Though we were at a hotel I have the distinct feeling we were on a camping trip. Two men came into our "area" and refused to leave. I don't know why they were there. I didn't speak to them other than to order them out of our campsite. They refused to leave. Laura went out on a back patio, with a sliding glass door, along with the strange men. I called 911 three times before the call went through. A woman answered. We spoke for quite some time, though I don't remember our conversation. The police never came.

Where ever we were, we were far from home. Several states away. I was very uncomfortable with the presence of these men. I left our "area".

I'm in a parking lot with another strange man. We are talking. About what, I don't remember. After our chat, I went back to our "area". I was very distressed. The men were gone. Laura was sleeping. I found the bag of weed we brought wiht us. There wasn't much left. Laura woke up and asked that I save what was left for tomorrow. I told her it didn't matter because I was leaving with Sylvia (my old best friend from childhood that I haven't seen or spoken to in nearly 12 years) to go on another trip with her, and she doesn't smoke. While telling Laura this, I had a vision of something like The Grand Canyon. This is where Sylvia and I were going to go.

This is the last thing I remember about the dream.

I think it's important to add that I was at no point fearful of these men. I was extrememly agitated by their presense. I felt they were not good men. They had some sort of agenda.

posted July 20, 2004 09:22 AM         

This dream could have to do with transitioning into a more self-reliant, self-sufficient way of life ... or perhaps you are in the process of 'escaping' some situation.

What is distressing/agitating you in waking life?

Is there a man, or men, involved?

Do you think that 'weed' is hindering you in some way?

Are you unable to relax?

Are you not receiving help that you need?

... just a few starter questions.

posted July 20, 2004 10:22 PM         

The most distressing/agitating thing in my life at the moment is finances and my mother. Double Scorp, rage-aholic and an alcoholic that keeps landing herself in jail. She's also Bipolar, and in her manic phases, she has no impulse control.

A man or men involved? Bill collectors? Their all barking up my tree right now. *sigh* ... moving to an apartment... can pay them all off soon.

Weed? Nah. I don't really smoke that often. My psychiatrist is aware of my occasional pot smokin', and seems to think it's alright... since it's in MODERATION

I have been having a hard time relaxing lately. I'm under a lot of stress with our financial situation and the move. My Dr. prescribed me Xanax (issues with anxiety), but THAT hinders me. I can't function on that stuff... so I really don't take it often.

I really haven't been receiving much help. Hubby and I are pretty much on our own with this move. Plenty of friends offered to show up and help... but no one did I'm a little frustrated by that. I'm a very helpful person, and it seems to be my life's theme to never get back the help I put out. Sometimes I get mad... tell hubby I'm done helping people. It never sticks though. It makes me feel good to help others... even though I know when the tables are turned they wouldn't (or don't) do the same for me.