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From: Douglas, AZ. USA
Registered: Jun 2004

posted October 08, 2004 03:10 PM         

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I hate it when you can't have a decent dream about Mexican jumping beans. I don't ask much of my sub-conscious... just don't know why I can't dream normal Mexican jumping bean dreams. NO! Giant gross morphing bugs have to pop out of the bean! Sheesh!

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posted October 08, 2004 08:46 PM         

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From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003

posted October 08, 2004 11:05 PM         

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*whispers* How many patches are you on, Philly?
The imagery is astounding to me, too!!!
Hey, at least it wasn't Mexican Jumping Bears.

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From: Douglas, AZ. USA
Registered: Jun 2004

posted October 09, 2004 10:51 AM         

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Good Morning Pix,
I'm not wearing the patch anymore. Step three even made me queazy to my stomach. So I'm just chewing on straws!

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From: Ontario, Canada
Registered: Aug 2003

posted October 09, 2004 12:21 PM         

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I keep telling people~
"I am going with neptune on this"
Even if they don't quite get that. In my imagination, if I am feeling really badly like I need a smoke, I place my fingers up to my lips, as if I had a cigarette there, and proceed to 'smoke'. It calms me ( the deeper, calmer breaths?) and I swear, I sometimes get a 'rush' from it. Of course, my imagination is always active.. but in this case, it is advantageous. It takes me about as long as it would if I'd actually lit up. Minus the tightness in my lungs. This morning, I took the deepest breath I have in a while. I noticed, I'd try to 'breathe like a baby' in my lower belly, and I would just stop. I couldn't go any deeper. I did today. My cold is pretty much gone too. I psychologically needed to prepare for the trauma of quitting, by needing a cold to be the catalyst, even though I have been preparing for weeks.
I think it is soooooo neat that we stopped at the same *local* time, even though we are so far apart, and not abridged of what each were going to do. That's some spiritual connection rigfht there.. Aren't divinely inspired 'solutions' supposed to strike many all around the world, at about the same time? Neat.
This feels painful.. saying goodbye to an old standby.. but also cleansing in so many ways. I don't need them anymore. Now to just convince my body of it......
I haven't yt encountered every normal situation... I haven't had a practice with my band, for instance, since I have quit.. I haven't been at a bar....But I have faith that I can do it, and am approaching it with a sense of peace. A peace I can conquer.
Once again.. GOOD LUCK!!!!And man, If I can do it? You certainly can!!!!!

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From: Columbus, GA USA
Registered: Nov 2000

posted October 10, 2004 11:30 AM         

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"Never mentally imagine for another that which you would not want to experience for yourself, since the mental image you send out inevitably comes back to you." Rebecca Clark

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