posted November 10, 2004 10:29 PM         

I turned to the person I was with to ask them if they saw what had happened but they were gone. I looked at the building and everything seemed normal on the surface but something wasn't quite right. I didn't know what at first but I realized soon that it was because I didn't see any other people. There were always people around the building and signs of life! I walked over to it and there was just no one. Everything was quiet and the other buildings and small houses around me were quiet. I entered the building and went into an apartment. I felt like I had to hide because the sun was going down. There were plates of food on the tables as if people disappeared right in the middle of eating. There was a little dog left behind and he followed me around a little bit.

There were SO MANY windows in this apartment. I had to close all of them and lock them so I started to do so. They all had curtains but they were very sheer which I wasn't happy about. I began to hurry because I was running out of time. The sun went down and the lights were on in the apartment. I wasn't concerned because many of the empty apartments still had lights on so I wasn't worried about that signalling to anyone that I was there. I was worried if I turned it off, though, that it would be noticed. I was half way through locking windows when the soldiers showed up and I had to hide.

I found a loose panel in the wall near the bathroom. I was just closing it to hide myself when they entered the apartment. I was hoping they would search quickly and leave but as I listened to them talk I realized they planned on staying for some time and I was horrified because how could I hide that long?! I could see out of my hiding place slightly because there were gaps around the piece of wood. Two men entered then that held some authority. I could tell from their uniforms and the reactions of the soldiers already there. The little dog was taken away and I felt so guilty I couldn't help him. The two began looking through the apartment and came very close to where I was. The taller one (who was not the one of highest rank) had suspicions I was still hiding somewhere. I got the feeling he was looking for me specifically.

I looked behind me and there was another panel to hide behind so I managed to get behind that but there were gaps there, too, and I worried I'd be seen. The tall one did find the first panel and ripped it off and looked into the place I had been hiding just moments before. Luckily he didn't notice the other panel I was hiding behind and gave up searcing for the moment so he could go eat in the small dining area in the apartment. I backed up against the wall of the small space I was in and I looked up to see there were propoganda posters all over the walls.

There was a poster about killing Jewish animals with pictures of cats, dogs and rats on it. It said it wasn't enough just to kill the Jews but it was imperitive to kill all of their pets and breeds of animals considered Jewish. In the small type it mentioned it would be hard not to feel sorry for them but it must be done for the good of all. There was another poster with different cars on it. It said all American made cars would be confiscated and there was a picture of a Mustang with a slash through it and a picture of an Audi or something with a circle around it. Funny to see modern cars on old German propoganda posters. The point of the poster, though, was that non-German products were unpatriotic and would be taken away at will.

Somehow I did manage to get out of my hiding place and I kept thinking I had to figure a way to not let that tall guy to suspect me. There was a tree in the courtyard outside the building. It was morning now. The tree was FULL of these gigantic stink bugs. Each one was the size of my hand - very strange looking grey things. There were so many of them they were like the leaves of the tree. In order for me to stay where I was without being found out was for me to go undercover. For some reason the bugs were important for this. I had to STINK! I threw a rock into the tree and I was swarmed with these huge bugs spraying me. They covered me completely it was so disgusting they got tangled in my hair and covered my face but I let them because I had to.

posted January 05, 2005 01:53 PM         

If you do not mind, I would like to have a friend of mine give her opinion on both this dream and the overall past-present connection.

posted January 06, 2005 03:21 AM         

No need to think too hard about it - I could be, and seem to be, wrong about that possibility. Maybe I am subconsciously wishing it were so ... to make your dreams easier to explain, and to believe. Hmmmm

posted January 24, 2006 02:00 PM         

The only things I can say about the dream is that it seems to reflect a situation you were in (maybe you still are) that "stinks", a situation that had you feeling alone and closed off. At that time, you were hiding from it, trying to protect yourself from the "Nazi" in your life. And I am sure that this situation is heavily connected with your past-life in Nazi Germany.

Beyond that, my mind just will not go. At some point in the future perhaps we will figure out why.